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I had yet another eventful weekend up in Arlington with Bobby. It aches when I have to leave... the days pass so quickly and soon enough I'm back in Lynnwood for work and to see family. Though this is my home and I like it here, it feels kinda empty. Sometimes I'm sitting at home and I find myself restless. "Home" is such a realitive term, kinda like family... my friends, those I'm real close to, are my family just as much as my blood relatives. Home... home is where I feel home. Not just the bed I sleep in or where I eat my meals. When I'm with Bobby... I feel like I'm home. I was falling asleep in his arms last night... and he hugs me real close and we sigh. We were quietly talking and he says to me... “I've never felt this happy with anyone else”. I can hear in his voice the truth in his words... he's not just another guy playing games with my heart. When we're in the car he reaches out to hold my hand as he drives, and I look over and smile, and seeing me smile makes him get the cutest big grin across his face.
Deep down things feel right, even though we've been dating a month this fast pace isn't something I fear. I feel grounded and safe, secure and happy. Most of all things feel mutual between the two of us, there is no off balance weight of any kind. We have so many differences, yet enough similarities to keep us on the same wavelength. Where he finds weakness, I have strength... and that goes both ways. I know I can learn a lot from him, and for the first time I'm not scared to leap... risk my heart for someone, even if there's a chance I'll fall. I'm not afraid of the possibility of a shattered heart... cause I know that no matter what I'll come out of things with memories and so many learned lessons. Its like that quote from the movie Hitch... “Because thats what people do. They leap, and hope to God they can fly”.
At the same time I've got my friend's voice in the background, reminding me that the relationship is still young and we're still learning a lot about one another. To be cautious of making any major decisions just yet, and give things time. Each word is that of love and concern, a desire for my well being. I appreciate it more then I let on. Its nice to know that people care, and want whats best for me. Everyone seems to think he and I make a great couple, and they know he treats me well, but at the same time they know the future hold so many unknown possibilities... its just good to be careful.
Deep down things feel right, even though we've been dating a month this fast pace isn't something I fear. I feel grounded and safe, secure and happy. Most of all things feel mutual between the two of us, there is no off balance weight of any kind. We have so many differences, yet enough similarities to keep us on the same wavelength. Where he finds weakness, I have strength... and that goes both ways. I know I can learn a lot from him, and for the first time I'm not scared to leap... risk my heart for someone, even if there's a chance I'll fall. I'm not afraid of the possibility of a shattered heart... cause I know that no matter what I'll come out of things with memories and so many learned lessons. Its like that quote from the movie Hitch... “Because thats what people do. They leap, and hope to God they can fly”.
At the same time I've got my friend's voice in the background, reminding me that the relationship is still young and we're still learning a lot about one another. To be cautious of making any major decisions just yet, and give things time. Each word is that of love and concern, a desire for my well being. I appreciate it more then I let on. Its nice to know that people care, and want whats best for me. Everyone seems to think he and I make a great couple, and they know he treats me well, but at the same time they know the future hold so many unknown possibilities... its just good to be careful.