Hierchy of needs
This is going to be a landmark year for me. I can't drink my way through the holidays like I have for the last half of my 20's. I've lost my tolerance for booze. I don't get drunk anymore, I get a throbbing head ache and a hangover first. So what the fuck am I going to do when I have to talk about myself to my family.
The booze made it really easy to be enthusiastic about what I was doing. I'd pick something impressive and do a little strutting around about it. I was a camera man, or I was an indie filmmaker, or I was whatever. Now I don't have anything to wank myself over. I'm a student. I do school. I'm not naturally gifted in the area I picked either. I picked it out of respect and interest, not because I was already the best.
Maybe I should just be honest with them. Though I've made some good choices to go for things I want and can earn my way towards, I'm depressed. It's not uncommon for me to go an entire day without talking to anyone. It's lonely. Going this way might be nothing but loneliness. I picked it; not many people pick their path, let alone pick one that takes sacrifice of things you want right now for things you want later in life. There isn't much scenery now, but I'm sure this is the right road.
The booze made it really easy to be enthusiastic about what I was doing. I'd pick something impressive and do a little strutting around about it. I was a camera man, or I was an indie filmmaker, or I was whatever. Now I don't have anything to wank myself over. I'm a student. I do school. I'm not naturally gifted in the area I picked either. I picked it out of respect and interest, not because I was already the best.
Maybe I should just be honest with them. Though I've made some good choices to go for things I want and can earn my way towards, I'm depressed. It's not uncommon for me to go an entire day without talking to anyone. It's lonely. Going this way might be nothing but loneliness. I picked it; not many people pick their path, let alone pick one that takes sacrifice of things you want right now for things you want later in life. There isn't much scenery now, but I'm sure this is the right road.