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and just like that "I'm not interested in you aynmore" it's done. But I can't say I feel too horrible. I mean, I knew from the start that if anything did come of it, it would be a struggle. And the way he treated me around his friends, I was not a fan of to say the least. But I can't say that I haven't gained anything out of this experience. It's funny but with colsure with one person came closure with another, and the person I've been struggling to forgive for the past 2 years, I finally have. I've found a new peace within myself and I know, everything will be okay. I still don't know exactly what it is that's made me found closure with him, but I've found it. The one thing I've been praying for, I've been given and there's honestly no better christmas gift than that. I feel like my dark side has been washed clean, that I've gotten rid of a huge thing that's been on my back weighing me down. And though I don't know why now or even how, I do know that it's gone. And that's worth the whole thing. :]