Well uh.
I arranged my things and the flat is finally in a state to bear living there.
I had a housewarming party on Saturday. I'd want to have more of them, but I don't think I have the strength for it. I canceled the one for my workmates which was supposed to be the coming Sunday.
I worry about my job - the previous week was pretty hard, and there are lots of worrying news about the finance recession.
I wish we did't have a system so reliant on speculation, where the worth of labour or produce has no connection to what is needed. Well I have some opinions on economy but that's for another time.
I want my marriage to survive, but I made the wrong choice in moving away, and that mistake cannot be mended it seems, even if I moved back, because he won't move in together with me.
I failed in trying, and I'm not worth the risk.
I was ill with a cold and a fever a week ago, which pretty much completely incapacitated me, so I missed out on a birthday party, seeing friends, seeing anyone really, and I didn't buy any food. I particularly missed the social interaction and regretted its absence.
I have read these books since the previous update: Fast Cash by Jens Lapidus, Brida by Paulo Coelho, and Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist. Iäm still left with Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and Alastalon Salissa by Volter Kilpi.
I've watched the following movies: AngelA, Far from Heaven, S1M0NE, The End of the Affair, Little Children, Serendipity, The Jane Austen Bookclub, The Pianist, 8 Femmes, Shortbus, This Girl's Life, The Piano Teacher, and lots of Finnish films.
At night the cats try to climb into my closet of lolita clothes, toss my brand socks onto the floor and tear down the folded skirts.
I had a housewarming party on Saturday. I'd want to have more of them, but I don't think I have the strength for it. I canceled the one for my workmates which was supposed to be the coming Sunday.
I worry about my job - the previous week was pretty hard, and there are lots of worrying news about the finance recession.
I wish we did't have a system so reliant on speculation, where the worth of labour or produce has no connection to what is needed. Well I have some opinions on economy but that's for another time.
I want my marriage to survive, but I made the wrong choice in moving away, and that mistake cannot be mended it seems, even if I moved back, because he won't move in together with me.
I failed in trying, and I'm not worth the risk.
I was ill with a cold and a fever a week ago, which pretty much completely incapacitated me, so I missed out on a birthday party, seeing friends, seeing anyone really, and I didn't buy any food. I particularly missed the social interaction and regretted its absence.
I have read these books since the previous update: Fast Cash by Jens Lapidus, Brida by Paulo Coelho, and Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist. Iäm still left with Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and Alastalon Salissa by Volter Kilpi.
I've watched the following movies: AngelA, Far from Heaven, S1M0NE, The End of the Affair, Little Children, Serendipity, The Jane Austen Bookclub, The Pianist, 8 Femmes, Shortbus, This Girl's Life, The Piano Teacher, and lots of Finnish films.
At night the cats try to climb into my closet of lolita clothes, toss my brand socks onto the floor and tear down the folded skirts.