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[rippedopenbrain]

hey everyone i got good news. im single. that is weird to say after 2 years. as of 4:17 today. it has been building up to this climax for years, and we both snapped, and believe me this wasnt the first time, and its over. i havent cried (yet).i have grown some balls in this lifetime. let me tell you, cuz if i was any one else or anywhere else, i would be heartbroken. now im just cold. he ditched me,again, to hang out with nick k.(you probably know who) and i hate nick. dave acts like a dick when hes with him or after they hang out. so i told him not to even bother call me anymore tonight, and it blew up. i basically asked him to choose between me and nick, and u know who he picked. that really makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit. i know nick has been in daves life longer, but to think i WASTED 2 years of my life on him. how could i be so STUPID? how could i think that all the love and everything i put into this and it all was purged in my face! the horror. i devoted all i had to this, and i have lost so so much. my life is so different. im so lost now. where to i start my new life. i planned for him to always be there and now its all just a big white wall. a fucking wall. my career my love my family, it was all gonna be with him. i am making myself cry. ug. i just want to be a preacher and tell everyone not to ever give anything up for a guy, unless its drinking or biting your toenails(?)or something like that. they arent worth it. friends are so much more important.i wish someone would have warned me of that a long time ago cuz now a lot of my best friends are gone. that really hurts. real real bad. i love you guys and im sorry a boy got in the way of that.im gonna go do some self loathing and picture tearing.yeah, thats a lot of fun.

good luck dave.
boys suck.
relationhips are like a bridge game, you better have a good partner or you better have a good hand.perv.lol.

sara