Appreciate life, it's the only one you've got!
So, I haven't written in a while, and don't count on me writing often now that I'm home. I left school on Friday the 14th. I was supposed to leave on Tuesday, and then again on Thursday, but, no, I had to wait until Friday.
On the two hour drive home, I'm relaxing, listening to my awesome home made CD and all of a sudden my life is changed forever. I was speeding a bit when my car went out of control. I tried to regain control, but front wheel drive isn't all it's cracked up to be and I never got control again. The next thing I know I'm flipping over 5 times (or so they told me) off of the parkway in to the grassy area that seperates the N/S sides of the Parkway. My poor car looks like something out of a NASCAR crash and I managed to walk away with a bruised arm and 2 stitch cut on my temple. Seriously, guys, if you saw the car and you saw me you would be just as amazed as I am, I SHOULD BE DEAD RIGHT NOW...
That's the scariest and most freeing thought to have all at the same time. I mean it's like I get a second chance to do all of the things I claim I'll do and never get around to, I get to tell my friends and my not so friends that I love them and appreciate their exsistence in my life. I get to read all of the books and hear all of the music that I never really took time to give a chance before the accident. I can still live just as fully as before, minus a car. I am so greatful to be here, typing away with everything I had the last time I wrote in this journal. I feel like in those few moments I realized what life is really about... living it and appreciating it for all it's worth. You can't take things back, and somethings cannot even be forgotten, but sometimes, if you're lucky you have the chance to make things right, make them better... live the way you've always wanted to.
This was my second near death experience. It's funny, the paramedic asked me if anyone else was involved in the accident and I looked at him kind of funny and said, "No, I'm a one person accident." It's so true! I manage to get into more trouble and accidents (walking, driving, riding a bike, running, talking, etc.) than anyone ever. As funny as it is, it's also a sad realization.
So, to anyone that reads this journal: I love you and thank you so much for being a part of my life, even if you're not really a part of it any more.