I fucked this one up long ago.
dave and i's relationship has been going sour for months now, so we finally ended it recently. considering we were only dating for about five months, and two-three of them were problematic.. this is obviously a very wise decision. our relationship had the potential to blossom into something wonderful and healthy and progressive, but somewhere soon into it, things were rushed. way rushed. we started out at a high speed but it just kept going and i was left behind.
i care for him very much and wish we would have gone down the better path, but that's not what ended up happening. and nothing will change this fact, so all i can do is keep my head up and enjoy. perhaps if i was in this situation a year ago, i would be saying something along the lines of .. "im destined to be alone" or "i suck in relationships" but no. its not that. i just haven't found someone who is worth my while.. i like being free. or not tied down the way i have been. i can finally breathe! and live! im pleased.
everything else in my life that i do .. i don't have the desire to write about it right now. im more in a cleaning mood then story telling. but i thought i ought to write something so when i look back some time from now i remember precisely key moments in my life have occurred.
also, it's really awesome knowing that total strangers may or may not hold your darkest secrets. i feel like barfing. or somehow making it forever impossible to get ahold of xanax again in my life. xanax is for people who can control themselves. aka not for me.
love, kelly
i care for him very much and wish we would have gone down the better path, but that's not what ended up happening. and nothing will change this fact, so all i can do is keep my head up and enjoy. perhaps if i was in this situation a year ago, i would be saying something along the lines of .. "im destined to be alone" or "i suck in relationships" but no. its not that. i just haven't found someone who is worth my while.. i like being free. or not tied down the way i have been. i can finally breathe! and live! im pleased.
everything else in my life that i do .. i don't have the desire to write about it right now. im more in a cleaning mood then story telling. but i thought i ought to write something so when i look back some time from now i remember precisely key moments in my life have occurred.
also, it's really awesome knowing that total strangers may or may not hold your darkest secrets. i feel like barfing. or somehow making it forever impossible to get ahold of xanax again in my life. xanax is for people who can control themselves. aka not for me.
love, kelly