[Fic] Honesty
Title : Honesty
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC-17
Genre : AU, romance, smut, fluff, slightly angst
Beta by : none
Disclaimer : I don’t own anything but the story
Summary : Honesty; that’s the only thing that Kazuya want from Jin.
A/N : This is my belated (actual) birthday present for tokoyam1. I tried to cooperate with m-preg but it was a big failure not even worth it to be post, sorryyyy... *hides from flying tomatoes*. I said it before but still, wish all the best for you, Konoya-chan (^ ^)
The relationship between Kazuya and Jin was a complicated one. People might said that they were a couple, but the truth they were not. Jin was Kazuya’s senpai, he was two years older than him.
Their first encounter was four months ago when Jin saw the younger almost been raped at a dark alley. He didn’t know him, never met the younger before but he felt the urge for helping the smaller boy. As one of frightened students in his school who had an ability in fighting despite his cold attitude, it was quiet easy to save Kazuya. Kazuya fell hard on the ground once the rapists were beaten and ran away. Jin quickly extended his hand offering help for the smaller boy, pulled him to stand up and saw the beauty that Kazuya had through the dim light. One drop of tear slid slowly from Kazuya’s eye and he could only stared at his rescuer blurrily. Once he realized that he was saved, he shot a gratitude smile to the latter before he collapsed in Jin’s embrace.
Jin slightly panicked when he saw Kazuya stayed immobile yet he decided to carry the boy to his apartment. He immediately taking care of the fragile body at the time they arrived at home, put him slowly on his bed and let the warm blanket surrounded him. Jin wiped Kazuya’s forehead with the wet towel and once again his eyes fixated at the beauty face the younger’s had. Kazuya sleeping soundlessly in his serenity apparently like a normal boy who didn’t seems like almost been raped though Jin could tell that the brown-haired boy’s temperature was a bit too high. His angelic face was so mesmerizing and it was not so hard to figure out why those people almost rape Kazuya. Seeing the beautiful yet fragile boy, somehow Jin felt determined to protect the boy. He even not realized that it was the first time in his life wanted to dedicate himself to protect another.
Hurriedly, Jin pulled his hand that currently traced the flawless skin on Kazuya’s cheek when he saw the younger flickered, trying to regain his consciousness and adapted with the light. Jin was the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes, looking at him intensely with an unreadable expression. Kazuya recalled what was happened and slightly trembled. Yet when he glanced at the deep gaze that the older gave to him, Kazuya feebly smile secretly felt thankful because the boy saved him right in the perfect time.
“What’s your name?” Jin broke the silent.
Kazuya could felt a shiver down his spine just because hearing the older’s deep and manly voice. “Kamenashi Kazuya. T-thank you for saving me...” Kazuya answered nervously, made an effort to sit and straightened his wrinkled and slightly dirtied school uniform.
“Kazuya...” The taller boy called out, lifted Kazuya’s chin and looked at Kazuya’s eyes thoughtfully. “Move from your school. Let me protect you...”
Kazuya’s heart beating rapidly. He lost inside Jin’s intense gaze as lost in the labyrinth.
---
Since then the two of them were inseparable. Even Kazuya did as Jin told, moving from his school and proceed to be Jin’s kouhai. The other spent most of his time with Kazuya, or more precisely Jin dragged Kazuya in almost every activity that he had. The older let him met with his best friends, moreover commanded Tanaka Koki as his only friend which stayed in the same class as Kazuya to watch the younger. Sometimes Kazuya watched from the distance when the older boy and his friends had a fight with another gang. At times he will spent his night at Jin’s apartment, having mind-blowing sex with the latter before he ended up drifted into slumber on Jin’s bed.
Seems so close, seems so romantic, but Kazuya knew it was not.
Spending his time in almost three months with Jin, Kazuya noted that the older was definitely a man of silence. He didn’t speak so much even when he was with his friends, only being a good listener while sometimes chuckled in response. Quiet surprising because actually Jin was the leader and the strongest among all his friends. With Kazuya, he also seldom to speak something, even worsen than at the time Jin was with his friends. Their interaction was mainly began with Jin’s action at first and Kazuya will only followed what the latter want to do.
It didn’t mean that the younger not enjoying his time with the older. He treasured every seconds he spent and the truth was he fallen in love deeper with Jin day by day. Not just because Jin saved him. Kazuya loved Jin because the boy himself, someone with a deep gaze who always made the younger forgot to breathe and someone who surprisingly care and pay attention with people around behind his cold and scary image among the students.
But it didn’t mean that Jin do feel the same.
The thought of it kept haunting him every day. Kazuya sometimes thinking that Jin care about him just because it actually his nature not to neglect people that clearly need a help. Tho they always together and tho they occasionally spent nights together, Kazuya questioned is there any love that Jin put inside all of his action like what Kazuya always did. Or Jin just assumed that having sex with him was the thing that the younger could do as a payback? He wanted to know because he couldn’t control his feeling anymore if he should accepted Jin’s way of kindness in every day.
Because if everything just merely a pity Kazuya prefer to let it go, he didn’t want to torture his heart deeper with a fake hope.
---
Jin’s bigger body collapsed on top of Kazuya as they both panted heavily after rode a wave of pleasure. Their naked body were sweaty and sticky with white liquid. Kazuya cautiously touched Jin’s back, caressed the older back lovingly but Jin winced in pain at the time Kazuya touched his waist. Kazuya frowned. Swiftly he freeing himself by pushed the bigger body with all his strength and observed the latter’s waist.
“A-Akanishi... what’s wrong?” Kazuya asked in concern. He caught a glimpse of bruise on the latter’s waist.
Jin just shook his head and lifted Kazuya’s chin so the smaller boy will looked at his face. A smile curved on Jin’s face as the answer that he was fine. Yet Kazuya didn’t believe him. He touched the waist again and resulted Jin that flinched away.
“It must be hurt. Did you just had a fight?”
Jin nodded and finally spoke. “It’s not so serious. I used to it.”
“But-” The younger’s protest was swallowed by a kiss that Jin landed on his lips, quickly melted Kazuya that soon forgot what he wanted to say. The next minute Jin forced Kazuya lying on his back and wrapped him with a thick yet soft blanket, kissing Kazuya’s forehead and smiled before he strode outside. Kazuya found out that Jin sometimes stumbled on his way but the latter tried to walk as firm as he could.
Kazuya sighed once Jin closed the door.
It was not the first time Jin acted like this. Actually he always acted like this, keeping everything only for himself not letting Kazuya had a hand into his problem. Jin always looked so strong in front of him but Kazuya knew that Jin sometimes lied. Jin handled everything by himself and behaved as everything was alright and Kazuya should not worry about everything.
What actually Akanishi think about me? Am I not worth it at all to be a person that he could rely on?
Kazuya couldn’t have a profound sleep because countless of unanswered questions filled his head.
---
“Good morning, lovebirds... even already cuddling with each other early in the morning~!” Yamapi whistled as his morning greeting for both Kazuya and Jin.
Jin just smiled slightly while feeding sushi to Kazuya as there was nothing wrong with Yamapi’s tease but Kazuya’s cheeks tinted with shade of pink upon hearing what Yamapi said. Shyly he refused to eat the sushi yet it was meaningless when Jin insisted feeding the younger boy. Koki and Tatchan came a second later, immediately grinned widely after seeing ‘the couple’. Kazuya blushed more. This time he grabbed Jin’s wrist and mumbled “It’s enough” in order to make the boy stop feeding him.
“Ah... Kame-chan, you should eat more. You are too skinny.” Koki commented. He plunged beside Kazuya with a grin that continue became wider and wider. “Especially when you need extra energy after what happened last night.”
“Eh?” Kazuya widen his eyes. He averted his gaze to Koki’s index finger who teasingly pointed out a red mark that clearly shown on his neck.
“THAT’S A LOVEBITE!” Yamapi and Tatchan shouted in union.
Kazuya wished the earth will swallowed him right in the moment. His face heated more, blushing more if it possible. He stole a glance at Jin but strangely Jin just smiled seeing his friends reaction. Was it normal if Jin only reacted like this when he knew that Kazuya was definitely not his lover? Didn’t Jin felt irritated with what they said?
Jin devoured the rest of sushi before he stood up, patted Kazuya’s shoulder so the younger will look at him. “Kazuya, I should go because class will begin soon. Yamapi, come on.” Jin excused himself while dragged Yamapi which still busy commented about the lovebite on Kazuya’s neck, resounded some whine from the latter. Jin waved his hand toward both Koki and Tatchan and lastly glanced at Kazuya once again and shot a smile to him.
“See you soon, Akanishi.” Kazuya awkwardly replied, waving his hand weakly as a response.
The three of them decided to followed the leader by heading to their class while having some conversation.
“You still calling him Akanishi?” Tatchan asked in disbelief. Koki beside him also stared at Kazuya curiously. The boy just nodded as an answer, lowered his gaze to the ground so he didn’t need to face the other.
“Seriously? But he is your boyfriend!” Koki commented.
“He is not my boyfriend, Koki.” Kazuya muttered, shocking both Koki and Tatchan. Somehow he felt a sting on his heart by realizing if there was nothing between them. “I didn’t have a gut to call him by his given name.”
“Don’t joke with me! Only blind people who will say that Jin is not your boyfriend. He always treated you like a lover and with no doubt will beat up everyone who dare to lay a finger on you.” Koki exclaimed.
“It’s because... it’s his nature to always treat people nicely...” Kazuya answered but he sounded hesitate.
“Is Jin feeding people lovingly like he feeding you this morning? Is Jin asked his friends to guard someone like he commanded us to guard you when he is not around? Is Jin dragged his friends in every activity he do like he dragged you almost in every time? Is Jin makes love with anyone like he makes love to you?”
“K-Koki!” Kazuya yelled. He blushed furiously and buried his face in his palms. “Akanishi do that just because he promised to protect me. A-and he didn’t make love to me. I-it was just a sex...”
Tatchan rolled his eyes. He seems tired with Kazuya’s stubborn logic that Jin doesn’t falling in love with him. “Listen Kame, Jin is not a person who easily make a promise to protect someone. And he also not a person who just sleep with anyone but people he has a feeling for. What makes you thinking that he just put it down as an ordinary sex? He loves you, Kame.”
Silent overtook Kazuya. Was it true that Jin actually love him? He didn’t dare to just conclude if the older feel the same. “B-but... he never say that he loves me.” He whispered in a minimal volume. But it was audible enough to make Koki and Tatchan stopped on their tracks. They paid attention to the boy with full of concern as it clearly written on Kazuya’s face that he do falling in love with Jin.
“I’m so confused with what actually Akanishi think about me. He never let me know what inside his mind even less say he loves me. Sometimes I think... although Akanishi often spending his night with me, he just consider it as a thing that I could do after everything that he has done to me.”
“That’s so low! Jin will never consider you as his toy!” Koki snapped out. He shook his head responded to Kazuya’s opinion.
“He never say he loves me! He always lie to me and act as he is the strongest one!” Kazuya shouted.
Tears almost welling up from his eyes. He recalled how Jin acted last night and the resembled events that happened before, couldn’t help to feel uneasy. Tho Jin was smiling in his imagination, somehow the way the latter smile only rendered more hurt inside his heart. He didn’t know if a smile could be so hurtful that made him hate it so much. Kazuya missed the way Jin stared at him when he decided to protect him that night. Jin looked extremely serious and true by then. He craved for that side of Jin more.
“Then, why not make him say his true feeling toward you? Make him confess and be honest.” Tatchan suggested. He glanced at Kazuya who tried to digest what he said but soon he hurriedly leaved Kazuya and Koki. “My class already started. See you...”
---
The usually neat apartment was currently in mess. Kazuya sighed. He was so exhausted and things that should he pack were still so many. After finished with the fifth box, he lifted the box and placed it above the other stacked of boxes. He threw himself on his bed for resting awhile, stared at the ceiling with his mind wandered off.
Tatchan’s words kept repeating inside his mind since the morning and Kazuya could only cursed himself for not being able to stop the thought of it.
“Then, why not make him say his true feeling toward you?...”
Kazuya knew he deadly curious with Jin’s true feeling about him, what the older think about him and is Jin consider Kazuya as someone that important in his life. He wished that Jin will feel the same but he also couldn’t bring himself not to think about the opposite.
“Arghh!” Kazuya growled in frustration, flipped his body before buried his face into his pillow. Soon lazily he woke up to pick his phone on the table that kept vibrating with the familiar ringtone he intentionally chose as his special ringtone every time this person call him or send him a message.
Meet me in my apartment tonight. - A. Jin
Maybe Kazuya should took Tatchan’s advice into consideration before everything will be too late.
He put his phone on the table, moved his body to continue what he did before. He picked his books and put them in order inside the sixth box. He still got two hours to finish his work before he’ll going to meet Jin soon.
---
Jin opened the door upon hearing the sound of bell echoed inside his apartment and saw Kazuya stood there looking adorable as always. The taller boy gestured, commanded Kazuya walked inside and cautiously closed the door so it will not resulted a loud banging. Kazuya flopped on Jin’s comfy sofa, watched Jin from his seat made a hot coffee for him. Nervously he played with his fingers. He need to tell something to the latter but he was too anxious till he didn’t realized that Jin already sat beside him, served a coffee for him and presented a white box on Kazuya’s lap.
“What is this?” Kazuya asked. He lifted the box and observed it, smelled a nice and tempting scent inside.
“Cheese cake. You said you want it.” Jin answered.
“Ah...” Kazuya quickly opened the box. A seemly delicious cheese cake was shown, practically ready to be eaten by the younger. “I was not serious with what I said. But thank you so much for this.” Kazuya said. He remembered that this afternoon when Jin as usual walked him home after school, he told Jin something about cheese cake and how he wanted to eat it right in the moment. What he said back then actually just a mater of words because Kazuya thought he should found a topic to break the silent. Tho he was so happy if Jin took it seriously and willing to buy a cheese cake for granting what he said.
Kazuya felt the sweet taste of the cake spread entirely on his tongue. He unconsciously smiled as the delicious taste of the cake lingered on his tongue.
“This is so delicious.” The smaller boy praised. His eyes glistened just because of a cake, totally forgot his anxiousness before.
“Glad you like it.”
“You didn’t want it? Or did you ate your own already?” Kazuya questioned but Jin only shook his head.
“Want to taste mine?”
Jin smiled so Kazuya took it as a yes. He extended his hand, gave a better access for Jin to slice his cake but instead of taste the cheese cake Jin placed it on the table before he dangerously leaned closer, kissed the shock boy and thrust his tongue inside when Kazuya gaped at Jin’s sudden movement.
“A-Akanishi...” The boy mumbled between the kiss. He could tell that Jin stole the cake inside his mouth which almost he chew completely but now disappeared as Jin ate it while kissing him.
“Delicious...” Jin commented. He depend the kiss, fighting for dominant with Kazuya’s. He nibbled softly Kazuya’s bottom lip and the latter could only let out an involuntary moan. Jin smirked cause of the response, enjoyed the sight of how the younger boy closed his eyes and surrendered completely into the kiss. Jin’s hands crept slowly inside the boy’s white t-shirt, felt the soft skin under his palms that made him eager to caress the skin.
Kazuya shuddered when Jin’s skillful fingers played with his nipple, pinched it softly and rolled it between his thumb and index finger, made muffled moan that escaped from the younger one’s lips became louder. He knew what it will lead to. The magic touch of Jin almost made him gave in and let himself taken by the older but suddenly he remembered his main aim that he should tell to Jin.
Unwillingly, Kazuya pushed Jin and looked at the older boy’s eyes with heavy breath, tried catching the air to calm down his raging breath. Jin gazed at him like a living question mark, confused with Kazuya’s sudden action because usually the other boy will never resist him.
“Akanishi... I need to tell you something.” Kazuya voiced out. The serious yet nervous visage of Kazuya made Jin straighten up himself, caressing Kazuya’s cheek to encourage the younger while his eyes fixated at Kazuya’s now wandered off eyes.
“I...” He sighed and paused for a moment. “...I will move in next three days.”
What Kazuya said made Jin’s gentle caressed on Kazuya’s cheek stopped. Abruptly he withdrew his hand from the latter’s cheek and turned away. An uneasy feeling wrapped him on the spur of moment yet Kazuya also fidgeting on his seat in anticipation with how Jin will react to his sudden announcement. But Jin’s reaction was totally far from all the scenarios he played inside his head. Instead of commenting about it, Jin stood up and pulled the younger to follow him.
“Kazuya... I forget that I should meet Yamapi now. I’ll walk you home.” Jin said.
He wasted no time for drawing out the younger from his apartment and they just stayed quiet for the next minutes. The awkward moment almost killing Kazuya but he didn’t dare to speak a single word after seeing Jin’s reaction which didn’t show any interest with his announcement. Jin just smiled when they reached Kazuya’s door. No good night, no good bye kiss, nothing. Jin swiftly leaved him at the time he entered his apartment.
Kazuya leaned against the door to support his wobbly legs, yet he ended up sat on the floor with face buried inside his palms. He cried soundlessly as his heart seemly stabbed with a sharp knife. Maybe, he really couldn’t hope for something more than just a merely protection that he could get from Akanishi Jin.
---
Tomorrow will be the day when Kazuya moving out but Jin never made an appearance since that night. Jin’s friends were noticed something was wrong between the two as Jin always stick with Kazuya in almost every time. Yamapi as Jin’s closest friend already tried to dig information from the latter yet Jin just shrugged off when Pi brought the question, immediately walked away so Yamapi couldn’t ask him again.
“What happened between you and Jin?” Koki pulled Kazuya and straightly questioned the latter when Kazuya was in the middle of his way to the library. Beside him Yamapi and Tatchan also gave him a ‘now-tell-me-what-happened’ look, practically cornered the brown-haired boy.
Kazuya sighed. His gaze fell on the floor and he just weakly muttered “Nothing.” He tried to break through the three but Yamapi gripped his wrist and easily pulled the fragile body back at his previous place.
“It is not! Something must happened and you should tell us what is it!” Yamapi yelled. Tatchan swiftly stroked Pi’s shoulder because Kazuya almost freaked out hearing Yamapi shouted angrily exactly on his ear.
“Ne, Kame-chan... what happened? Maybe we could help you?” Tatchan gently asked while rubbed Kazuya’s back soothingly. Tatchan could tell that Kazuya shivered a little but more shocking, he caught a drop of tear slid slowly from his eye some seconds later. Hurriedly Tatchan hushed Kazuya and whispered some comforting words to the latter. Koki and Yamapi were quickly changed their rigid expression into a caring one.
“I tried...” Kazuya said between his sobbed. “I tried as what you suggested, Tatchan...”
“W-what..?” Tatchan had no idea with what Kazuya meant but he still paid attention to what Kazuya said.
“Now I really understand his true feeling. I... I just mean nothing for him...”
“Kame-chan...” Tatchan hugged Kazuya tightly as he finally understand what the other boy meant. “I guess that’s not true. It must be a misunderstanding. I believe Jin always consider you as his someone special.”
Kazuya furiously shook his head when he heard what Tatchan said. “Let me go!” Kazuya struggled. He forcibly freeing himself from Tatchan’s embrace. But the boy insisted and kept hugging Kazuya tighter than before. “I said let me go!”
“Tatchan, just let him go...” Koki sighed, pulling Kazuya from Tatchan’s embrace that gave a chance for the brown-haired boy to run away in one lightning move.
Tatchan whined, stomped his feet and pouted as he totally disagree with Koki’s idea. But Yamapi ruffled his hair, lifted his face and said “It’s better to let him alone” before grabbed Tatchan’s wrist in order to make the boy followed him. Tatchan could only sighed and gave up, unwillingly followed Yamapi and Koki behind.
---
It already eleven o’clock and Kazuya couldn’t close his eyes to sleep. He forced himself with shut his eyes tightly yet it didn’t result anything. Instead he kept rolling on his bed and couldn’t stay still on his place, made the white sheet under him automatically wrinkled . He gazed on his room and he blankly saw how most of his stuff were already disappeared from his apartment. There were only few boxes and some furniture that already moving out his old apartment before tomorrow he’ll move completely from here.
So many memories went across in his apartment. He remembered his first day living independent as his parents were working abroad, the first person he invited and the most memorable from all, his first time there with Jin. He remembered how Jin treated him so gently by his caress and soft kisses and took a care of him so his first time was mostly pleasing than hurting.
Kazuya shook his head. He should not thinking about Jin anymore before he become more suffering. So Kazuya decided to force himself to sleep again, lifted his blanket and wrapped it around his body.
Sleep almost took over him yet an impatient and loud knocking sound awaken him and he slowly strode toward the door. He opened the door while messed up his hair and muttered some annoyance words, but he froze as he aware who the person that interrupted his almost success sleep. And the person was the one that made him couldn’t sleep peacefully tonight.
“Akanishi...” He calling out.
Jin stood up while leaned against the wall. He looked so handsome in his messy appearance tho Kazuya could tell that there was something different with the latter. Jin eyed him, frustration written on his face and Kazuya noted that Jin was not wearing his usual smile. Jin seemed extremely serious... just like the day when he decided to protect the younger, made Kazuya trapped into his gaze and almost forgot how to breathe properly.
The quiet moment between them was not lasting that long as Jin took a wide steps toward the younger, quickly grabbed Kazuya’s hand and pulled the younger into his embrace. Jin hugged the smaller boy tightly, one of his hand unconsciously buried Kazuya’s face in his chest while the other circled Kazuya’s waist as his life depend so much with it.
“Akanishi... I can’t breathe...” Kazuya complained.
Nevertheless Jin hard headedly ignored the younger boy’s protest even hugged him tighter if it possible, making Kazuya gasped at the lack of the air. Kazuya tried to freeing himself but suddenly he heard a sobbing noises that rendered him stunned in Jin’s embrace. Was Jin crying? Slowly he lifted his head just to welcome a drop of tear that fell smoothly on his cheek. Jin really cried, his eyes red because of it and Jin's arms which currently encircled his body was trembled.
With hesitant Kazuya encourage himself to place his hand on the older boy’s cheek, wiped the tears cautiously before Jin grabbed his hand and held it against his chest.
“Kazuya... don’t leave me.” The taller boy said in a hoarse voice. Kazuya could swear he never witness Jin in this kind of devastated state like what he saw now. Yet somehow he felt something warm enveloped his heart, seeing Jin acted so true like this rather than smiled fakely like what he always did.
“Akanishi-”
“-Stop it! Call me Jin! I had enough of you always calling me Akanishi as I just an unimportant person for you. And don’t leave me...” Jin yelled before his voice wavered in the end. He hugged the boy tightly again, nuzzled into Kazuya’s neck in a very protective manner as he afraid if someone might stealing Kazuya away from him.
“You’re always important for me. But I don’t know if you feel the same.”
“How could you say that?”
Kazuya let go of Jin’s embrace, reached both of the taller boy’s hands and held it while his eyes fixated at Jin’s. “You never telling me your problem and always act as everything is okay under your hands. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I really have a place inside your heart or not. You know, the way you smiled to me every time you had a problem just made me hurt and felt abandoned. As I’m not good enough to be someone you could rely on.” Kazuya said honestly.
“I’m sorry...” Jin stared at the floor, losing his braveness to look at Kazuya’s brown orbs. “I’m really not good with the words... and I don’t realize if what I did only made you sad. But believe me Kazuya, I always consider you as the most important person in my life. Even... even if what I said before were mostly a lie, please believe me that my feeling for you is true.”
There was a glimpse of pink shades tinted on the older boy’s cheeks. Kazuya chuckled. The older boy was surely true about how he didn’t made a good pair with words. And Kazuya could tell that it was the first time in his life when he heard the older boy spoke that much.
“Ne... sometimes words is the best way to reaffirm your action, isn’t it?” Kazuya wisely said that responded with agreement with Jin’s shy nodded.
“But... it couldn’t change the fact that you still gonna move from here, right?” Jin commented. His eyes swept the room who seems spacious with few furniture left, couldn’t help feeling sad again.
“I’m sorry...”
“Kazuya...” Jin lifted Kazuya’s face and leaned closer. He smiled widely but this time he smiled truly from his heart, curved the sweetest smile Kazuya ever saw from him. “... I love you.”
Kazuya gladly showing his smile, threw his arms loosely on Jin’s shoulder and whispered. “I love you too...”
Henceforth, Jin gave Kazuya a chaste kiss on his cherry lips, felt the soft lips of the younger touched his own. Kazuya hung on Jin’s shoulder to support himself when Jin’s tongue began licking his lips, asking for permission to explore Kazuya’s mouth that conveniently he greeted with parting his lips, practically made his back arched as Jin leaned so closed against his body. Jin vigorously swept Kazuya’s mouth and got addicted with Kazuya’s taste on his tongue. Soon the kiss became more passionate and Jin more likely ravished the younger boy’s lips that resulted a music of moaning Kazuya into his ears, saliva trailed on Kazuya’s jaw and his lips became swollen from Jin’s attack.
Jin hurriedly threw the younger on his already messy bed after locked the door. He hovered above Kazuya that breathing rapidly, stared at Jin through his half-lidded eyes. He leaned for pecked Kazuya’s lips before he whispered seductively into Kazuya’s ear as lust began controlling him, the sight of squirming Kazuya beneath him with his lips already swollen also not helping him at all.
“Did I ever said that I really love your eyes?” Jin pecked the younger’s eyes softly. “...and your crooked nose...” Jin licked the nose teasingly. “...your porcelain-like cheeks... your chin... you ears...” Jin landed soft kisses on Kazuya’s face everywhere. “...and did I ever said how I adore your alluring lips, especially when it swollen because I was the one that ravishing your lips?” Jin nibbled Kazuya’s bottom lip and slightly bit it, made the boy underneath him moaned as his member starting to awake.
“Ahnn... Jinn...” Kazuya whimpered when he felt one of Jin’s leg massaging his still clothed erection while his hands working to freeing the younger from his t-shirt. The sudden coldness leaded Kazuya’s body shivering a bit, especially when Jin’s fingers began tracing across his milky skin and his nipple being sucked by the latter.
“You like it when I abused your tiny nipples, don’t you? Sucked it till it hardened and covered with my juice.” Jin teased the younger, still maintained his ministration toward the smaller boy. “Or you like it when I nipping on his skin, marked you everywhere so people will know that you’re mine only.” Jin continued whispered some seducing words which surprising Kazuya with Jin’s sudden talkativeness. Yet Kazuya loves this kind of Jin better than the quiet Jin he usually spending time with.
Jin threw Kazuya’s pants and underwear somewhere scattered on the floor, playfully rubbed Kazuya’s erection with his own clothed one.
“You still wearing so much clothes. It’s unfair...” Kazuya pouted.
“Hmm? So... do you expected me to undress in front of you?”
Jin adjusted himself so Kazuya could get a better access of seeing him strip teasing in front of the younger, unbuttoned his shirt so very slowly while sometimes caressing his skin or licking his fingers in a flirting way, he saw Kazuya gulped in anticipation slightly writhing on the bed.
When he fully naked, Jin kissed Kazuya’s lips for a brief time before stroking Kazuya’s shaft. Kazuya moaned louder at the sudden contact and his moaning volume continue increasing when Jin worked his expert tongue licking Kazuya’s cock as licking a lollipop. Roughly Kazuya tugged Jin’s hair when he felt himself being nearer to the edge, lustfully played with his nipple while groaned in satisfaction.
“Ah... J-Jin... I-I... ahnnn...”
“Don’t coming yet, Kazu...”
Jin grabbed the base of Kazuya’s shaft and playfully licked the pre-cum on top of Kazuya’s tip, resounded some whimper from the cherry lips yet swiftly he gasped when a lean finger inserted into his tight hole and a drop of lube slid slowly across his skin. Jin maybe poured it too many as some of lube just trailed on his skin without any of use, but enough to send him some shiver in anticipation of something bigger that will replaced Jin’s fingers soon.
“Moan for me, Kazuya. Say my name...” Jin commanded between his attempt to leaving a new fresh red mark on Kazuya’s neck while positioning his length in front of Kazuya’s entrance.
“J-Jin... I want to feel you... ah...”
Thus he pushed his length inside Kazuya, felt the younger’s tight wall squeezed his cock and he escaped a loud groan in response of the tightness around his shaft. Kazuya whimpered in pain, hand crept on his erection and stroked it by himself for seeking a pleasure while his other hand clawed Jin’s smooth back. Realized that his lover frowned in pain, Jin soothed the younger with one heated kiss and replaced Kazuya’s hand with his own, pumped the erection that soon contributed some pleasure moan from Kazuya’s lips.
He thrust deeper when Kazuya seems relaxed and gradually moaned his name louder time by time, and he went faster as the beautiful boy under him begged for him to go faster, sensed that he couldn’t stay longer. Their friction became rougher and rougher, the sound of flesh hitting flesh was audible inside the room. Kazuya cried out Jin’s name and Jin movement became more frantic just because hearing the helpless moan of Kazuya calling out his name.
“Ah! J-Jin! I’m going to-AH!”
Kazuya spilled his seeds on Jin’s hands and on his stomach. Followed with Jin a second later when he felt Kazuya’s tight wall clenched his member that quickly sent him to the climax. His cum filled the younger boy’s hole and some of them dripped slowly outside the cavern, wetting Kazuya’s now complete mess bed sheet.
He placed himself beside the younger boy, arms surrounded the drenched body and hugged him tightly, so protective.
“I love you, Kazu.”
“I love you, Jin.”
“We still going to meet each other although we’re apart, right?”
“Hmm...” Kazuya just mumbled some incoherent words, nuzzled into Jin’s chest and sleep peacefully like a kitten. Jin sighed yet he still smiled seeing the younger’s expression and decided to follow the younger, not realized how Kazuya smirked upon his skin.
---
Although he knew Kazuya will never come back to his school, Jin unconsciously made a way toward Kazuya’s class like what he usually did every morning before the class started. When he realized what he was doing, Jin bitterly laughed. How stupid he was, he saw it by himself when yesterday Kazuya leaved him in front of the younger’s now abandon apartment, waving his hand to him and saying good bye.
He even do not have any idea to ask Kazuya’s new address and his new school cause he just too overwhelmed with sadness.
How he already missed the younger right now. He wanted to touch him, kiss him and feel him even though it just barely one day after Kazuya moved out. He didn’t know if Kazuya already became his addiction. He felt so lost without the younger like a puzzle which missing it’s pieces.
“Jin...”
This voice... Jin closed his eyes, shook his head furiously to drive out the thought of Kazuya. One day of separation already made him became delusional like this. How could he imagined Kazuya called him softly so vividly like this?
“Jin!”
“Arghh!” Jin ruffled his eyes with frustration written on his face. He abruptly turned away yet his eyes widen in shock. The person he longing for currently standing in front of him, looking nervous and... scared.
“Ka-Kazuya...”
“Good morning.” Kazuya awkwardly said.
“B-But... you moved out last days? H-how...?”
“Well... sorry. I forget to say that what I mean with move is that... I’ll stay in my uncle’s house at the time I seeking for a new apartment.”
Jin froze. “Y-you... you lie to me...” He voiced out in a very low voice, almost inaudible. “Why? Why you do this to me?”
“I-I...” Kazuya gulped. Jin held his wrist firmly that it hurting him so much. It not a wrong thing when he began to think that Jin will punish him for what he done. “I-I just following Tatchan’s suggestion...”
“Eh?”
“Well... I never know what actually you think about me and I just kinda hopeless... I mean, I do in love with you but I couldn’t read what your actual feeling about me. Then Tatchan advised me to make you say your true feeling about me and so... I tried...” Kazuya timidly answered, eyes avoiding Jin’s.
“You tried by lying to me about this and tortured me with this feeling of mine because I’m deadly afraid to losing you?”
“I’m sorry, Jin! I’m really sorry!” Kazuya hurriedly apologize, begged for the older forgiveness. “You can punish me with whatever way but please... don’t hate me!”
Jin moved closer and Kazuya swiftly closed his eyes, so ready if Jin will slap him for what he done. But what Jin did next surprising him as he felt Jin hugged him so tight while caressing his back, totally unbothered with people around that eyed them curiously.
“Move to my apartment, Kazuya. Let’s live together.” Jin proposed.
“You’re not angry with me?”
“Of course I’m not, silly...” Jin chuckled. “You could lie to me once but I did worsen at the past by lying to you for countless time just because I was such a coward who couldn’t express my true feeling.”
“I guess so...” Kazuya laughed.
“Kazuya... I love you. I will say it everyday to you even you might sick with countless of ‘I love you’ that I’ll keep saying to you...”
“I love you too, Jin. And don't worry, I will looking forward for it.” Kazuya warmly responded, chuckled in happiness upon hearing Jin’s declaration. “Kiss me?”
“Be my pleasure.” Jin replied.
They fused in their kisses, seeking for each other taste right in the middle of the corridor. People frowned and gave them various responses. Yet they didn’t care. Jin was too happy because his Kazuya return to his arms again and Kazuya more than happy seeing Jin became someone that more true than before.
Kazuya hoped they’ll be more honest to each other in the future because he now understand that words clarifying the action better than everything.
♥ The End ♥
Konoya-chan, I hope you enjoy the story as I enjoyed my time when I wrote it ♥ Feel so relieve because it’s done as I promised (but don’t kill me about the m-preg *hides*)~!
Final exam is over so I’m back~! It’s over faster than what I predicted lol. Now I just need to wait the report, the period that I hate so much. It’s just make me totally nervous and feel under the pressure. Probability keep running in my head and mostly they are the negative one especially when I remember I skipped many classes this semester. I guess... I’ll be busy again after this so I couldn’t promise a fast update for this entire month. Therefore, I excuse myself again *runs from flying slippers* Currently I should prepare my team for a constitutional debate *dies* But I hope I still gonna have lots of time to write~!
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC-17
Genre : AU, romance, smut, fluff, slightly angst
Beta by : none
Disclaimer : I don’t own anything but the story
Summary : Honesty; that’s the only thing that Kazuya want from Jin.
A/N : This is my belated (actual) birthday present for tokoyam1. I tried to cooperate with m-preg but it was a big failure not even worth it to be post, sorryyyy... *hides from flying tomatoes*. I said it before but still, wish all the best for you, Konoya-chan (^ ^)
The relationship between Kazuya and Jin was a complicated one. People might said that they were a couple, but the truth they were not. Jin was Kazuya’s senpai, he was two years older than him.
Their first encounter was four months ago when Jin saw the younger almost been raped at a dark alley. He didn’t know him, never met the younger before but he felt the urge for helping the smaller boy. As one of frightened students in his school who had an ability in fighting despite his cold attitude, it was quiet easy to save Kazuya. Kazuya fell hard on the ground once the rapists were beaten and ran away. Jin quickly extended his hand offering help for the smaller boy, pulled him to stand up and saw the beauty that Kazuya had through the dim light. One drop of tear slid slowly from Kazuya’s eye and he could only stared at his rescuer blurrily. Once he realized that he was saved, he shot a gratitude smile to the latter before he collapsed in Jin’s embrace.
Jin slightly panicked when he saw Kazuya stayed immobile yet he decided to carry the boy to his apartment. He immediately taking care of the fragile body at the time they arrived at home, put him slowly on his bed and let the warm blanket surrounded him. Jin wiped Kazuya’s forehead with the wet towel and once again his eyes fixated at the beauty face the younger’s had. Kazuya sleeping soundlessly in his serenity apparently like a normal boy who didn’t seems like almost been raped though Jin could tell that the brown-haired boy’s temperature was a bit too high. His angelic face was so mesmerizing and it was not so hard to figure out why those people almost rape Kazuya. Seeing the beautiful yet fragile boy, somehow Jin felt determined to protect the boy. He even not realized that it was the first time in his life wanted to dedicate himself to protect another.
Hurriedly, Jin pulled his hand that currently traced the flawless skin on Kazuya’s cheek when he saw the younger flickered, trying to regain his consciousness and adapted with the light. Jin was the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes, looking at him intensely with an unreadable expression. Kazuya recalled what was happened and slightly trembled. Yet when he glanced at the deep gaze that the older gave to him, Kazuya feebly smile secretly felt thankful because the boy saved him right in the perfect time.
“What’s your name?” Jin broke the silent.
Kazuya could felt a shiver down his spine just because hearing the older’s deep and manly voice. “Kamenashi Kazuya. T-thank you for saving me...” Kazuya answered nervously, made an effort to sit and straightened his wrinkled and slightly dirtied school uniform.
“Kazuya...” The taller boy called out, lifted Kazuya’s chin and looked at Kazuya’s eyes thoughtfully. “Move from your school. Let me protect you...”
Kazuya’s heart beating rapidly. He lost inside Jin’s intense gaze as lost in the labyrinth.
---
Since then the two of them were inseparable. Even Kazuya did as Jin told, moving from his school and proceed to be Jin’s kouhai. The other spent most of his time with Kazuya, or more precisely Jin dragged Kazuya in almost every activity that he had. The older let him met with his best friends, moreover commanded Tanaka Koki as his only friend which stayed in the same class as Kazuya to watch the younger. Sometimes Kazuya watched from the distance when the older boy and his friends had a fight with another gang. At times he will spent his night at Jin’s apartment, having mind-blowing sex with the latter before he ended up drifted into slumber on Jin’s bed.
Seems so close, seems so romantic, but Kazuya knew it was not.
Spending his time in almost three months with Jin, Kazuya noted that the older was definitely a man of silence. He didn’t speak so much even when he was with his friends, only being a good listener while sometimes chuckled in response. Quiet surprising because actually Jin was the leader and the strongest among all his friends. With Kazuya, he also seldom to speak something, even worsen than at the time Jin was with his friends. Their interaction was mainly began with Jin’s action at first and Kazuya will only followed what the latter want to do.
It didn’t mean that the younger not enjoying his time with the older. He treasured every seconds he spent and the truth was he fallen in love deeper with Jin day by day. Not just because Jin saved him. Kazuya loved Jin because the boy himself, someone with a deep gaze who always made the younger forgot to breathe and someone who surprisingly care and pay attention with people around behind his cold and scary image among the students.
But it didn’t mean that Jin do feel the same.
The thought of it kept haunting him every day. Kazuya sometimes thinking that Jin care about him just because it actually his nature not to neglect people that clearly need a help. Tho they always together and tho they occasionally spent nights together, Kazuya questioned is there any love that Jin put inside all of his action like what Kazuya always did. Or Jin just assumed that having sex with him was the thing that the younger could do as a payback? He wanted to know because he couldn’t control his feeling anymore if he should accepted Jin’s way of kindness in every day.
Because if everything just merely a pity Kazuya prefer to let it go, he didn’t want to torture his heart deeper with a fake hope.
---
Jin’s bigger body collapsed on top of Kazuya as they both panted heavily after rode a wave of pleasure. Their naked body were sweaty and sticky with white liquid. Kazuya cautiously touched Jin’s back, caressed the older back lovingly but Jin winced in pain at the time Kazuya touched his waist. Kazuya frowned. Swiftly he freeing himself by pushed the bigger body with all his strength and observed the latter’s waist.
“A-Akanishi... what’s wrong?” Kazuya asked in concern. He caught a glimpse of bruise on the latter’s waist.
Jin just shook his head and lifted Kazuya’s chin so the smaller boy will looked at his face. A smile curved on Jin’s face as the answer that he was fine. Yet Kazuya didn’t believe him. He touched the waist again and resulted Jin that flinched away.
“It must be hurt. Did you just had a fight?”
Jin nodded and finally spoke. “It’s not so serious. I used to it.”
“But-” The younger’s protest was swallowed by a kiss that Jin landed on his lips, quickly melted Kazuya that soon forgot what he wanted to say. The next minute Jin forced Kazuya lying on his back and wrapped him with a thick yet soft blanket, kissing Kazuya’s forehead and smiled before he strode outside. Kazuya found out that Jin sometimes stumbled on his way but the latter tried to walk as firm as he could.
Kazuya sighed once Jin closed the door.
It was not the first time Jin acted like this. Actually he always acted like this, keeping everything only for himself not letting Kazuya had a hand into his problem. Jin always looked so strong in front of him but Kazuya knew that Jin sometimes lied. Jin handled everything by himself and behaved as everything was alright and Kazuya should not worry about everything.
What actually Akanishi think about me? Am I not worth it at all to be a person that he could rely on?
Kazuya couldn’t have a profound sleep because countless of unanswered questions filled his head.
---
“Good morning, lovebirds... even already cuddling with each other early in the morning~!” Yamapi whistled as his morning greeting for both Kazuya and Jin.
Jin just smiled slightly while feeding sushi to Kazuya as there was nothing wrong with Yamapi’s tease but Kazuya’s cheeks tinted with shade of pink upon hearing what Yamapi said. Shyly he refused to eat the sushi yet it was meaningless when Jin insisted feeding the younger boy. Koki and Tatchan came a second later, immediately grinned widely after seeing ‘the couple’. Kazuya blushed more. This time he grabbed Jin’s wrist and mumbled “It’s enough” in order to make the boy stop feeding him.
“Ah... Kame-chan, you should eat more. You are too skinny.” Koki commented. He plunged beside Kazuya with a grin that continue became wider and wider. “Especially when you need extra energy after what happened last night.”
“Eh?” Kazuya widen his eyes. He averted his gaze to Koki’s index finger who teasingly pointed out a red mark that clearly shown on his neck.
“THAT’S A LOVEBITE!” Yamapi and Tatchan shouted in union.
Kazuya wished the earth will swallowed him right in the moment. His face heated more, blushing more if it possible. He stole a glance at Jin but strangely Jin just smiled seeing his friends reaction. Was it normal if Jin only reacted like this when he knew that Kazuya was definitely not his lover? Didn’t Jin felt irritated with what they said?
Jin devoured the rest of sushi before he stood up, patted Kazuya’s shoulder so the younger will look at him. “Kazuya, I should go because class will begin soon. Yamapi, come on.” Jin excused himself while dragged Yamapi which still busy commented about the lovebite on Kazuya’s neck, resounded some whine from the latter. Jin waved his hand toward both Koki and Tatchan and lastly glanced at Kazuya once again and shot a smile to him.
“See you soon, Akanishi.” Kazuya awkwardly replied, waving his hand weakly as a response.
The three of them decided to followed the leader by heading to their class while having some conversation.
“You still calling him Akanishi?” Tatchan asked in disbelief. Koki beside him also stared at Kazuya curiously. The boy just nodded as an answer, lowered his gaze to the ground so he didn’t need to face the other.
“Seriously? But he is your boyfriend!” Koki commented.
“He is not my boyfriend, Koki.” Kazuya muttered, shocking both Koki and Tatchan. Somehow he felt a sting on his heart by realizing if there was nothing between them. “I didn’t have a gut to call him by his given name.”
“Don’t joke with me! Only blind people who will say that Jin is not your boyfriend. He always treated you like a lover and with no doubt will beat up everyone who dare to lay a finger on you.” Koki exclaimed.
“It’s because... it’s his nature to always treat people nicely...” Kazuya answered but he sounded hesitate.
“Is Jin feeding people lovingly like he feeding you this morning? Is Jin asked his friends to guard someone like he commanded us to guard you when he is not around? Is Jin dragged his friends in every activity he do like he dragged you almost in every time? Is Jin makes love with anyone like he makes love to you?”
“K-Koki!” Kazuya yelled. He blushed furiously and buried his face in his palms. “Akanishi do that just because he promised to protect me. A-and he didn’t make love to me. I-it was just a sex...”
Tatchan rolled his eyes. He seems tired with Kazuya’s stubborn logic that Jin doesn’t falling in love with him. “Listen Kame, Jin is not a person who easily make a promise to protect someone. And he also not a person who just sleep with anyone but people he has a feeling for. What makes you thinking that he just put it down as an ordinary sex? He loves you, Kame.”
Silent overtook Kazuya. Was it true that Jin actually love him? He didn’t dare to just conclude if the older feel the same. “B-but... he never say that he loves me.” He whispered in a minimal volume. But it was audible enough to make Koki and Tatchan stopped on their tracks. They paid attention to the boy with full of concern as it clearly written on Kazuya’s face that he do falling in love with Jin.
“I’m so confused with what actually Akanishi think about me. He never let me know what inside his mind even less say he loves me. Sometimes I think... although Akanishi often spending his night with me, he just consider it as a thing that I could do after everything that he has done to me.”
“That’s so low! Jin will never consider you as his toy!” Koki snapped out. He shook his head responded to Kazuya’s opinion.
“He never say he loves me! He always lie to me and act as he is the strongest one!” Kazuya shouted.
Tears almost welling up from his eyes. He recalled how Jin acted last night and the resembled events that happened before, couldn’t help to feel uneasy. Tho Jin was smiling in his imagination, somehow the way the latter smile only rendered more hurt inside his heart. He didn’t know if a smile could be so hurtful that made him hate it so much. Kazuya missed the way Jin stared at him when he decided to protect him that night. Jin looked extremely serious and true by then. He craved for that side of Jin more.
“Then, why not make him say his true feeling toward you? Make him confess and be honest.” Tatchan suggested. He glanced at Kazuya who tried to digest what he said but soon he hurriedly leaved Kazuya and Koki. “My class already started. See you...”
---
The usually neat apartment was currently in mess. Kazuya sighed. He was so exhausted and things that should he pack were still so many. After finished with the fifth box, he lifted the box and placed it above the other stacked of boxes. He threw himself on his bed for resting awhile, stared at the ceiling with his mind wandered off.
Tatchan’s words kept repeating inside his mind since the morning and Kazuya could only cursed himself for not being able to stop the thought of it.
“Then, why not make him say his true feeling toward you?...”
Kazuya knew he deadly curious with Jin’s true feeling about him, what the older think about him and is Jin consider Kazuya as someone that important in his life. He wished that Jin will feel the same but he also couldn’t bring himself not to think about the opposite.
“Arghh!” Kazuya growled in frustration, flipped his body before buried his face into his pillow. Soon lazily he woke up to pick his phone on the table that kept vibrating with the familiar ringtone he intentionally chose as his special ringtone every time this person call him or send him a message.
Meet me in my apartment tonight. - A. Jin
Maybe Kazuya should took Tatchan’s advice into consideration before everything will be too late.
He put his phone on the table, moved his body to continue what he did before. He picked his books and put them in order inside the sixth box. He still got two hours to finish his work before he’ll going to meet Jin soon.
---
Jin opened the door upon hearing the sound of bell echoed inside his apartment and saw Kazuya stood there looking adorable as always. The taller boy gestured, commanded Kazuya walked inside and cautiously closed the door so it will not resulted a loud banging. Kazuya flopped on Jin’s comfy sofa, watched Jin from his seat made a hot coffee for him. Nervously he played with his fingers. He need to tell something to the latter but he was too anxious till he didn’t realized that Jin already sat beside him, served a coffee for him and presented a white box on Kazuya’s lap.
“What is this?” Kazuya asked. He lifted the box and observed it, smelled a nice and tempting scent inside.
“Cheese cake. You said you want it.” Jin answered.
“Ah...” Kazuya quickly opened the box. A seemly delicious cheese cake was shown, practically ready to be eaten by the younger. “I was not serious with what I said. But thank you so much for this.” Kazuya said. He remembered that this afternoon when Jin as usual walked him home after school, he told Jin something about cheese cake and how he wanted to eat it right in the moment. What he said back then actually just a mater of words because Kazuya thought he should found a topic to break the silent. Tho he was so happy if Jin took it seriously and willing to buy a cheese cake for granting what he said.
Kazuya felt the sweet taste of the cake spread entirely on his tongue. He unconsciously smiled as the delicious taste of the cake lingered on his tongue.
“This is so delicious.” The smaller boy praised. His eyes glistened just because of a cake, totally forgot his anxiousness before.
“Glad you like it.”
“You didn’t want it? Or did you ate your own already?” Kazuya questioned but Jin only shook his head.
“Want to taste mine?”
Jin smiled so Kazuya took it as a yes. He extended his hand, gave a better access for Jin to slice his cake but instead of taste the cheese cake Jin placed it on the table before he dangerously leaned closer, kissed the shock boy and thrust his tongue inside when Kazuya gaped at Jin’s sudden movement.
“A-Akanishi...” The boy mumbled between the kiss. He could tell that Jin stole the cake inside his mouth which almost he chew completely but now disappeared as Jin ate it while kissing him.
“Delicious...” Jin commented. He depend the kiss, fighting for dominant with Kazuya’s. He nibbled softly Kazuya’s bottom lip and the latter could only let out an involuntary moan. Jin smirked cause of the response, enjoyed the sight of how the younger boy closed his eyes and surrendered completely into the kiss. Jin’s hands crept slowly inside the boy’s white t-shirt, felt the soft skin under his palms that made him eager to caress the skin.
Kazuya shuddered when Jin’s skillful fingers played with his nipple, pinched it softly and rolled it between his thumb and index finger, made muffled moan that escaped from the younger one’s lips became louder. He knew what it will lead to. The magic touch of Jin almost made him gave in and let himself taken by the older but suddenly he remembered his main aim that he should tell to Jin.
Unwillingly, Kazuya pushed Jin and looked at the older boy’s eyes with heavy breath, tried catching the air to calm down his raging breath. Jin gazed at him like a living question mark, confused with Kazuya’s sudden action because usually the other boy will never resist him.
“Akanishi... I need to tell you something.” Kazuya voiced out. The serious yet nervous visage of Kazuya made Jin straighten up himself, caressing Kazuya’s cheek to encourage the younger while his eyes fixated at Kazuya’s now wandered off eyes.
“I...” He sighed and paused for a moment. “...I will move in next three days.”
What Kazuya said made Jin’s gentle caressed on Kazuya’s cheek stopped. Abruptly he withdrew his hand from the latter’s cheek and turned away. An uneasy feeling wrapped him on the spur of moment yet Kazuya also fidgeting on his seat in anticipation with how Jin will react to his sudden announcement. But Jin’s reaction was totally far from all the scenarios he played inside his head. Instead of commenting about it, Jin stood up and pulled the younger to follow him.
“Kazuya... I forget that I should meet Yamapi now. I’ll walk you home.” Jin said.
He wasted no time for drawing out the younger from his apartment and they just stayed quiet for the next minutes. The awkward moment almost killing Kazuya but he didn’t dare to speak a single word after seeing Jin’s reaction which didn’t show any interest with his announcement. Jin just smiled when they reached Kazuya’s door. No good night, no good bye kiss, nothing. Jin swiftly leaved him at the time he entered his apartment.
Kazuya leaned against the door to support his wobbly legs, yet he ended up sat on the floor with face buried inside his palms. He cried soundlessly as his heart seemly stabbed with a sharp knife. Maybe, he really couldn’t hope for something more than just a merely protection that he could get from Akanishi Jin.
---
Tomorrow will be the day when Kazuya moving out but Jin never made an appearance since that night. Jin’s friends were noticed something was wrong between the two as Jin always stick with Kazuya in almost every time. Yamapi as Jin’s closest friend already tried to dig information from the latter yet Jin just shrugged off when Pi brought the question, immediately walked away so Yamapi couldn’t ask him again.
“What happened between you and Jin?” Koki pulled Kazuya and straightly questioned the latter when Kazuya was in the middle of his way to the library. Beside him Yamapi and Tatchan also gave him a ‘now-tell-me-what-happened’ look, practically cornered the brown-haired boy.
Kazuya sighed. His gaze fell on the floor and he just weakly muttered “Nothing.” He tried to break through the three but Yamapi gripped his wrist and easily pulled the fragile body back at his previous place.
“It is not! Something must happened and you should tell us what is it!” Yamapi yelled. Tatchan swiftly stroked Pi’s shoulder because Kazuya almost freaked out hearing Yamapi shouted angrily exactly on his ear.
“Ne, Kame-chan... what happened? Maybe we could help you?” Tatchan gently asked while rubbed Kazuya’s back soothingly. Tatchan could tell that Kazuya shivered a little but more shocking, he caught a drop of tear slid slowly from his eye some seconds later. Hurriedly Tatchan hushed Kazuya and whispered some comforting words to the latter. Koki and Yamapi were quickly changed their rigid expression into a caring one.
“I tried...” Kazuya said between his sobbed. “I tried as what you suggested, Tatchan...”
“W-what..?” Tatchan had no idea with what Kazuya meant but he still paid attention to what Kazuya said.
“Now I really understand his true feeling. I... I just mean nothing for him...”
“Kame-chan...” Tatchan hugged Kazuya tightly as he finally understand what the other boy meant. “I guess that’s not true. It must be a misunderstanding. I believe Jin always consider you as his someone special.”
Kazuya furiously shook his head when he heard what Tatchan said. “Let me go!” Kazuya struggled. He forcibly freeing himself from Tatchan’s embrace. But the boy insisted and kept hugging Kazuya tighter than before. “I said let me go!”
“Tatchan, just let him go...” Koki sighed, pulling Kazuya from Tatchan’s embrace that gave a chance for the brown-haired boy to run away in one lightning move.
Tatchan whined, stomped his feet and pouted as he totally disagree with Koki’s idea. But Yamapi ruffled his hair, lifted his face and said “It’s better to let him alone” before grabbed Tatchan’s wrist in order to make the boy followed him. Tatchan could only sighed and gave up, unwillingly followed Yamapi and Koki behind.
---
It already eleven o’clock and Kazuya couldn’t close his eyes to sleep. He forced himself with shut his eyes tightly yet it didn’t result anything. Instead he kept rolling on his bed and couldn’t stay still on his place, made the white sheet under him automatically wrinkled . He gazed on his room and he blankly saw how most of his stuff were already disappeared from his apartment. There were only few boxes and some furniture that already moving out his old apartment before tomorrow he’ll move completely from here.
So many memories went across in his apartment. He remembered his first day living independent as his parents were working abroad, the first person he invited and the most memorable from all, his first time there with Jin. He remembered how Jin treated him so gently by his caress and soft kisses and took a care of him so his first time was mostly pleasing than hurting.
Kazuya shook his head. He should not thinking about Jin anymore before he become more suffering. So Kazuya decided to force himself to sleep again, lifted his blanket and wrapped it around his body.
Sleep almost took over him yet an impatient and loud knocking sound awaken him and he slowly strode toward the door. He opened the door while messed up his hair and muttered some annoyance words, but he froze as he aware who the person that interrupted his almost success sleep. And the person was the one that made him couldn’t sleep peacefully tonight.
“Akanishi...” He calling out.
Jin stood up while leaned against the wall. He looked so handsome in his messy appearance tho Kazuya could tell that there was something different with the latter. Jin eyed him, frustration written on his face and Kazuya noted that Jin was not wearing his usual smile. Jin seemed extremely serious... just like the day when he decided to protect the younger, made Kazuya trapped into his gaze and almost forgot how to breathe properly.
The quiet moment between them was not lasting that long as Jin took a wide steps toward the younger, quickly grabbed Kazuya’s hand and pulled the younger into his embrace. Jin hugged the smaller boy tightly, one of his hand unconsciously buried Kazuya’s face in his chest while the other circled Kazuya’s waist as his life depend so much with it.
“Akanishi... I can’t breathe...” Kazuya complained.
Nevertheless Jin hard headedly ignored the younger boy’s protest even hugged him tighter if it possible, making Kazuya gasped at the lack of the air. Kazuya tried to freeing himself but suddenly he heard a sobbing noises that rendered him stunned in Jin’s embrace. Was Jin crying? Slowly he lifted his head just to welcome a drop of tear that fell smoothly on his cheek. Jin really cried, his eyes red because of it and Jin's arms which currently encircled his body was trembled.
With hesitant Kazuya encourage himself to place his hand on the older boy’s cheek, wiped the tears cautiously before Jin grabbed his hand and held it against his chest.
“Kazuya... don’t leave me.” The taller boy said in a hoarse voice. Kazuya could swear he never witness Jin in this kind of devastated state like what he saw now. Yet somehow he felt something warm enveloped his heart, seeing Jin acted so true like this rather than smiled fakely like what he always did.
“Akanishi-”
“-Stop it! Call me Jin! I had enough of you always calling me Akanishi as I just an unimportant person for you. And don’t leave me...” Jin yelled before his voice wavered in the end. He hugged the boy tightly again, nuzzled into Kazuya’s neck in a very protective manner as he afraid if someone might stealing Kazuya away from him.
“You’re always important for me. But I don’t know if you feel the same.”
“How could you say that?”
Kazuya let go of Jin’s embrace, reached both of the taller boy’s hands and held it while his eyes fixated at Jin’s. “You never telling me your problem and always act as everything is okay under your hands. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I really have a place inside your heart or not. You know, the way you smiled to me every time you had a problem just made me hurt and felt abandoned. As I’m not good enough to be someone you could rely on.” Kazuya said honestly.
“I’m sorry...” Jin stared at the floor, losing his braveness to look at Kazuya’s brown orbs. “I’m really not good with the words... and I don’t realize if what I did only made you sad. But believe me Kazuya, I always consider you as the most important person in my life. Even... even if what I said before were mostly a lie, please believe me that my feeling for you is true.”
There was a glimpse of pink shades tinted on the older boy’s cheeks. Kazuya chuckled. The older boy was surely true about how he didn’t made a good pair with words. And Kazuya could tell that it was the first time in his life when he heard the older boy spoke that much.
“Ne... sometimes words is the best way to reaffirm your action, isn’t it?” Kazuya wisely said that responded with agreement with Jin’s shy nodded.
“But... it couldn’t change the fact that you still gonna move from here, right?” Jin commented. His eyes swept the room who seems spacious with few furniture left, couldn’t help feeling sad again.
“I’m sorry...”
“Kazuya...” Jin lifted Kazuya’s face and leaned closer. He smiled widely but this time he smiled truly from his heart, curved the sweetest smile Kazuya ever saw from him. “... I love you.”
Kazuya gladly showing his smile, threw his arms loosely on Jin’s shoulder and whispered. “I love you too...”
Henceforth, Jin gave Kazuya a chaste kiss on his cherry lips, felt the soft lips of the younger touched his own. Kazuya hung on Jin’s shoulder to support himself when Jin’s tongue began licking his lips, asking for permission to explore Kazuya’s mouth that conveniently he greeted with parting his lips, practically made his back arched as Jin leaned so closed against his body. Jin vigorously swept Kazuya’s mouth and got addicted with Kazuya’s taste on his tongue. Soon the kiss became more passionate and Jin more likely ravished the younger boy’s lips that resulted a music of moaning Kazuya into his ears, saliva trailed on Kazuya’s jaw and his lips became swollen from Jin’s attack.
Jin hurriedly threw the younger on his already messy bed after locked the door. He hovered above Kazuya that breathing rapidly, stared at Jin through his half-lidded eyes. He leaned for pecked Kazuya’s lips before he whispered seductively into Kazuya’s ear as lust began controlling him, the sight of squirming Kazuya beneath him with his lips already swollen also not helping him at all.
“Did I ever said that I really love your eyes?” Jin pecked the younger’s eyes softly. “...and your crooked nose...” Jin licked the nose teasingly. “...your porcelain-like cheeks... your chin... you ears...” Jin landed soft kisses on Kazuya’s face everywhere. “...and did I ever said how I adore your alluring lips, especially when it swollen because I was the one that ravishing your lips?” Jin nibbled Kazuya’s bottom lip and slightly bit it, made the boy underneath him moaned as his member starting to awake.
“Ahnn... Jinn...” Kazuya whimpered when he felt one of Jin’s leg massaging his still clothed erection while his hands working to freeing the younger from his t-shirt. The sudden coldness leaded Kazuya’s body shivering a bit, especially when Jin’s fingers began tracing across his milky skin and his nipple being sucked by the latter.
“You like it when I abused your tiny nipples, don’t you? Sucked it till it hardened and covered with my juice.” Jin teased the younger, still maintained his ministration toward the smaller boy. “Or you like it when I nipping on his skin, marked you everywhere so people will know that you’re mine only.” Jin continued whispered some seducing words which surprising Kazuya with Jin’s sudden talkativeness. Yet Kazuya loves this kind of Jin better than the quiet Jin he usually spending time with.
Jin threw Kazuya’s pants and underwear somewhere scattered on the floor, playfully rubbed Kazuya’s erection with his own clothed one.
“You still wearing so much clothes. It’s unfair...” Kazuya pouted.
“Hmm? So... do you expected me to undress in front of you?”
Jin adjusted himself so Kazuya could get a better access of seeing him strip teasing in front of the younger, unbuttoned his shirt so very slowly while sometimes caressing his skin or licking his fingers in a flirting way, he saw Kazuya gulped in anticipation slightly writhing on the bed.
When he fully naked, Jin kissed Kazuya’s lips for a brief time before stroking Kazuya’s shaft. Kazuya moaned louder at the sudden contact and his moaning volume continue increasing when Jin worked his expert tongue licking Kazuya’s cock as licking a lollipop. Roughly Kazuya tugged Jin’s hair when he felt himself being nearer to the edge, lustfully played with his nipple while groaned in satisfaction.
“Ah... J-Jin... I-I... ahnnn...”
“Don’t coming yet, Kazu...”
Jin grabbed the base of Kazuya’s shaft and playfully licked the pre-cum on top of Kazuya’s tip, resounded some whimper from the cherry lips yet swiftly he gasped when a lean finger inserted into his tight hole and a drop of lube slid slowly across his skin. Jin maybe poured it too many as some of lube just trailed on his skin without any of use, but enough to send him some shiver in anticipation of something bigger that will replaced Jin’s fingers soon.
“Moan for me, Kazuya. Say my name...” Jin commanded between his attempt to leaving a new fresh red mark on Kazuya’s neck while positioning his length in front of Kazuya’s entrance.
“J-Jin... I want to feel you... ah...”
Thus he pushed his length inside Kazuya, felt the younger’s tight wall squeezed his cock and he escaped a loud groan in response of the tightness around his shaft. Kazuya whimpered in pain, hand crept on his erection and stroked it by himself for seeking a pleasure while his other hand clawed Jin’s smooth back. Realized that his lover frowned in pain, Jin soothed the younger with one heated kiss and replaced Kazuya’s hand with his own, pumped the erection that soon contributed some pleasure moan from Kazuya’s lips.
He thrust deeper when Kazuya seems relaxed and gradually moaned his name louder time by time, and he went faster as the beautiful boy under him begged for him to go faster, sensed that he couldn’t stay longer. Their friction became rougher and rougher, the sound of flesh hitting flesh was audible inside the room. Kazuya cried out Jin’s name and Jin movement became more frantic just because hearing the helpless moan of Kazuya calling out his name.
“Ah! J-Jin! I’m going to-AH!”
Kazuya spilled his seeds on Jin’s hands and on his stomach. Followed with Jin a second later when he felt Kazuya’s tight wall clenched his member that quickly sent him to the climax. His cum filled the younger boy’s hole and some of them dripped slowly outside the cavern, wetting Kazuya’s now complete mess bed sheet.
He placed himself beside the younger boy, arms surrounded the drenched body and hugged him tightly, so protective.
“I love you, Kazu.”
“I love you, Jin.”
“We still going to meet each other although we’re apart, right?”
“Hmm...” Kazuya just mumbled some incoherent words, nuzzled into Jin’s chest and sleep peacefully like a kitten. Jin sighed yet he still smiled seeing the younger’s expression and decided to follow the younger, not realized how Kazuya smirked upon his skin.
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Although he knew Kazuya will never come back to his school, Jin unconsciously made a way toward Kazuya’s class like what he usually did every morning before the class started. When he realized what he was doing, Jin bitterly laughed. How stupid he was, he saw it by himself when yesterday Kazuya leaved him in front of the younger’s now abandon apartment, waving his hand to him and saying good bye.
He even do not have any idea to ask Kazuya’s new address and his new school cause he just too overwhelmed with sadness.
How he already missed the younger right now. He wanted to touch him, kiss him and feel him even though it just barely one day after Kazuya moved out. He didn’t know if Kazuya already became his addiction. He felt so lost without the younger like a puzzle which missing it’s pieces.
“Jin...”
This voice... Jin closed his eyes, shook his head furiously to drive out the thought of Kazuya. One day of separation already made him became delusional like this. How could he imagined Kazuya called him softly so vividly like this?
“Jin!”
“Arghh!” Jin ruffled his eyes with frustration written on his face. He abruptly turned away yet his eyes widen in shock. The person he longing for currently standing in front of him, looking nervous and... scared.
“Ka-Kazuya...”
“Good morning.” Kazuya awkwardly said.
“B-But... you moved out last days? H-how...?”
“Well... sorry. I forget to say that what I mean with move is that... I’ll stay in my uncle’s house at the time I seeking for a new apartment.”
Jin froze. “Y-you... you lie to me...” He voiced out in a very low voice, almost inaudible. “Why? Why you do this to me?”
“I-I...” Kazuya gulped. Jin held his wrist firmly that it hurting him so much. It not a wrong thing when he began to think that Jin will punish him for what he done. “I-I just following Tatchan’s suggestion...”
“Eh?”
“Well... I never know what actually you think about me and I just kinda hopeless... I mean, I do in love with you but I couldn’t read what your actual feeling about me. Then Tatchan advised me to make you say your true feeling about me and so... I tried...” Kazuya timidly answered, eyes avoiding Jin’s.
“You tried by lying to me about this and tortured me with this feeling of mine because I’m deadly afraid to losing you?”
“I’m sorry, Jin! I’m really sorry!” Kazuya hurriedly apologize, begged for the older forgiveness. “You can punish me with whatever way but please... don’t hate me!”
Jin moved closer and Kazuya swiftly closed his eyes, so ready if Jin will slap him for what he done. But what Jin did next surprising him as he felt Jin hugged him so tight while caressing his back, totally unbothered with people around that eyed them curiously.
“Move to my apartment, Kazuya. Let’s live together.” Jin proposed.
“You’re not angry with me?”
“Of course I’m not, silly...” Jin chuckled. “You could lie to me once but I did worsen at the past by lying to you for countless time just because I was such a coward who couldn’t express my true feeling.”
“I guess so...” Kazuya laughed.
“Kazuya... I love you. I will say it everyday to you even you might sick with countless of ‘I love you’ that I’ll keep saying to you...”
“I love you too, Jin. And don't worry, I will looking forward for it.” Kazuya warmly responded, chuckled in happiness upon hearing Jin’s declaration. “Kiss me?”
“Be my pleasure.” Jin replied.
They fused in their kisses, seeking for each other taste right in the middle of the corridor. People frowned and gave them various responses. Yet they didn’t care. Jin was too happy because his Kazuya return to his arms again and Kazuya more than happy seeing Jin became someone that more true than before.
Kazuya hoped they’ll be more honest to each other in the future because he now understand that words clarifying the action better than everything.
♥ The End ♥
Konoya-chan, I hope you enjoy the story as I enjoyed my time when I wrote it ♥ Feel so relieve because it’s done as I promised (but don’t kill me about the m-preg *hides*)~!
Final exam is over so I’m back~! It’s over faster than what I predicted lol. Now I just need to wait the report, the period that I hate so much. It’s just make me totally nervous and feel under the pressure. Probability keep running in my head and mostly they are the negative one especially when I remember I skipped many classes this semester. I guess... I’ll be busy again after this so I couldn’t promise a fast update for this entire month. Therefore, I excuse myself again *runs from flying slippers* Currently I should prepare my team for a constitutional debate *dies* But I hope I still gonna have lots of time to write~!