10/04/09 Long time
no babble!
So a lot has been going on, mostly health-related bullshit. You all may remember that I was on disability for some time with the whole randomly passing out thing, which never was properly diagnosed but just mysteriously got better, though it still happens every few days or so. Fortunately, at Sitel you'd have to pretty much have advanced leprosy to be sent home, so they just go, "Woah, you okay? Good! Get back to work!" which is fine with me. I did not like life on Disability. Okay so I live with that, no biggie. Then about three weeks ago I was at my desk taking a call from a cardmember, and with no build-up whatsoever I completely lost the ability to understand the English language :D
It was a trip, let me tell you. Not only could I not understand anything he was saying, I also couldn't speak. I looked at my computer, which now appeared to be made of paper and crayons, and everything was all tunnel-vision and grainy. I could move, could toggle through screens, and was aware that this was Not Right, but also felt completely detached from the situation and was extremely disturbed that I couldn 't talk or understand. It occurred to me to transfer the poor customer. It lasted maybe two minutes total, but I wasn't quite myself again for about an hour. It happened again last week during a team meeting. While this is going on I have also had brief episodes of WTF, where I don't remember things. Like I was putting Jo to bed and waiting for Jeremy to bring her a drink and getting very annoyed that he was taking so long, so I finished tucking Jo in and went to see why he hadn't brought it. He had brought the drink in, and kissed Jo goodnight right in front of me, and I had no memory of it. I ate a granola bar at my desk and didn't know I had done that either. A couple of times I've been at my desk waiting for a call to come in realized I had logged out of my phone and computer without remembering it. Things like that. So it's all very scary.
I made an extra appointment with Dr. Ripperger and explained what was going on. He informed me these were very likely seizures. I didn't know you could be conscious during seizures and I argued with him and he told me there are all kinds of seizures and he referred me to a neurologist. I googled around and found out about Simple Partial Seizures, which sound exactly like the episodes of visual distortion and language impairment I've been having, but don't seem to fit with the little missing-time episodes. I have a neuro appointment but can't get in until 11-25, which is irritating. If I get worse I'll make Rip call and get me in faster. Anyway, this is what is going on and I hate it. But at this point in my life I have accepted that I am prone to exotic maladies and I will take this new crap as it comes.
Annnnd how are YOU?