I dunno what to do....
I dunno what to do.....I like Z again.....I don't understand. He probably doesn't like me and I cannot not like him this is annoying. I am depressed about alot of things and I dunno what to do about it....I just feel like crap I really want a cig. Harvard Pond today was fun I had a good time but I don't know why I am now depressed I just am. It is the kind of depressed that all you want to do is sit there and do nothing and wait for something that you do not know what it is and it never comes. I am pissed at my sister because she is acting like a slut sending slutty pictures to her online boyfriend that she has never met, he is 18 and she is 15 which I find sketchy as well. I am pissed at my mom for talking to me which I don't understand because she does not deserve it. I am happy to be getting to know Hallie and George better, they seem like cool people to hang out with. I don't understand why people just don't just give up on me honestly I annoy myself sometimes because of how critical on myself I am and how anti-social I am. I don't want to go to the Big End since I am not a big fan of massive goodbye gatherings since something always goes wrong for me. Summer is gunna most likely gunna be ok since I get to see my friends in a not at schoolness. I think someone in my house need to bathe the dog very soon she smells and yips and is annoying as hell anyways. My aunt did not get the surgery to check if she had cancer so I am completely clueless on the subject which upsets me very much since she is very close to me. My family is out at the mall but I managed to dog being dragged out of the house to rate how people look in clothes. I get to stay home with the smelly dog, the whiny cat, and the cat that tries to own the computer chair and leaves me like a centimeter to sit on. Tommorrow might be ok I dunno I guess I will just have to find out. I should go and mope somehwere else and spare you the task of reading this long post so toodles!