one of those days...
Cut to spare my friends:
I just want to move forward. I am so sick of being stuck working hard and not ever getting over the top ofthe next hill.
1. My back won't stabilize. I work, do my excercises, lift carefully, go to therapy...
I have a day or two with little pain, then BANG! I did something, I don't know what and I am hurting again and it gradually subsides over about a week. One step forward and two steps back.
2. The house. I have rarely had the energy to work on it because I am spending lots of effort on trying to work out and get my back in shape. When I do work on the house it is painfully slow. Next step: countertops and window shades in the kitchen. I have some painting to do. Still haven't found anyone working in the kitchen department in the store that I would prefer to use for the counters. I haven't had a day off with L to work on things in 4 weeks. We have 1 day off together per week usually, and my boss has decided that I no longer need that day off every week, so I have 1-2 hours together with him a couple of days a week and I don't want to spend all that time working. Go figure.
3. My job. I am so sick of retail that I can hardly stand to drag myself in to work every day. I feel seriously disrespected by a couple of folks at work the last couple of days and it is seriously getting on my nerves. I have insomnia tonight and a huge headache so I am trying to get it out of my system by writing. There are so many things I hate about my job right now I just can't even write it all down.
4. The problem is that I just can't up and quit, I have a house to pay for, responsibilities. Sure I have some money stuck away, or at least some resources I can use to prevent losing the house and starving for a short while, but not enough to support myself for long. I need to have a direction to even start looking for a job and I don't know where to start. I have some ideas where I could start a small income I think and I have found some resources (people) that can give me some sound advice in the near future.
One solution may be to go ahead and quit, then get a low level part time job to supplement the savings and keep me going for a while. Part of the stress at work is feeling like I have just spent too much of my life serving people, retail ya know, so I feel like I need a break from that. Oh well, I should ata least try to get a little more sleep before I have to get up and go to work again.
I just want to move forward. I am so sick of being stuck working hard and not ever getting over the top ofthe next hill.
1. My back won't stabilize. I work, do my excercises, lift carefully, go to therapy...
I have a day or two with little pain, then BANG! I did something, I don't know what and I am hurting again and it gradually subsides over about a week. One step forward and two steps back.
2. The house. I have rarely had the energy to work on it because I am spending lots of effort on trying to work out and get my back in shape. When I do work on the house it is painfully slow. Next step: countertops and window shades in the kitchen. I have some painting to do. Still haven't found anyone working in the kitchen department in the store that I would prefer to use for the counters. I haven't had a day off with L to work on things in 4 weeks. We have 1 day off together per week usually, and my boss has decided that I no longer need that day off every week, so I have 1-2 hours together with him a couple of days a week and I don't want to spend all that time working. Go figure.
3. My job. I am so sick of retail that I can hardly stand to drag myself in to work every day. I feel seriously disrespected by a couple of folks at work the last couple of days and it is seriously getting on my nerves. I have insomnia tonight and a huge headache so I am trying to get it out of my system by writing. There are so many things I hate about my job right now I just can't even write it all down.
4. The problem is that I just can't up and quit, I have a house to pay for, responsibilities. Sure I have some money stuck away, or at least some resources I can use to prevent losing the house and starving for a short while, but not enough to support myself for long. I need to have a direction to even start looking for a job and I don't know where to start. I have some ideas where I could start a small income I think and I have found some resources (people) that can give me some sound advice in the near future.
One solution may be to go ahead and quit, then get a low level part time job to supplement the savings and keep me going for a while. Part of the stress at work is feeling like I have just spent too much of my life serving people, retail ya know, so I feel like I need a break from that. Oh well, I should ata least try to get a little more sleep before I have to get up and go to work again.