different things
i posted this in my horse journal.
since i'm waiting around at the moment for jed's mum to get here, i thought i should record something.
at 5am this morning (approx) my mum died.
for some reason, my head is busting with poetry, but my fingers aren't translating that. besides, i don't want to waste headspace by thinking of syntax and words.
there are a lot of things to do today/rightnow/tomorrow.
and of course, the mother/daughter thing to think about.
i called my dad as soon as the hospital told me. i was crying and said that i was supposed to see her on the weekend but because i was so busy, i'd decided to go on Tuesday instead.
he said that "we'll always have regrets about things we did or didn't do... but that she wouldn't."
i found that really helpful.
we are going to the hospital soon (when jed's mum is here) and meeting with the priest.
she is loved.
i'll txt jules, and others. i dunno.... is this something you advertise? do i scream it to the world?
such a funky thing to say, "my mum passed away"
i've had to say it twice this morning (work and my friend rhiannon, whom i car pool with).
standard response, "O my god..."
i think i said that about 8 times on the phone when the hospital called. they told me not to drive. ha ha.
they called me at 5.10 this morning and i didn't answer the phone. What freak would be calling at 5am?
anyway.
there's stuff to do.
since i'm waiting around at the moment for jed's mum to get here, i thought i should record something.
at 5am this morning (approx) my mum died.
for some reason, my head is busting with poetry, but my fingers aren't translating that. besides, i don't want to waste headspace by thinking of syntax and words.
there are a lot of things to do today/rightnow/tomorrow.
and of course, the mother/daughter thing to think about.
i called my dad as soon as the hospital told me. i was crying and said that i was supposed to see her on the weekend but because i was so busy, i'd decided to go on Tuesday instead.
he said that "we'll always have regrets about things we did or didn't do... but that she wouldn't."
i found that really helpful.
we are going to the hospital soon (when jed's mum is here) and meeting with the priest.
she is loved.
i'll txt jules, and others. i dunno.... is this something you advertise? do i scream it to the world?
such a funky thing to say, "my mum passed away"
i've had to say it twice this morning (work and my friend rhiannon, whom i car pool with).
standard response, "O my god..."
i think i said that about 8 times on the phone when the hospital called. they told me not to drive. ha ha.
they called me at 5.10 this morning and i didn't answer the phone. What freak would be calling at 5am?
anyway.
there's stuff to do.