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It's seems that I cann't find a way to escape this empty feeling I thought that it was just my solitude but even here in SA with my cousins I just find myself in an empty house with no onw or a room full of people that I don't know or people that pretend I'm not even in the room. No matter what it seems taht this is my way of life and then I must come to accept it or try to change everything about me, but I hate to think of how I folded to the idea of thinking that I was not good enough to be happy. Each night I feel the void just eatting away at my soul and it hurts but then again I don't know any other feeling except emptiness. I just need to find the missing piece in my life then I can be happy or maybe it will just lead me to a darker place after all it's said that with great joy a greater pain always follows. I just don't know any more I try to be patcient it's just that life seems to be wasting awa and I never got to live it like others. I might be rich in lfe ( in the way that I have it all family, health, and friends ) although I'm also not happy and that's the irony! So who ever reads this don't feel sorry for me just make sure to apprieciate your happiness.