"and I have no luck with girls..."
This whole Kym thing has me thinking too much about things I shouldn't be thinking about because they don't matter and hot damn I love run on sentences yeah.
when I say this "Kym thing" I mean like...it wouldn't be a fucking thing if it didn't seem like it should be. fuck my reputation.
I LIKE HER. okay you fuckheads. I like her a lot. but I'm not going to try and push anything .. she has a boyfriend..sort of. and. she knows I like her. so, she definitely has the chance to step up and start something if she wants to. and so I'll leave that up to her. because yeah. damn. we can just be friends right? I can just be a friend. I DO KNOW HOW TO BE A FRIEND. I think. maybe.....
she once said "I like him because he doesn't use friendship as a sign for sexual activity" well damn. I do NOT want to be like the boys. but...whimper...whine...she's cute. and interesting. I like people with thoughts and stories and emotion and an artist temperment doesn't hurt certainly doesn't hurt. A mind of your own is sexy.
I think the big thing is... I was feeling so damn lonely before I started talking to her. nevermind all my friends. I wasn't so much connecting with anyone, and suddenly I see this girl and she's cute and oh damn, she has to be so damn awesome to talk to. and then the loneliness starts to shrivel up and die. and of course, it's replaced by the need to be...closer. sigh.
I.
Like.
Her.
so this is what my mind has been wrapping itself around for the past 2 weeks. and I feel bad because I am sort of putting off some of my friends just to spend time with her. but. I can't...help it. and I think they understand. it'll all work out though. yeah. I will fix this. somehow. I will force this crush away if I have to. though I hope I don't, I'm willing to.
my feelings lie with Bacon at this moment though. I hope I don't get my heart broken.
when I say this "Kym thing" I mean like...it wouldn't be a fucking thing if it didn't seem like it should be. fuck my reputation.
I LIKE HER. okay you fuckheads. I like her a lot. but I'm not going to try and push anything .. she has a boyfriend..sort of. and. she knows I like her. so, she definitely has the chance to step up and start something if she wants to. and so I'll leave that up to her. because yeah. damn. we can just be friends right? I can just be a friend. I DO KNOW HOW TO BE A FRIEND. I think. maybe.....
she once said "I like him because he doesn't use friendship as a sign for sexual activity" well damn. I do NOT want to be like the boys. but...whimper...whine...she's cute. and interesting. I like people with thoughts and stories and emotion and an artist temperment doesn't hurt certainly doesn't hurt. A mind of your own is sexy.
I think the big thing is... I was feeling so damn lonely before I started talking to her. nevermind all my friends. I wasn't so much connecting with anyone, and suddenly I see this girl and she's cute and oh damn, she has to be so damn awesome to talk to. and then the loneliness starts to shrivel up and die. and of course, it's replaced by the need to be...closer. sigh.
I.
Like.
Her.
so this is what my mind has been wrapping itself around for the past 2 weeks. and I feel bad because I am sort of putting off some of my friends just to spend time with her. but. I can't...help it. and I think they understand. it'll all work out though. yeah. I will fix this. somehow. I will force this crush away if I have to. though I hope I don't, I'm willing to.
my feelings lie with Bacon at this moment though. I hope I don't get my heart broken.