:o)))

[rlystic]

These days are being quite nice to me :o))) Keeping to my goals seems much easier and nothing is too much of a chore anymore and I am quite enjoying myself. I don't have to push myself and I don't have any anxiety probs when I walk out that door anymore, just the rush of looking forward to having myself a nice :o))) John is on my mind all the time, just like he always is - simply a part of my world. Sometimes I miss him dearly, sometimes I feel all happy he is still as important to me as he was 6 years ago. No more thoughts running all over my head, no more fears trying to do what I wanna do and most of all, I feel so bloody normal it's amazing :o))) This is proving to be quite a nice week for me and I am content with my happiness. My head is sorting itself out so well and I don't even have to try hard. If I hit a snafu, it's over as soona s it has begun and there are no lasting repurcussions.
Onwards and upwards :o)))