Bi-monthly P&P viewing: check. (Mr. Darcy is still love)

Rewatch parts of Emma on YouTube: check. (easier than putting the dvd in)

Job irritation: check.

New career idea: still drawing a blank.

Worrying about friends: check.

Night spent relaxing instead of grading: check.

Restless mind: check.

I thought of it earlier, then got distracted as often happens. Boss wasn't there the past 2 days, and so I sort of relaxed. Today I didn't do whole-group reading. Instead, more time was given to writing and grammar. Trying to figure out how to teach 2 very different math skills to different groups is still a challenge, but I suppose it will get ( Read more... )

If I had ANY other job options right now, even scrubbing toilets, I'd take one in a heartbeat. 12 hour day at work, and I still am not done. I crave the days I give tests because it means I get a break from teaching. However, I can't sit and get work done because I have to answer questions, etc, plus I have to grade the tests. Oh, new math ( Read more... )

I let some friends know about my dad via email. Just so they wouldn't be shocked when it eventually comes up in conversation. Luis and Vonn came over. Jen invited me over, but she came over here instead and then all 5 of us (Dylan included) went to Coldstone. Have I mentioned my friends are awesome ( Read more... )

I need an attitude adjustment. It's not fair for me to expect my students to be happy and control their moods when I do a crappy job at this myself. Even if they are the reason for my crappy mood, which they sometimes are, I can't use that as fuel for the fire ( Read more... )

Which is what Jill says, and I've adopted her saying. It is what it is, and it's not what it should be, nor what it could be. I don't even know what it's supposed to be, but I just know this isn't it. I'm not content with that.

Perpetually behind.
Working on time management and not procrastinating.
Taking work one day at a time.

Just trying to hold onto my sanity, and know that it will be ok, even when I feel like everything is going wrong.

Despite what might come across, I'm actually calm at the moment, just busy.

Brownies baked, cut, and in containers ( Read more... )

I totally panicked for a bit. I thought I was possibly out of a job. Crap, I never want to feel like that again.

I think I still hate my district though.

Today was one of those days where I left work right after tutoring, wondering (yet again) if I'm really cut out for this. Usually, right after I wonder such things, I remember I have NO CLUE what I'd do for a job otherwise. Still, some things just aren't right, and I can't fix them, and I'm not even talking about the things that are out of my ( Read more... )