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I still really dont understand why Tim has left me.
I think its because he is still overcome with rage when i talk to kyle, even of ita regarding something important.
So if he leaves my life, abandons me, etc, because j told kyle id be seperating our accounts
If tim decides that the reason doesnt matter
Thats something he chooses
Ive done nothing but bwmd over backwards to please that man, and ever scince his affair with Dulce, my heart has been cracked and unable to heal, and hes never lifted a finger to repair damage hes done
So i guess, even if i love him, even if i do everything he wants,
He still can not love me as a person
He was never taught how to value a real person
I thought he cared and appreciated how i loved him, communkcated with him, was patient wjth him...
But even that, will never make him happy
He will never be happy, until he decides to trust someone
I am very, very, very sad. I am heartbroken. I am upset.
But more than anything, i am sad.