When the sunlight hits your eyes
I've been so good this week. I think the reality of moving to Galloway looming over my head has really put my ass in gear. After today, I will have applied to 15 jobs this week, all over the country but mainly in New York and D.C.
You know how they say when one part of your life comes together another part falls apart? Every part of my life is apart, so I have unanswered faith that SOMEthing HAS to get better soon and if nothing else, I'd like it to be my career. Love can wait, I need to get my ducks in a line. Clearly I watched A Lot Like Love for the 1,000th time the other day; I don't know why I love that movie so much, I think it's so sweet and perfect. BUT the romantic comedy ban is still in effect.
I am going to start reading Into the Wild today. I'm nervous about it. I saw the movie around this time last year (which needs to be added to my life without Victor list) and it struck a cord in me. I'm so jealous of Chris McCandless; he's got so much more spirit and passion than I think I'll ever muster about anything. I'm terrified to read this book because I'm afraid I won't come back; it's going to change me, for better or worse, I don't know, but I know I'll be different after it and I'm not sure that THIS is the perfect juncture in my life to really be knowingly making this change. But, I've been itching to read this book for a year now and it fell into my hands last night, so maybe it's really meant to be if you believe in that sort of thing.
I'm exhausted today. I went to NY Wed with Afnan and met up with Doug and Anka, which is a really long story, but we stayed out until 3 or 4, I don't know because neither of those fools knows how to properly set a clock haha. I didn't really get a lot of sleep because Anka is horrible to sleep next to unless he's practically in a coma haha. I got back to NB around 1:30, ate lunch, and went to work yesterday. Dave asked me to meet him for drinks, and even though I avoid going out on Tues and Thursday nights, I agreed because he's been really amazing through this whole Victor thing, so I figured it was the least I could do to repay his efforts. I got home last night from that around 12, didn't fall asleep until at least 1:30, and had to be up at 5:40. Since I've been sick I've been sleeping at least ten hours a night so these past two days have really thrown a wrench in my sleeping pattern. I'm hoping to get to sleep early tonight because of the last football game of the season (and possibly ever for me) is tomorrow. What the hell? It's a noon game, the first and only all season, so we'll be out there tailgating by 7 at the latest. Fuck you WVU, fuck you. The only plus to that is that it's going to be cold (showers and possible snow), so if there's any sun at all, we'll be out there for it.
If RU goes to Charlotte, the boys and I are going. I hope they make it, I love a good road trip with these guys, except hopefully there will only be four in a five person car instead of 5/5 like the eight hour trip we took to Toronto a few years back. It'll be the last big thing I do (12/25 - 12/27) for a while, you know, before my money runs dry and I'm selling organs on the black market.
I've got other things to rant and rave about, but I'm too tired in general and nervous/excited about Into the Wild. I'm such a nerd; hot nerd? haha.
You know how they say when one part of your life comes together another part falls apart? Every part of my life is apart, so I have unanswered faith that SOMEthing HAS to get better soon and if nothing else, I'd like it to be my career. Love can wait, I need to get my ducks in a line. Clearly I watched A Lot Like Love for the 1,000th time the other day; I don't know why I love that movie so much, I think it's so sweet and perfect. BUT the romantic comedy ban is still in effect.
I am going to start reading Into the Wild today. I'm nervous about it. I saw the movie around this time last year (which needs to be added to my life without Victor list) and it struck a cord in me. I'm so jealous of Chris McCandless; he's got so much more spirit and passion than I think I'll ever muster about anything. I'm terrified to read this book because I'm afraid I won't come back; it's going to change me, for better or worse, I don't know, but I know I'll be different after it and I'm not sure that THIS is the perfect juncture in my life to really be knowingly making this change. But, I've been itching to read this book for a year now and it fell into my hands last night, so maybe it's really meant to be if you believe in that sort of thing.
I'm exhausted today. I went to NY Wed with Afnan and met up with Doug and Anka, which is a really long story, but we stayed out until 3 or 4, I don't know because neither of those fools knows how to properly set a clock haha. I didn't really get a lot of sleep because Anka is horrible to sleep next to unless he's practically in a coma haha. I got back to NB around 1:30, ate lunch, and went to work yesterday. Dave asked me to meet him for drinks, and even though I avoid going out on Tues and Thursday nights, I agreed because he's been really amazing through this whole Victor thing, so I figured it was the least I could do to repay his efforts. I got home last night from that around 12, didn't fall asleep until at least 1:30, and had to be up at 5:40. Since I've been sick I've been sleeping at least ten hours a night so these past two days have really thrown a wrench in my sleeping pattern. I'm hoping to get to sleep early tonight because of the last football game of the season (and possibly ever for me) is tomorrow. What the hell? It's a noon game, the first and only all season, so we'll be out there tailgating by 7 at the latest. Fuck you WVU, fuck you. The only plus to that is that it's going to be cold (showers and possible snow), so if there's any sun at all, we'll be out there for it.
If RU goes to Charlotte, the boys and I are going. I hope they make it, I love a good road trip with these guys, except hopefully there will only be four in a five person car instead of 5/5 like the eight hour trip we took to Toronto a few years back. It'll be the last big thing I do (12/25 - 12/27) for a while, you know, before my money runs dry and I'm selling organs on the black market.
I've got other things to rant and rave about, but I'm too tired in general and nervous/excited about Into the Wild. I'm such a nerd; hot nerd? haha.