[Fic] count down ~Chapter 1: The Cruel Fact That We Need To Face~
A/N : And the story began... So sorry for Koki that I made this kind of bad character for him.
Prologue
A handsome man in his dark and silky hair lying on his bed, not even bothering a glimpse of sun light that rays softly upon his naked upper body. He was exhausted. Damn exhausted because he overworked himself yesterday.
He is Akanishi Jin, a boy who’s currently studying in Business Department and will graduate soon. Living only for himself as he has no family anymore since high school. Back to the past, his father owned a small bakery to fulfill his family needed with the help of his beautiful mother. It just a small bakery but well-known by people around with it’s delicious and pocket-friendly price. Jin as the only son inherited the blood of great baker that his father had, practicing and helping his father everyday so he almost at the same level as his father if it’s about baking stuff.
When he was eleven, his mother had a serious heart disease and couldn’t be saved anymore. She leaved both his beloved husband and son alone as their marriage was unapproved by both of the family. He remembered that at the time his mother died, there were only few people that attending her last offices. He didn’t found a single person introduced himself as his relative from his mother. At least, he still had his father at that time. Because he met the worsen situation seven years later when his father followed his mother path to the heaven. He was so lost, suddenly living alone in this world without somebody to rely on.
Nevertheless beside of all his suffering Jin never want to give up as what his father taught him on his past life. The world is surely a cruel place but we should win against the world and living our best. How awful the world is, Jin just try to live peacefully as a human before someday his time to meet his only family in heaven will come.
Jin started to wake up at the time his cell phone ringing and vibrating under his pillow. He groaned, eyes fluttered adapting with the light before he lazily dived under his pillow. In not his fully conscious state, Jin caught a single email that barely sent to him on his screen. He woke up and do some stretching before lastly he checked his email. At the next time Jin widen his eyes when he finally able to register the message inside his brain, jumped from his bed swiftly and run to wear whatever outfit that he found first inside the wardrobe.
Ur precious boyfriend is here in my apartment. Wanna pick him up?
T. Koki
Kazuya.
His Kazuya was in Tanaka Koki’s apartment.
The thought of it made Jin brushed his teeth hurriedly and dashed outside at the speed of light.
What was that anyway? He knows that Tanaka Koki is a guy that have a big crush with his boyfriend. Tho Kazuya never give a damn to this annoying Tanaka Koki, Koki always try to attract Kazuya’s attention even when Jin was around. Kazuya over and over said that he hate Koki for what he did, telling him how disturbing Koki was with all of his effort to get Kazuya’s attention only for himself. How Kazuya wish that he could have a peaceful relationship with him without need to bother about the shit of Koki.
So why suddenly Koki mailed him and told him to pick Kazuya’s at his apartment?
Was it another prank that Koki addressed to him?
Jin fasten his pace while ignored his own sense of something bad that he might find out soon.
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Kazuya slowly awake tho he still closed his eyes while hid himself deeper inside the warm blanked. His head was unbelievably so dizzy and he felt how his entire body stiffen. It seems that he over drunk last night so he had this bad hangover at the morning. The brown-haired boy still tried to recollect what was happened last night. No result, the pain wrapped his head badly and it caused only more hurt when he tried to remember anything.
He relaxed himself while vaguely he felt strong arms holding him tightly from behind. So warm. Kazuya leaned closer against the bare skin behind him and his hand crept to the arms that held him. He felt somebody nuzzled to his neck, tickled him by the hot breath that made Kazuya drown with the feeling of protected.
Maybe he’ll sleep longer till his headache lessen. Especially having somebody by him side, warming his body from the cold morning air beside the blanket made Kazuya had his little peace. It always felt like that every time he beside Jin.
Jin?
The dim light forced his eyes to open as it began to shine brighter and hurt his eyes. Eyes flickered, adapting with the light and what he saw at first was a figure of the person that lately had been the most important person in his life. Akanishi Jin the love of his life standing in front of him.
Wasn’t Jin supposed to lying on his side right now?
Like hit by a storm, Kazuya swiftly leaped and turned back, eyes widen when he found out who was sleeping beside him and embraced him. Embraced his naked body. And it was...
“Finally you wake up.” The boy said calmly with no burden.
“K-Koki...” Kazuya hissed, sounded so hoarse as the result of dry throat.
He slept with Koki. He slept with Koki. He slept with this Tanaka fucking Koki who always chasing him since who knows and make Jin as his boyfriend suffered because of his one-side love.
Oh my God, so the figure who was standing now undoubtfully really Jin?
Kazuya with the extreme scare that he never had before slowly turned aside. The blanket that wrapped him to keep him warm seems doesn’t have any effect anymore. His face was so pale almost like the death and his body was cold as cold as losing it’s heat.
Jin staring at him with an unreadable expression. Too shock to say something, too shock to react. He fisted both of his hands that Kazuya saw was a bit trembled. Kazuya was too afraid to say something even less when he saw it with his own eyes a drop of tear slide slowly reaching Jin’s left cheek, expressed everything that Jin held back inside.
The scenery piercing the younger’s heart. He never witness Jin crying before as the boy always telling him that his tears was drained at the time both of his parents died. Jin said he didn’t need to cry anymore. As long as he still having Kazuya on his side. As long as Kazuya will never betray the trust that Jin gave to him.
And now he was the one that made Jin cried because of what he did.
Wait... what he did anyway? What happened last night?
It only caused more headache when Kazuya struggled to recalled everything. Moreover Jin already there, with his tears that rendered by Kazuya. How can he thinking clearly right now, damnit!
“Jin...” Kazuya timidly called the boy, totally forgot about Koki who was only watched the drama right in front of him quietly with his grin of victory.
The soft voice calling out his name that he once loved so much slapped Jin from his shock. He heading to the door with a faint steps, still couldn’t accept what was he saw before. Kazuya was cheating on him. The only people that he trusted slept with a guy who definitely hated him. Is the world just so fucking cruel to let him experience this kind of thing? Is he have no right to having someone that love him sincerely and not going to cheat on him with his rival when he deeply so much in love with him?
“Jin!” Kazuya already teary, almost near to flood with tears.
He woke up swiftly and grabbed his pants that scattered on the floor, wearing it on his steps that made him tripped sometimes but he didn’t care. Fuck with his hangover. Fuck with the way he walk that noticeably limping. He stumbled with this damn fellows of Koki, Taguchi Junnosuke and Nakamaru Yuuichi who seems witnessed what was happened when Jin caught at him laid down together with Koki nakedly.
“Jin!” Helplessly Kazuya called the man who almost reach the door and planning to leave.
Kazuya quickly grabbed the t-shirt that Jin wore. He gripped on it so tightly that might rip the boy’s clothe but he didn’t care. He fucking didn’t care with everything if Jin doesn’t want to hear his explanation.
“Jin! Please listen to me. I-”
“-Kamenashi!”
Kazuya startled when Jin shouted at him. And Jin was called him Kamenashi, not that Kazuya with the tone of caring that he always hear coming out from Jin’s mouth.
Jin harshly slapped Kazuya’s hand, freeing his t-shirt from Kazuya’s grip. He glared to the shorter boy behind him, eyes full with anger tho it couldn’t hide the sadness soul deep inside Jin.
“It’s over between us.”
Kazuya stunned. His tears welled up at the time he could swallowed what Jin said.
It’s over between us.
The sentence echoed in his head and almost made him becoming a complete insane.
On the other hand, Jin leaned against the door the second after he closed it and breathed heavily. He wiped his tears that started to drench his cheeks once again with both of his palms. He guess he’ll not going to do anything today, just drawn himself in sadness before he’ll officially begin his new life starting from tomorrow.
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Last night, Kazuya’s apartment, 07.00 p.m
“Koki you bastard! Stop calling me all the time, damnit!” Kazuya yelled to the man on the other line who had called him for nth time that caused Kazuya driving crazy.
“Relax sweetie... it’s all your fault not answering my call. Whereas I have an invitation, special for you...” Koki said while smoked, filled the already stuffy room with it’s smell.
“Not interested.” Kazuya coldly answered.
“Oh, you sure. You don’t know what kind of invitation it is yet.”
“Okay. Just say. Don’t waste my time with some of your nonsense, you annoying hell.”
“You’re so mean...” Koki whined yet he chuckled to the cold reply. “Let’s meet at the usual bar and having some fun.”
“...” Kazuya paused and had to roll his eyes because of it.
“With Jin.”
The sentence made Kazuya stopped on his track as he tried to digest the words.
“W-what? With Jin?” Kazuya said in his shock voice, couldn’t believe what was he heard. “Is there something wrong with you? Are you possessed with some spirit or what?”
“It’s serious, Kame. I decided to stop all this shitty conflict between us and become friend with him. So, come here! If you’re not coming, maybe some naughty side of me will act out of control and who knows what might I do to your dearest boyfriend.”
“You threatening me?” Kazuya said, still unsure if Koki telling him the truth.
“Oh... you know me. Easily change my decision, especially if it’s about a good will. So, come here I’ll be waiting.”
The phone hung up by Koki abruptly, leaving Kazuya who stared at the phone with his trail of thought. Was it true that Koki finally managed to be friend with Jin? Why Jin didn’t telling him anyway? The boy decided to call his boyfriend but no luck. Jin didn’t answer him.
Maybe Jin already in the bar and didn’t realize that he was calling. The bar surely not a good place for a phone call, isn’t it?
Kazuya jumped from his chair, strode toward his wardrobe and chose the outfit that he’ll wear. If Koki was true, he’ll keep Jin save from whatever that might be Koki’s backup plan and surely will kick the latter ass if he planning something bad for Jin.
Nevertheless he hoped that it was the answer for his current and only wish; have a peaceful relationship with his only Jin without need to bother about the shit of Koki. Or whoever.
He already told Jin his simple wish for who knows how many times.
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“You are fucking shit! Your are a big liar and I was an idiot for believe in you so easily. But still you are the worst with all this fucking plan you had to make me broke up with him. Go to the hell, you annoying bastard!”
Kazuya shouted furiously to the boy in front of him after landed a quite hard punch on Koki’s face. Koki smirked while rubbed his bleeding lips, felt the taste of blood while endured the pain. It was a bit surprising. Koki never thought that Kazuya could be that strong as the boy was never involved in any fight and seems so fragile behind his slightly arrogant face.
“You lied! You and your fucking friends cheated me! You said Jin will come soon while at the same time you all made me drunk and worked together for this dirty plan of yours. Just die in the burning hell, Koki! And you two!” Kazuya showered Koki with all his madness, even strode toward Junno and Yucchi to land another punch yet Koki swiftly grabbed him and cornered the boy against the wall.
“I didn’t lie, sweetheart. Jin was came as I promised. Though I forget to mention that he’ll come in the morning after one hot night that we spent together.” Koki calmly said and kissed Kazuya’s neck, made the boy flinched away and swiftly kicked him with all his strength.
“You... you have no right to touch me! I only belong to Jin, you bastard!” Kazuya yelled.
“Oh... face the reality, Kame. I had touched you even we had a hot sex and Jin already broke up with you. You belong to Jin? Don’t make me laugh.” Koki smirked with his smug face, really satisfied with the result of his plan. It’s okay if Kazuya want to punch him till he bleed. At least, Jin was seems so mad to the younger one and likely will stay away forever from Kazuya. Just wait until Kazuya completely give himself to him.
Kazuya flushed when he heard Koki mentioned about the sex part and his mind starting to remember what was happened last night with Koki in a blurry images. What a lucky day! He woke up just to welcome Jin broke up with him and knowing himself had sex with the man that he hate the most in this world. Not in this world, in this galaxy to be more precise.
“THE HELL OF YOU! I HATE YOU WITH ALL MY MIGHT!” The angry Kazuya yelled loudly while landing another punch to Koki.
Kazuya gathered the rest of his clothes and dashed outside, calling for someone to pick him up. He just cried soundlessly along the way till he felt that his tears will drained in a day. Ueda Tatsuya who drove him home sometimes glanced at the son of his master quietly yet he didn’t have any courage to ask him why. His young master was looked so messed from up and down. He even walked without wearing shoes, seems unbothered with his appearance tho he always looked stylish and elegant in every chance.
When he reached his apartment, he quickly went inside and slammed the door, made the poor assistant jumped in shock and just stared confusedly the door in front of him.
Kazuya buried himself on his pillow, wishing that he could redoing everything and having Jin’s warm embrace right now; whispering the word of love and shower him with all his gentleness.
“I’m sorry... I’m really sorry...” Kazuya feebly said between his tears, repeat the words over and over like a mantra for countless time.
♥ to be continued ♥
OMG, I'M SO FALLING IN LOVE WITH NAMIE'S BIG BOYS CRY TO MAKE IT STUCK INSIDE MY BRAIN!
I feel so bad for my one-shot. I suppose to write that one, not this. Anyway, just let my head pick which one that end up easier to write.
KOKI, I LOVE YOU! REALLY! And for Koki fans, please don’t kill me *hides*