Nov 22, 2009 22:23
So, past posts have been about the guy that I said good bye to.
I was confused, but I am no longer.
How I came to my conclusion is because of my past.
Just for hoots, I emailed my ex.
The one I wrote about numerously for the past few years.
I talked to him the other day, and all these feelings came back.
I was giddy, excited.
I never felt that way about the guy I just broke up with.
I guess... I was seeing him to just have someone.
I could be wrong in the future.
I did and do love him dearly, as a friend I guess.
But now... continues the drama of the past.
Maybe.
He's single.
Apparently his ex cheated on him 3 times.
I am apprehensive about him to some extent.
Some people never change.
But now we're texting. It's off and on. Yesterday he asks if I dont want to talk to him anymore, and then just stops texting later in the evening.
I put in a little effort and text today, not much of a response. Says he will text when he's done well, I won't say what as some may get offended.
Now all night I have been watching my phone for the red blinking light.... *sigh* I am pathetic.
He still makes me crazy, without even being in my life really. Am I still in love... sadly I think so.
p.s. lovin my new ear phones, woot! Haha, and loving the anxious frog!