A boy who walk in my life
Cannot love him actually. Why?
Someone who declare loving you finally come. After a long blank.
A loooong long blank.
Or because this blank? Feel nice when someone care to you.
Love you. Ready at services (haha!)
But, I do not feel any chemistry, first impression its like I make my self believe that I need a boy in my life. Like impulsive decision, I've made a relationship.
Yap. Not long, meet 3 times with a date, never flattering like every romance in past. Then I'm scared to realize that I just lying my self. You need a relationship Kiki? Its just your ego or you just shock that you have someone falling on you?
So much sorry, boy. Don't wanna hurt you because I believe you don't know me how I am actually. Please God, don't want any affection from somebody like this... I never have one sided love but I know how hurt love is. I really know..yeah, its never easy to forget one.
God, don't want to hurt or being hurt by foolish love. Just bring my future husband only...its okay to wait for Right person for me a bit longer but don't makes me desperate. Find me someone just like I want with strong personality which can makes me believe he will be a Great Imam for my new-built future-family. Amin YRA.