May 09, 2004 22:30
Hey imaginary guys and girls that read my journal! I suppose I shouldn't really feel bad about not writing in here, I mean, it's no big deal or anything. I'm feeling kind of cynical in this moment.
Anyway, life has improved immensely since I last wrote. I finally, finally, finally got over Henry. It's sad that I had to hurt Afnan before I realized that I was wasting emotion on Henry, but I realized it and Afnan forgave me, which was most excellent. He and I have been spending lots of time together, I actually shed a few tears today because I'm going to miss him so much this summer. It sucks cause he's super north Jersey and I'm super south Jersey and next semester he'll be in D.C., but whatever, I mean it's all good while it's happening now. Good times = good memories.
I'm pretty much done here. I've been wasting a lot of time... it's good though, you know? To hang around school and not have to worry about classes, homework, and exams... to hang out and party all night and not regret not waking up early the next day (I actually always wake up early after a night of good drinking, lol). To truly appreciate campus for what it's worth. It's all sort of bittersweet....
I'm going to miss every one so much! Especially!!:: Afnan's many identities and personalities, Double's incredible rolling skills, silly looks, and of course the phrase and pronunciation of "Sweet," Jennie's awesome (just like mine but red) hair and our silly drunken moments together, Hasim constantly asking for a massage and always being too cool to hang out w/ us, Alberte's never-ending faith and constant need to give, Henry's procrastination and philosophical talks, Ole's awesome music, adventerous driving, and constant amounts of beer, Jackson's acting and saying "Hey Kid" when he passes me in the hall, Anne's love of shopping, men, and church, and Cassie-Marie's unexplainable-ness, sweetness, and random conversations because none of them are coming back to the house next semester.
I'll miss Sam's loud ass music and constant comedy TV (super radiation room), Ryan's goofy stories (but not the poking), Dana being my flip cup side-kick, Beke always running down the hall and yelling for no reason, Tina always encouraging me to eat healthy right after a Baskin Robin's sundae, Boo and his incredibly funny impersonations, Christian always being on the phone or trying to escape from Helyar, Joe's teeny-bopper music and constant "wit," Heather's crazy stories about guys, Flynn - the best drinking buddy ever!!, and Will's stories and late night talks.... I'm gonna miss everyone in some way or another. I'm not really looking foward to the incoming freshmen, but I'm glad I won't be a freshman anymore...
The bright side is coming home and getting to spend three months with the people that I've loved longer than I can remember (and of course August's excursion to the Bahamas). I'm actually really looking foward to rebuilding the friendships that I let fail over the past year. Maria sent me this website that explains it all so eloquently, ya know? Blending both of your worlds or whatever... it's so hard to find a happy medium and in the end you end up with a few from both worlds, but not all. I honestly cannot imagine my life without the daily doses of Double, Hasim, Afnan, Joe, Henry, Tina, and Flynn; but then again, I was afraid to imagine my life without "The Crew" and it looks like we all made out just fine.
Well, I've lost my will to write, so I'm going to get going. Maybe I'll start the sad task of packing now... get all the tears out while everyone's studying or at home. I'm more sad than happy... bleh
helyar,
the rut