too far , too long

[rikuma]

Sometimes you’ve just been in love with someone for too long...

That you forget when you fall out of love for him...

When his smile doesn’t shortened your breath...

When his hold doesn’t heat up your body...

And he just doesn’t make you fall...

Because you’ve been holding for so long...

You’ve forgotten how it feels to let go...

When you’d rather sit on your tattered couch...

Curling in self heat...

Than letting him enveloped you with his...

You just don’t feel it...

So you just keep it...

^^You’re not moving cause you don’t feel it anymore...

More of a want...

A need... a compassion...

Now it’s just a mere obligation...

And obligation to love....

And to not let this love die...

And then even when your heart has left...

You find your body lingering...

In the disappearing warmth of what’s used to be...

And vanishing twinkle of a love once had...

What you don’t know is that...

Love is not an obligation...

It’s a want ...

A need...

But never something that needs to be forced...

It’s when with a simple ‘hye’ can make you high...

It’s when a simple smile from him melts all your worries...

It’s when a single cord from him flutters all your senses...

It’s everything in anything...

But it’s mostly when you don’t think but just do...

And when you’re living with too much mind instead of heart...

Then you’ll know that you’ve been holding it for too long...

You’ve been holding it for too tight...

And that you’ve been holding yourself in a loveless bond...

Bound to break you down...

Bound to make you cry...

But mostly of a bond bound to be set free...