im tired of the smell of mouse shit. its  been a week of going through Grandmas stuff, and it goes in and out of being totally overwhelming. I burst into tears a few times a day- the shock of finding mice, old photos, the grief at such a wonderful woman dying with such little dignity. but progress is being made. It will feel good to get it DONE. 

Today is our last full day on the farm, and then we head west back to the island. Living is long sunsets, funnel clouds, clay pits, pork chops, moths, full moon.

Dear Universe-

1. please let Janells meeting with OAEC about her proposal go smoothly tomorrow. xoxo
also
2. please let the crush test for the foundation test out at at LEAST 2pma

thanks
-Dawn

also- probably leaving the farm tomorrow. epic thunderstorm tonight, missing my girl.

"more for me" by Tegan and Sara has been my theme song of the week, im not sure why but I just cant get enough of this tune.

life is: robins, poplars leafing out, mole hills, tractors, sudden rainstorms, Dads car is still down for repair, hot and sticky, counting down the days till I return to Victoria.

also- "ack 18" was 10 years ago this week.

now bored with being on the farm. ready to go home. also: dust, rocks, head cold, smell of moth balls and dust.

-/+ going through Grandma stuff. sometimes tears, sometimes laughter. a LOT of pictures of me from when I was a kid ( Read more... )

if my father was someone else, we might have taken a slow walk and talked about the future, about grandmas health, about my hopes, the girl I am dating, talked about how nice its been to see each other and how glad hes been to have me on the farm. Maybe talked about my sisters, what it was like growing up here, how well everyone turned out ( Read more... )

shovel, pick axe, 2 cordless drills, a few pounds of screws, tall ladder, wooden ladder, scaffolding, 2 by 10 planking, old red grain truck, crow bar, level, rake, hatchet, 1/2 inch drill, socket set, tarp, quad, trailer, 200 pound come-along, cable claps, sledge hammer, framing hammer, and gloves.
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i'm done.

10 days.
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the time change always throws me off a little. I forget what time it will get light out in the morning. Its also colder this morning, so winter is on the move.
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goals of the day:
roof wood shed
work on laptop with Aria tonight
read building book
write Carrie

my good will at the world left as soon as I got back to the farm.
12 days till I leave