you know who you are...
i found this letter for you that i never gave you just now while i was going through some papers throwing things away. i forgot just how much i cared....
I've got myself into quite a mess now haven't I? I know saying I'm sorry a million times won't help, but I really am. I know you've been hurt and the last thing I want is to hurt you again. I realize, however, that all I keep doing is fucking things up. I really like you, but I don't know how you feel about me. That makes things a litte confusing for me when I don't know what you want. I know you care about me, otherwise you wouldn't keep forgiving me. You're an amazingly sweet guy and I really meant it when I said you were the best thing that's happened to me. You're the first guy who's been nice to me without other intentions. When you told me that you couldn't trust me, that really hurt. It made me see how badly I messed up this time. I want you to be able to trust me. I don't want to lose what I have with you. There is something about you that just makes me so happy. I want to be close to you, but I'm scared of being rejected.
I wish I could better explain what I'm feeling right now, but there are so many emotions going through my head right now that I don't know where to start. The one thing that I am sure of is that I want to be with you. I don't want to fuck things up anymore. I was us to be together, you and me. I guess all I can do is hope you feel the same.
I know I've given you so many reason to leave me, but I don't want you to. And I'm sorry for everything I've done to screw things up. When it comes to relationships I tend to be a slow learner. I promise to try harder because I don't want to lose you, I've come close enough to know that for sure.
I don't know what else to say. What happens next is up to you.
Sandra
I've got myself into quite a mess now haven't I? I know saying I'm sorry a million times won't help, but I really am. I know you've been hurt and the last thing I want is to hurt you again. I realize, however, that all I keep doing is fucking things up. I really like you, but I don't know how you feel about me. That makes things a litte confusing for me when I don't know what you want. I know you care about me, otherwise you wouldn't keep forgiving me. You're an amazingly sweet guy and I really meant it when I said you were the best thing that's happened to me. You're the first guy who's been nice to me without other intentions. When you told me that you couldn't trust me, that really hurt. It made me see how badly I messed up this time. I want you to be able to trust me. I don't want to lose what I have with you. There is something about you that just makes me so happy. I want to be close to you, but I'm scared of being rejected.
I wish I could better explain what I'm feeling right now, but there are so many emotions going through my head right now that I don't know where to start. The one thing that I am sure of is that I want to be with you. I don't want to fuck things up anymore. I was us to be together, you and me. I guess all I can do is hope you feel the same.
I know I've given you so many reason to leave me, but I don't want you to. And I'm sorry for everything I've done to screw things up. When it comes to relationships I tend to be a slow learner. I promise to try harder because I don't want to lose you, I've come close enough to know that for sure.
I don't know what else to say. What happens next is up to you.
Sandra