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so it looks like i have no choice then, apparently a friend of hers thinks im some sort of monster, and that ive been causin all this shit to get worse, and that things were fine before i came along. i dont know maybe they were maybe they werent. And she apparently thinks im not good enough for a certain girl. I do love this girl though, and if this is really whats best for her, then i guess what i have to do then is to continue to wait it out, and try to make the best of this time, and try to get through my own life until then, so we might be able to figure things out then. I love this girl though, which is why im torn between fighting for her and protecting her, and letting her deal with things on her own. I guess though letting her deal with things on her own might make things a little less stressful for her i dont know. Maybe if im out of the picture for a while, until shes atleast 18, then things might calm down, or she might be able to make her own choices by then, whatever they may be. Damn i gotta stop smoking though, lol, at this rate ill probably die of cancer before then, lol. timing of life's shit just sucks though sometimes. well ive got finals this week anyways, so i gotta pull it together somehow and keep my grades a's like almost all of them have been. Apparently this friend of hers thinks i need to get over it though, all though i dont see how, and then she told me to get over myself. she also threatened to convince liz to move on, if i dont let go of this shit, but after all the manipulation, im havin one hell of a time letting go, even though i AM trying for this girl. I just wish things were simpler in life, but i guess life being all convoluded and fucked up sometimes is where some of the best music comes out of, i dunno, but sometimes it hurts too much. I love this girl though, so im gonna try this for her, to just let her figure things out on her own if thats what she really needs and wants.