Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it [closed, complete]
Who: Axel and Namine
What: Namine and Demyx are the only sane Nobodies left. Since Demyx is talking to Zexion, Axel talks to Namine.
When: Before Namine shows up in this log
Where: The Pen and Sword
Namine wasn't too clear on what was causing all of these sights and visions, bust she was positive that it was a lot of information to take in quickly with very little background as to why the things people were seeing had happened, or in certian cases were going to happen, and that made it a priority when she found out about the latest of Axel's visions to find the other nobody. Her footsteps were was as quiet as a ghost as she walked through the Pen and Sword trying to find him. "Axel? Where are you?"
Axel glanced up from behind the counter, where he was reading the developments in Xemnas's latest entry with growing horror. This was... well, in a lot of ways it was probably good that he'd quit the Organization. Probably not so good that Namine knew about the Crystals. Should he tell the rest of Rivelata about the crystals? And if he did, how the hell was he gonna dig himself out of that hole? "hi, Namine," he said quietly when he saw her. "I'm over here, behind the counter."
"Hello" She walked up to the counter and rested her arms on it as she tried to think of the best way to ask how someone knew about their death before it even occured. "How are you? I mean, with everything going on." Namine might not know the right to enter the conversation, but she was sure that hadn't quite been it. It was hard sometimes entering a situation where she was sure Kairi could figure out what to say easier, and this was certianly one of those times.
He sighed heavily, closed his journal, set it on the counter, and then dragged a hand through his red (and today, unstyled) hair. "I'm going insane," he said honestly. "Part of me thinks that it's ridiculous for me to be reacting like this, and another part - the part of me that I think got left behind thanks to those stupid visions - is driving me into a huge guilt complex." Axel leaned his elbows on the counter, and looked away from Namine. "I'm so used to putting up a front -you probably know that, since you were in Castle Oblivion - that I don't know who I want to be right now."
She looked down at her hands, trying to find something to say to make things right, but she also knew that this was not neccisarily something she could fix. "I know." Namine said a little quietly, still not looking up. "Axel, you saw your future without any context. You changed, between when I met you and the last time I saw you." She had to fight the urge to draw on the counter with her fingers as she thought. "I don't know how to explain it." Except a change of heart, but she wasn't too sure how well that thought would go over.
Axel glanced back over at Namine, peering at the young girl as she spoke. "You could always try," he said when she had finished. Axel wasn't sure what it was about Namine, but even when he met her, he'd wanted to play big brother to her. couldn't do that with Marluxia and Larxene hanging around and generally thinking he had no idea what they were doing... and for whatever reason he hadn't tried here. But now....
Now he wasn't so sure.
She thought about it for a moment, really trying to find a way to explain the time that had passed that she only had bits and pieces of. "There was a change in you, that's all I know for sure. I think it had to be a lot of things, what passed after Castle Oblivion wasn't easy, not for any of us." She started, trying to express what she hadn't really taken the time to think about herself. It had been so quicj at the last she had never really had time to think anything through, and then she had come to Rivelata and it hadn't seemed as important when all it would do is remind her that there were still things to face even after Sora and Riku had come home. "And we all had to do things that we weren't sure of, or that we regretted." She still felt awful about the way that she had participated in the digital twilight town and the way that Roxas had been manipulated, even if things had ended well.
Axel nodded. That explained the first vision. "It was Roxas and Xion that did it, wasn't it?" he asked, thinking back to his first vision and that despaire he felt upon Roxas leaving the Organization. What he'd told Sora in his second vision, too (he made me feel like I had heart - and that one, Axel knew, was not a lie. he didn't say corny things like that unless he meant them). And when he thought about it, Rivelata had changed him too - Kariya, Sho, Uzuki, Argus... "Do nobodies really not have hearts?" he asked aloud.
"Yes. I think so anyway." She finally looked up and her hands relaxed on the counter. "They had a very big impact on things, for a lot of us. Riku and myself for sure. And I know their leaving had an impact on you. I saw it." She wasn't entirely sure whether she meant the memories she had gone through or the ones that belonged to her, but she knew somewhere between the two of those, she had seen the change. Axel's question threw her off a little and she looked at him questioningly. "What do you mean?"
"Zexion has a heartbeat," he said plainly. "Sometimes, though I've never verified it with anyone, I think I might too. Roxas definitely does."
"R-really?" She brightened instantly, a smile crossing her face as she was very pleasantly surprised. Namine had never really questioned the idea, think mainly because she knew herself to be something of an exception and so her own hadn't seemed strange, she had merged with Kairi already, so that had explained for her. But as far as she had known, there had been nothing to make her think the mantra of Organization XIII, that they couldn't feel, that they didn't have hearts, might be wrong. Over exaggerated perhaps, because there was no way with some of the reactions she had seen that they couldn't feel, but they had always been very adamant about their lack of hearts. "You're sure?"
"Felt his pulse for myself. Still not quite sure about myself, since I really do think I'm going nuts. Roxas..." And here, Axel laughed lightly. "Well, Roxas is a very special nobody." This, the whole Organization knew. Roxas had been born from a willing sacrifice, and was the Nobody of the chosen Keyblade Master. Roxas having a heart - even if he had been taught to deny it - made perfect sense to Axel. But himself? Zexion? Strange happenings were occuring in Rivelata, and if the ever-growing guilt complex Axel had developed was any indication, maybe the Organization was wrong. All the same, yes. Axel was quite sure that Zexion's heartbeat was there. maybe his own. Maybe... "Do you mind checking, Namine?"
"I don't think you're going crazy." She said honestly, if things really were turning out like they appeared to be? Then if made a lot of sense. The way that Axel and Zexion had been reacting to everything over the past couple of weeks was starting to make more sense as the pieces of the puzzel fell into place. "I think you aren't used to what you're...feeling." She was always a little unsure about the way she was supposed to talk about things like hearts or feelings to any member of the organization, having been talked to a few too many times about semantics and hearts not existing and everything. "Not at all." Namine smiled and held out her hand. "Let me see."
Feeling. That probably explained it, and explained Xemnas's sudden insanity. They didn't know what to do with emotions. Axel nodded, processing Namine's words, and held out his arm, pulling up his sleeve a bit to expose his wrist.
She took his arm and placed her fingers on the inside of his wrist. She waited for a moment and-there. Namine looked up at him with her smile wider and she was practically ready to laugh despite the current problems that were inevitable with this rebellion against Xemnas and the remaining issues about the crystals and the hearts. "You aren't crazy."
Axel was used to keeping his facial expressions from betraying his true thoughts, but this time, his face was ahead of his logical mind. In the span of a few seconds, his expression changed from confusion to happiness to more confusion to sadness. So the guilt was real. Axel sighed again, and looked Namine in the eyes. "Namine, I was really involved with the Resonance Crystals. I'm the one that kidnapped the victims, I'm the one that talked Sho into letting us cut his heart out, I'm the one that disposed of the bodies - well, until Rudy joined, that is. I told Zexion I was done wtih it about two weeks ago, but..." He closed his eyes, and looked away, folding his arms. "What should I do now?"
In all honesty, that had been the last reaction she had expected, though it probably shouldn't have been. And there was a rather large part of her that still did not know what she thought about all that she knew the Organization had done, and it still hurt to hear that she had been so wrong about the situation. Doing nothing even with her suspicions had probably gotten people hurt, and that was not something she quite knew how to deal with. Namine watched Axel carefully for a long moment, trying to think clearly about the whole situation, even though she was fighting her own internal conflict. "I don't know." She said honestly. "But, I do know this, you can help make sure that it doesn't continue, that other people don't get hurt. You can't change the past, so all you can do is make things better from now on."
"But if I tell people I was involved, they'll--" Axel protested, thinking of all the bounties that the queen had placed, of the many, many people that would be out for his blood (not that Sho wasn't already). "I mean, who's gonna believe me if I say I'm sorry? No legal system is that nice."
"I don't know." She said again, looking down again as she found herself truly without an answer. That was one of the reasons she had not said anything, and that was one of the seemingly immovable problems they faced now. "There has to be a way, though."
"What's the RIGHT thing to do?" Axel mused out loud.
She still didn't have a real answer, after all, that was a very loaded question. "Why....Why don't you try listening to what your heart tells you? It always worked for Sora and Kairi." Namine offered.
"Listen to..." Axel trailed off, placing a hand against his chest. That's what Roxas had suggested. Maybe it was the best course of action. Axel was quiet for several minutes more, before he smiled. "Alright. Thanks, Namine. I'll try."
"You're welcome." Namine was glad, despite everything, that this had happened. She wasn't really sure if she should be, but at the same time, she knew that things could be repaired, could get better, and if they could all get through this together...then she was positive everyhting would be alright. "I know you'll do just fine."
What: Namine and Demyx are the only sane Nobodies left. Since Demyx is talking to Zexion, Axel talks to Namine.
When: Before Namine shows up in this log
Where: The Pen and Sword
Namine wasn't too clear on what was causing all of these sights and visions, bust she was positive that it was a lot of information to take in quickly with very little background as to why the things people were seeing had happened, or in certian cases were going to happen, and that made it a priority when she found out about the latest of Axel's visions to find the other nobody. Her footsteps were was as quiet as a ghost as she walked through the Pen and Sword trying to find him. "Axel? Where are you?"
Axel glanced up from behind the counter, where he was reading the developments in Xemnas's latest entry with growing horror. This was... well, in a lot of ways it was probably good that he'd quit the Organization. Probably not so good that Namine knew about the Crystals. Should he tell the rest of Rivelata about the crystals? And if he did, how the hell was he gonna dig himself out of that hole? "hi, Namine," he said quietly when he saw her. "I'm over here, behind the counter."
"Hello" She walked up to the counter and rested her arms on it as she tried to think of the best way to ask how someone knew about their death before it even occured. "How are you? I mean, with everything going on." Namine might not know the right to enter the conversation, but she was sure that hadn't quite been it. It was hard sometimes entering a situation where she was sure Kairi could figure out what to say easier, and this was certianly one of those times.
He sighed heavily, closed his journal, set it on the counter, and then dragged a hand through his red (and today, unstyled) hair. "I'm going insane," he said honestly. "Part of me thinks that it's ridiculous for me to be reacting like this, and another part - the part of me that I think got left behind thanks to those stupid visions - is driving me into a huge guilt complex." Axel leaned his elbows on the counter, and looked away from Namine. "I'm so used to putting up a front -you probably know that, since you were in Castle Oblivion - that I don't know who I want to be right now."
She looked down at her hands, trying to find something to say to make things right, but she also knew that this was not neccisarily something she could fix. "I know." Namine said a little quietly, still not looking up. "Axel, you saw your future without any context. You changed, between when I met you and the last time I saw you." She had to fight the urge to draw on the counter with her fingers as she thought. "I don't know how to explain it." Except a change of heart, but she wasn't too sure how well that thought would go over.
Axel glanced back over at Namine, peering at the young girl as she spoke. "You could always try," he said when she had finished. Axel wasn't sure what it was about Namine, but even when he met her, he'd wanted to play big brother to her. couldn't do that with Marluxia and Larxene hanging around and generally thinking he had no idea what they were doing... and for whatever reason he hadn't tried here. But now....
Now he wasn't so sure.
She thought about it for a moment, really trying to find a way to explain the time that had passed that she only had bits and pieces of. "There was a change in you, that's all I know for sure. I think it had to be a lot of things, what passed after Castle Oblivion wasn't easy, not for any of us." She started, trying to express what she hadn't really taken the time to think about herself. It had been so quicj at the last she had never really had time to think anything through, and then she had come to Rivelata and it hadn't seemed as important when all it would do is remind her that there were still things to face even after Sora and Riku had come home. "And we all had to do things that we weren't sure of, or that we regretted." She still felt awful about the way that she had participated in the digital twilight town and the way that Roxas had been manipulated, even if things had ended well.
Axel nodded. That explained the first vision. "It was Roxas and Xion that did it, wasn't it?" he asked, thinking back to his first vision and that despaire he felt upon Roxas leaving the Organization. What he'd told Sora in his second vision, too (he made me feel like I had heart - and that one, Axel knew, was not a lie. he didn't say corny things like that unless he meant them). And when he thought about it, Rivelata had changed him too - Kariya, Sho, Uzuki, Argus... "Do nobodies really not have hearts?" he asked aloud.
"Yes. I think so anyway." She finally looked up and her hands relaxed on the counter. "They had a very big impact on things, for a lot of us. Riku and myself for sure. And I know their leaving had an impact on you. I saw it." She wasn't entirely sure whether she meant the memories she had gone through or the ones that belonged to her, but she knew somewhere between the two of those, she had seen the change. Axel's question threw her off a little and she looked at him questioningly. "What do you mean?"
"Zexion has a heartbeat," he said plainly. "Sometimes, though I've never verified it with anyone, I think I might too. Roxas definitely does."
"R-really?" She brightened instantly, a smile crossing her face as she was very pleasantly surprised. Namine had never really questioned the idea, think mainly because she knew herself to be something of an exception and so her own hadn't seemed strange, she had merged with Kairi already, so that had explained for her. But as far as she had known, there had been nothing to make her think the mantra of Organization XIII, that they couldn't feel, that they didn't have hearts, might be wrong. Over exaggerated perhaps, because there was no way with some of the reactions she had seen that they couldn't feel, but they had always been very adamant about their lack of hearts. "You're sure?"
"Felt his pulse for myself. Still not quite sure about myself, since I really do think I'm going nuts. Roxas..." And here, Axel laughed lightly. "Well, Roxas is a very special nobody." This, the whole Organization knew. Roxas had been born from a willing sacrifice, and was the Nobody of the chosen Keyblade Master. Roxas having a heart - even if he had been taught to deny it - made perfect sense to Axel. But himself? Zexion? Strange happenings were occuring in Rivelata, and if the ever-growing guilt complex Axel had developed was any indication, maybe the Organization was wrong. All the same, yes. Axel was quite sure that Zexion's heartbeat was there. maybe his own. Maybe... "Do you mind checking, Namine?"
"I don't think you're going crazy." She said honestly, if things really were turning out like they appeared to be? Then if made a lot of sense. The way that Axel and Zexion had been reacting to everything over the past couple of weeks was starting to make more sense as the pieces of the puzzel fell into place. "I think you aren't used to what you're...feeling." She was always a little unsure about the way she was supposed to talk about things like hearts or feelings to any member of the organization, having been talked to a few too many times about semantics and hearts not existing and everything. "Not at all." Namine smiled and held out her hand. "Let me see."
Feeling. That probably explained it, and explained Xemnas's sudden insanity. They didn't know what to do with emotions. Axel nodded, processing Namine's words, and held out his arm, pulling up his sleeve a bit to expose his wrist.
She took his arm and placed her fingers on the inside of his wrist. She waited for a moment and-there. Namine looked up at him with her smile wider and she was practically ready to laugh despite the current problems that were inevitable with this rebellion against Xemnas and the remaining issues about the crystals and the hearts. "You aren't crazy."
Axel was used to keeping his facial expressions from betraying his true thoughts, but this time, his face was ahead of his logical mind. In the span of a few seconds, his expression changed from confusion to happiness to more confusion to sadness. So the guilt was real. Axel sighed again, and looked Namine in the eyes. "Namine, I was really involved with the Resonance Crystals. I'm the one that kidnapped the victims, I'm the one that talked Sho into letting us cut his heart out, I'm the one that disposed of the bodies - well, until Rudy joined, that is. I told Zexion I was done wtih it about two weeks ago, but..." He closed his eyes, and looked away, folding his arms. "What should I do now?"
In all honesty, that had been the last reaction she had expected, though it probably shouldn't have been. And there was a rather large part of her that still did not know what she thought about all that she knew the Organization had done, and it still hurt to hear that she had been so wrong about the situation. Doing nothing even with her suspicions had probably gotten people hurt, and that was not something she quite knew how to deal with. Namine watched Axel carefully for a long moment, trying to think clearly about the whole situation, even though she was fighting her own internal conflict. "I don't know." She said honestly. "But, I do know this, you can help make sure that it doesn't continue, that other people don't get hurt. You can't change the past, so all you can do is make things better from now on."
"But if I tell people I was involved, they'll--" Axel protested, thinking of all the bounties that the queen had placed, of the many, many people that would be out for his blood (not that Sho wasn't already). "I mean, who's gonna believe me if I say I'm sorry? No legal system is that nice."
"I don't know." She said again, looking down again as she found herself truly without an answer. That was one of the reasons she had not said anything, and that was one of the seemingly immovable problems they faced now. "There has to be a way, though."
"What's the RIGHT thing to do?" Axel mused out loud.
She still didn't have a real answer, after all, that was a very loaded question. "Why....Why don't you try listening to what your heart tells you? It always worked for Sora and Kairi." Namine offered.
"Listen to..." Axel trailed off, placing a hand against his chest. That's what Roxas had suggested. Maybe it was the best course of action. Axel was quiet for several minutes more, before he smiled. "Alright. Thanks, Namine. I'll try."
"You're welcome." Namine was glad, despite everything, that this had happened. She wasn't really sure if she should be, but at the same time, she knew that things could be repaired, could get better, and if they could all get through this together...then she was positive everyhting would be alright. "I know you'll do just fine."