haven't made an entry in a long time

i can't take it anymore

i have to stay after for gym and i have court in an hour and 38 minutes away and i have to be there by 4 and i don't get out until 2:30 court and law systems are dicks idk what to do anym0ore if i miss this court date i owe them double how the fuck am i going to make it life is such a blur. relationships are slow feelings are confusing and all i ( Read more... )

extremely frustrated and overwhelemed by everything from school to friends. computer is fucked up i just want to run away. have to change my court date because i have gym. in about 30 minutes i have to run a mile which is going to be hard since im a pack a day smoker. so lonely and don't know who to trust. but i love my snuggle bunny beary bears

i miss 2 people alot rite about now

i offically hate scott forever.....cops suck and so do $400 tickets for underage drinking when you weren't even drinking!!!!!!! fucking my life is offically over fucking hate people! court soon idk how im goin to pull that off and getting the money to pay off the ticket fucking ahhh

why do i feel so alone, but live in the world full with people. why when im in a crowed room i just want to sink into a little hole. why can't i do what i want or like what i want to like. why can't i find a better job. why can't i not be a procrastinator. why can't i be artistic. why can't i be good in groups?

why is everyone against me, why can't i do anything i want, why can't i have a free will.
itz dumb being pressured to go to prom

p.s u say ur heart is riped open b.c of someone........u've done the same to me i guess it's easy to ignore everything when u have new freinds....im still here with noone talking to me itz so uneasy knowing everyone u kno is fake

lost love, lost rest, lost everything, lost motivation, lost vocal chords, lost happiness...................lost friends........................lost everyone i once cared for i don't understand anybody anymore.......everything is so horrible i guess i made it this way.

bored stressed bored hate work want have my week off get my mom off my back.

apartment shopping again failing out of school w/ even trying to do work hard hard hard.

nancy is bein super cool to me love love love