My.Shit.Fest
So nothing has gone right for me tonight. I swear. Nothing. The only good thing about today was hanging out with an old friend and buying me some kick ass shorts.
Besides that, the entire night has been shit. I have done ABSOLUTELY nothing nor have I had the care to do anything. I just want to sleep. That's it. Sleep. Fuck it. Sleep. Just let me sleep. But, that's all the FUCK I do. I'm so god damn boring. And listening to fucking death cab for cutie at 11:30pm is NOT helping.
I just want to go drive. I want to just get away. Drive far the fuck away from everyone and everything. I want to be able to just step out of my car and not see a single person I fucking know.
I'm sick of my fucking life right now. I'm sick of the same god damn same shit every single fucking day. You know what it is....SLEEPING. All I do is SLEEP.
FUCK YOU SLEEP.
I'm sorry. I had to vent about sleep. My life sucks. I hate tonight. I wish it would just go away. I wish people could understand depression and stop thinking they know everything. You can't ever go through life not questioning some sort of aspect of it. That's why I listen to music...it helps me think.
Think about what the hell I'm doing....absolutely nothing.
I'm sucked in. I'm sucked into a disaster. I'm sucked into a going no where path. I'm going no wheres in my life right now. And no, I'm not talking about my job or school. I'm just talking about my personal life. Me. My emotions. I'm searching for something that is non-existent. Just forget about it. Please. I'm done.
Besides that, the entire night has been shit. I have done ABSOLUTELY nothing nor have I had the care to do anything. I just want to sleep. That's it. Sleep. Fuck it. Sleep. Just let me sleep. But, that's all the FUCK I do. I'm so god damn boring. And listening to fucking death cab for cutie at 11:30pm is NOT helping.
I just want to go drive. I want to just get away. Drive far the fuck away from everyone and everything. I want to be able to just step out of my car and not see a single person I fucking know.
I'm sick of my fucking life right now. I'm sick of the same god damn same shit every single fucking day. You know what it is....SLEEPING. All I do is SLEEP.
FUCK YOU SLEEP.
I'm sorry. I had to vent about sleep. My life sucks. I hate tonight. I wish it would just go away. I wish people could understand depression and stop thinking they know everything. You can't ever go through life not questioning some sort of aspect of it. That's why I listen to music...it helps me think.
Think about what the hell I'm doing....absolutely nothing.
I'm sucked in. I'm sucked into a disaster. I'm sucked into a going no where path. I'm going no wheres in my life right now. And no, I'm not talking about my job or school. I'm just talking about my personal life. Me. My emotions. I'm searching for something that is non-existent. Just forget about it. Please. I'm done.