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so, dont tell anyone, but i might be happy with my life as it stands. yeah, ok, so i wanted to live with nathan next year, that sucks, but thats next year. as of right now, i think i'm exactly where i want to be. i'm working a lot, but i still have time off, i do stuff every weekend, i'm making enough money that i'm not struggling to pay the bills and i have enough left over to do fun stuff, save a little. i'm slowly but surely making friends, friends who are not becca nathan or jessie. i talk to other people on a regular basis, which is more than i could say three monthes ago. right now its hard for me to remember those monthes between september and late febuary. i was such a bum, theres really no defining thing to remember. i slept a lot, and it seemed to take waaaay too long between weekends, and i got fat. thats what happened. now i go to work every day for lots of hours, i clean my house less than i did before, but i'm also in it less, i work out at night, nathan still comes over on weekends, but they seem to arrive much quicker, i dont watch as much tv, i sleep way less, and i'm just happier. when i envisioned this year a year ago, this isnt where i thought i'd be. i figured i'd be in school. but i think taking this year off was a good thing for me, its given me time to really think about what i should do with myself, and i was never crazy about the idea of college anyway. i'm going because if i dont i'll never have a decent job. thats it. i dont yearn for higher education, i dont really care about learning advanced english or biology or any of that. maybe i'm just content to be how i am. under educated, but so much of the stuff that becca and nathan are learning bores me and seems so useless. i dont care. so i'm taking classes that directly apply to what i want to do, and i'm taking them late at night so i can still work my jobs. oh, in case i forgot to post, i'm starting online college in september for interior design. easier, quicker, cheaper. i like it. so yeah, i realized today while i was working that i am happy with where i find myself at this point in my life, working hard, playing hard in my time off, and getting my feet under me for the rest of this craziness we call life. go me!