I Am
"It's tearing us up
And it's breaking me down"
Hmph. Tough day. :/ It's only 6:40 and it's still long enough to say it was a shitty day. Chris is mad because I can't go to the party he wanted me to go to. But he didn't tell me the time until an hour before...so I couldn't do anything, so I talked to my mum, who yelled a lot, and then I called - found out it was at 6. It was 5:15. It took me forever just to get how I would get there out of him. Wow, he is so unorganized. His mom wanted to talk to my mum so solve a ton of complications (do I need to bring anything? what am I wearing?) By the time all this was done, it was 5:30. My mum decided I could go to his house and he'd drive me. But that would make them late for the party. It takes at least 1/2 hour to get there..and with rushour...blah. So I kept telling him that he'd be late which is rude and he just kept complaining. So I asked what he was doing in hope of being able to see him...and well, he told me he didn't know. Go figure. I'm so fucking pissed. He gets like this but he doesn't understand. :/ Well to make this long story kinda short...he got pissed. I probably won't get to see him for a while. Fuck! And I do NOT want to see him over here. My sister and mom are the biggest bitches I've ever met..or seen..including the ones you see in movies and TV shows. :o Great. What are we going to do? I feel so bad about him mad I feel like he just beat me up.
Wow. Two days until the shitties holiday of them all. >:o I hate Christmas. I hate everything about it....the lights...the meaning....the gifts..but mainly I hate all the families that get together and care for each other and have fun with all their stupid little traditions. Fuck this holiday.
Yeah. :/ I'm bored. I can't think of anything to do. I'm really angry because I couldn't go to the party, and I might not see Chris for a while. *cries* WTF is wrong with me? Even Chris isn't there for me now.....what am I left to do? I already slit my wrist...amazingly enough..I cut it deep but not deep enough..it closed to just a normal cut while I slept. Fuck. :/ I'll just have to try again...hopefully my mum will catch me and beat me and send me away. *prays*
"After all that we've been through
I can't be with or without you
I can't see you anymore
I can't be right out the door"
And it's breaking me down"
Hmph. Tough day. :/ It's only 6:40 and it's still long enough to say it was a shitty day. Chris is mad because I can't go to the party he wanted me to go to. But he didn't tell me the time until an hour before...so I couldn't do anything, so I talked to my mum, who yelled a lot, and then I called - found out it was at 6. It was 5:15. It took me forever just to get how I would get there out of him. Wow, he is so unorganized. His mom wanted to talk to my mum so solve a ton of complications (do I need to bring anything? what am I wearing?) By the time all this was done, it was 5:30. My mum decided I could go to his house and he'd drive me. But that would make them late for the party. It takes at least 1/2 hour to get there..and with rushour...blah. So I kept telling him that he'd be late which is rude and he just kept complaining. So I asked what he was doing in hope of being able to see him...and well, he told me he didn't know. Go figure. I'm so fucking pissed. He gets like this but he doesn't understand. :/ Well to make this long story kinda short...he got pissed. I probably won't get to see him for a while. Fuck! And I do NOT want to see him over here. My sister and mom are the biggest bitches I've ever met..or seen..including the ones you see in movies and TV shows. :o Great. What are we going to do? I feel so bad about him mad I feel like he just beat me up.
Wow. Two days until the shitties holiday of them all. >:o I hate Christmas. I hate everything about it....the lights...the meaning....the gifts..but mainly I hate all the families that get together and care for each other and have fun with all their stupid little traditions. Fuck this holiday.
Yeah. :/ I'm bored. I can't think of anything to do. I'm really angry because I couldn't go to the party, and I might not see Chris for a while. *cries* WTF is wrong with me? Even Chris isn't there for me now.....what am I left to do? I already slit my wrist...amazingly enough..I cut it deep but not deep enough..it closed to just a normal cut while I slept. Fuck. :/ I'll just have to try again...hopefully my mum will catch me and beat me and send me away. *prays*
"After all that we've been through
I can't be with or without you
I can't see you anymore
I can't be right out the door"