i've made it this far.
i made it to california. i still can't really believe i'm here. it's intense. most of the people are really cool. some do suck though. it's weird, everyone's mean for like the first hour they meet you. then they warm up. i saw hellogoodbye, say anything and younglove the other night. i got a job at guess? which is my first retail and a job at a southwestern grill. all in the southcoast plaza mall which is from what i understand, the highest grossing mall in the country. i wonder if that's true though. i bought a computer that just somehow already has internet. i'm not questioning it. i'm going to see shiny toy guns on the 22nd. i found an apartment a mile or two from the beach with a room mate who is really cool. i wish he were my dad. it's weird because somehow it hasn't quite sunk in that i'm here but in another way it feels like i'm already used to it and it isn't all copletely brand new. i was a terrified nervous wreck the first couple days after johnlee left but somehow everything is just falling into place. i don't know what's going to happen in the foreseeable future which i'm actually ok with for right now. that's pretty much why i came here in the first place i guess. i'm excited and scared but mostly i'm just proud of myself. i'm really really proud. because i finally did one of those things that everybody always says that they'll do since highschool and then wind up staying in bath and going to corning. i got out and there's no guarantee that i'm out forever but for right now i feel really good about myself for actually following through with something that matters to me and starting something of my own for once. i need to go buy a coffee table now.