Sticks and Stones...but words will always hurt.
So I've put some thought to it and I feel like the best way to express this is to write it, not post it in a hurt-fueled status update on facebook attacking the person who said it first, I did after all pose the question.
I've had a longstanding Honesty Box on Facebook. The question was "What Bothers you about me?" I asked it because I genuinely wanted to know, so I can't get mad at this person for being honest, and sometimes its something that I need to hear that I don't want to. But sometimes I feel like the delivery is harsh or made out of a superficial impression of me. The post was:
"Blame everything on other people. Its always someone elses fault. Always seeking attention in anyway possible. "
I can see how this person would think this if all they do is read my Facebook updates. When I'm mad at people I'll post a status update, I try to avoid directly naming people in these updates. And I do post a lot of modeling photos.
But I also don't think that the statement this person made is true. Sure I don't want to be blamed things, no one does. But When something is my fault, its my fault, I'm not so egotistical as to say that I'm blameless. In fact whenever I see to be in a fight with someone I always seem to be the one groveling and apologizing first even if I'm the one who shouldn't.
The second part of the that statement felt like it was meant to hurt. It was tacked on simply to inflict pain. I don't know what they're referencing exactly. If it's facebook, my profile doesn't have hoards of pictures I took of myself, I don't have that many "look at me!" posts that I can see. The only thing I can think of is my modeling portfolio, but really? I'm damn proud of those, and I've had a lot of people tell me they've liked seeing them so I don't think it's egotistical of me to post them. But still I'm interested to know what they mean by this, because I don't really find myself wanting attention all the time.
I think the reason why this upset me so much is not that they said it but the fact it made me doubt myself, it made me self-conscious, it made me lose a little confidence and I think I am mad at myself for letting something so small as a comment affect me.
I've had a longstanding Honesty Box on Facebook. The question was "What Bothers you about me?" I asked it because I genuinely wanted to know, so I can't get mad at this person for being honest, and sometimes its something that I need to hear that I don't want to. But sometimes I feel like the delivery is harsh or made out of a superficial impression of me. The post was:
"Blame everything on other people. Its always someone elses fault. Always seeking attention in anyway possible. "
I can see how this person would think this if all they do is read my Facebook updates. When I'm mad at people I'll post a status update, I try to avoid directly naming people in these updates. And I do post a lot of modeling photos.
But I also don't think that the statement this person made is true. Sure I don't want to be blamed things, no one does. But When something is my fault, its my fault, I'm not so egotistical as to say that I'm blameless. In fact whenever I see to be in a fight with someone I always seem to be the one groveling and apologizing first even if I'm the one who shouldn't.
The second part of the that statement felt like it was meant to hurt. It was tacked on simply to inflict pain. I don't know what they're referencing exactly. If it's facebook, my profile doesn't have hoards of pictures I took of myself, I don't have that many "look at me!" posts that I can see. The only thing I can think of is my modeling portfolio, but really? I'm damn proud of those, and I've had a lot of people tell me they've liked seeing them so I don't think it's egotistical of me to post them. But still I'm interested to know what they mean by this, because I don't really find myself wanting attention all the time.
I think the reason why this upset me so much is not that they said it but the fact it made me doubt myself, it made me self-conscious, it made me lose a little confidence and I think I am mad at myself for letting something so small as a comment affect me.