today
tonight is the first concert.
and I am sick.
and tired.
and scared.
but I am also SO EXCITED
we've been getting all these heartwarming and inspiring emails from everyone about how much we all mean to eachother, and I've been thinking about it, about how we've all worked so hard for this. and it's incredible. that its here! that it's OUR show! OURS! after four years of three or four songs before the concert choir took the stage, that's an intense feeling.
I'm sad that my mom couldnt come down. and I'm upset that emily and her family are gone THIS weekend. but someone did try and convince me (remind me?) that I dont do this for my friends and family, I do this for me. it's about what I *love* doing, and it's about MY finding a new community.
that being said the entire last hour I was in bed I was having terrible stress dreams about now knowing what the wear and not having makeup (we have to wear stage makeup, eew) and emily was in them and that was awkward. and a guinea pig peed on me. who knows what the hell THAT was about.
anyways. today is an exciting day.
I can feel it already (maybe because my roommate made PANCAKES!)!
and I am sick.
and tired.
and scared.
but I am also SO EXCITED
we've been getting all these heartwarming and inspiring emails from everyone about how much we all mean to eachother, and I've been thinking about it, about how we've all worked so hard for this. and it's incredible. that its here! that it's OUR show! OURS! after four years of three or four songs before the concert choir took the stage, that's an intense feeling.
I'm sad that my mom couldnt come down. and I'm upset that emily and her family are gone THIS weekend. but someone did try and convince me (remind me?) that I dont do this for my friends and family, I do this for me. it's about what I *love* doing, and it's about MY finding a new community.
that being said the entire last hour I was in bed I was having terrible stress dreams about now knowing what the wear and not having makeup (we have to wear stage makeup, eew) and emily was in them and that was awkward. and a guinea pig peed on me. who knows what the hell THAT was about.
anyways. today is an exciting day.
I can feel it already (maybe because my roommate made PANCAKES!)!