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It's 2:36 in the morning. I should be sleeping, but I'm not. I don't know what to do or say anymore. I don't know where my feelings are coming from and I don't have anyone to give them to. I'm just this gigantic ball of emotion at all times and I don't know what to do with it all.
It's not that I'm angry or upset, I'm just tired. Tired of being jerked around. Tired of feeling like a failure. Tired of feeling like no one loves me. I just wish that for once, something would go right and last longer than 2 years. Sometimes I really wonder about those two years, and right now, I don't even have words for them.
I'm just exhausted and that's why I'm rambling like a crazy woman.
oh well.
It's not that I'm angry or upset, I'm just tired. Tired of being jerked around. Tired of feeling like a failure. Tired of feeling like no one loves me. I just wish that for once, something would go right and last longer than 2 years. Sometimes I really wonder about those two years, and right now, I don't even have words for them.
I'm just exhausted and that's why I'm rambling like a crazy woman.
oh well.