Unsent letters... the things you need to say but just can't
Dearest You,
Another day has passed and still there is no word. I feel so useless to you and hence helpless because you do infact mean so much to me, especially after everything I went through last week and after all of the things that you said and did. I enjoyed spending time with you and Scott, it actually meant a lot to me that you invited me to do something that means so much to you with someone you value as much as you value him.
Sometimes I wish I had the nerve to regret ever messaging you on myspace after St. Patrick's Day, but it never lasts very long. No one I've ever met has understood me so clearly without even trying. No one makes me laugh as hard or think as deeply as you do. No one gets me -- mentally, emotionally, physically, etc. etc., in every sense of GETTING someone -- NO ONE gets me like you do.
I'm sure I drive you nuts with my relentless attention given and needed, but... I actually don't know where I was going with that? Ha. Seriously, though, before you do anything harmful, crazy, or drastic, please think of me. Please remember that I'm here caring for you every step of the way.
I'm not even sure how it all began, somewhere between our hundreds of hours of online communication, and every time I see you, and the hugs, and the kisses, and the jokes, and the spats, and well, everything. I know you don't want me to feel about you the way that I do, but I can't help it... even when we're so far apart and haven't actually talked in four days (which for most people, I know isn't a lot, but it's the longest we've gone in a really long time), I long for you, I wonder and care about you. And maybe all of the energy that I put into you and "us" will end up being wasted, but I'll never regret a single moment. I was serious when I said, "I'm not going any where."
<3 Lauren
Another day has passed and still there is no word. I feel so useless to you and hence helpless because you do infact mean so much to me, especially after everything I went through last week and after all of the things that you said and did. I enjoyed spending time with you and Scott, it actually meant a lot to me that you invited me to do something that means so much to you with someone you value as much as you value him.
Sometimes I wish I had the nerve to regret ever messaging you on myspace after St. Patrick's Day, but it never lasts very long. No one I've ever met has understood me so clearly without even trying. No one makes me laugh as hard or think as deeply as you do. No one gets me -- mentally, emotionally, physically, etc. etc., in every sense of GETTING someone -- NO ONE gets me like you do.
I'm sure I drive you nuts with my relentless attention given and needed, but... I actually don't know where I was going with that? Ha. Seriously, though, before you do anything harmful, crazy, or drastic, please think of me. Please remember that I'm here caring for you every step of the way.
I'm not even sure how it all began, somewhere between our hundreds of hours of online communication, and every time I see you, and the hugs, and the kisses, and the jokes, and the spats, and well, everything. I know you don't want me to feel about you the way that I do, but I can't help it... even when we're so far apart and haven't actually talked in four days (which for most people, I know isn't a lot, but it's the longest we've gone in a really long time), I long for you, I wonder and care about you. And maybe all of the energy that I put into you and "us" will end up being wasted, but I'll never regret a single moment. I was serious when I said, "I'm not going any where."
<3 Lauren