The Best Heart (Chapter 4)
Title : The Best Heart (Chapter 4)
Author : Rien (Plot :
mly_yamada)
Rating : PG-13
Words : 4668
Time was showed 01.00 AM but I just finished posted this.
The POV will be back to Yamada in next chapter, I still use third POV in this chapter but Yamada's POV in the end.
Still need to check maybe.. but I'm so sleepy..^^
You can tell me if something wrong..
Please enjoy this, thank you for reading~
The Best Heart 4
"Hey?" Yamada returned to the room after he take care of the bouquet which was sent by the crew who worked with Yamada for Chinen to show their shympathy it seemed they knew Chinen was sick.
He must getting rid the bouquet and asked all the crew to just go home because Chinen was sleeping, take Yamada for an hour stuck in the lobby. When he returned to their room, Chinen was packing his clothes into his bag.
"We still have time until tomorrow to packed our clothes, isn’t it?" Yamada sat next to Chinen on the bed and stared confused at Chinen’s bag already filled with his clothes.
"I'm going home today .."
Yamada just silent, he was trying to catch Chinen’s eyes which somehow looks red and swollen.
"Are you crying?"
"Umm?" He raised his head this time catched Yamada's eyes.
"I .." but he look down and bowed his head so fast, pretend to be busy with his activities to pack his belongings.
"Takaki have arrived here, half an hour again he would come to the hotel to pick me up. This morning I told him to come to Paris because you're become weird since that incident last night. So he has departed from Japan since the morning, he should already be here .. "
"CHINEN!" With his finger Yamada lifted Chinen’s chin to force him to looked back at him.
"You. Are. Crying. .. what happened? Are you still thinking about what I said earlier in the way come here? If it really bother you, you can forget that.. " Yamada’s grip on Chinen’s chin loosen up slowly, later he was stroked Chinen’s cheek.
"Why are you hate me so much?"
His touch is so soft ..
Why he is so kind to me ?
Chinen tears began to form in his eyes again.
This good man in front of me..
Is belong to Rei..
Rei supposed to be very happy to have him right now..
I was the one who take everything from her..
"But I understand .." he attached his forehead with Chinen’s and closed his eyes, when he saw Yamada closes his eyes Chinen immediately closed his eyes too, Chinen’s tears running down to his cheeks.
"When sickness have claimed half of your life, then you're going easily to doubt that you could be happy.. I just want to decreasing your suffering, Yuri. But if it doesn’t make you happy, you can certainly forget what I do for you.. " when their forehead not attached again, slowly opened their eyes. Chinen did not try to wipe away his tears ..
Rei ..
I couldn’t have what should belong to you..
I've taken your heart, I couldn’t took him from you as well, right?
"Hey? I'm sorry .. don’t cry, please .." Yamada continued touched his face softly that just make Chinen more sad. He just cry his heart out until his throat couldn’t make any sound.
Then Chinen suddenly can’t move, his breathing become heavy..
"Yuri, baby? Are you okay? Do you need your medicine ..?” Yamada with his whole energy throwing Chinen’s bag to the floor and then he pulled Chinen's body situated him on between his legs from behind so Chinen’s back is attached to his chest.
“Stop crying, you make yourself hyperfentilating!"
Then he pulled Chinen with him to the middle of the bed. When Yamada's back already lean into the headboard with his arms around Chinen’s front chest, he make Chinen’s body pressed to his chest.
That doesn’t mean the actual pressure can make Chinen breathing more easily, but Yamada just try to make chinen more warm and felt calm.
"Are you breathing? Are you alright, now.. "
Can he accepts his warmth for a moment, please Rei?
He did not wait for an answer, because in Yamada’s warmth he feel safety and comfortable, he was asleep in an instant.
****
Chinen practicaly sleep in Yamada’s arms, his head weakly dropped to his chest. Now, Chinen's breath seems become more regular and he looks so calm.
But his body heat was rising, Yamada could feel it through his skin.
Half an hour later Takaki came, he knocked on the door. Yamada hardly want to move he don’t want to wake Chinen up.
It turns out Takaki is smart enough, he opened the door with the help the hotel’s manager to get in here.
"Takaki .. Do you know any doctor in paris? I think he had a fever since yesterday, I'm afraid his fever will make his heart bad.. "
Takaki just stood with shocked face in front of their hotel door, but then he sighed.
"Yes, I know. We can go to the hospital .." he said.
After they sent Chinen to the hospital, this morning Yamada comeback to do his filming. Because he can feel more ease now when Chinen was already in a safe place, plus there was Takaki guarding him, so he can focus to continue this movie project. Although Yamada still can’t focused properly at his work, he almost made the crew threw the camera toward him because he kept forgetting the dialogue.
Meanwhile, in the hospital ..
"You're awake?" Takaki smiled at Chinen who was staring out the window. The window curtains blowing cause by the wind and from there they can see the leaves that fall from a tree right outside the room where Chinen being treated.
"Takaki.. Yamada is Rei’s boyfriend.." Chinen said, his voice sounded weak, Takaki put the plate containing apple and watermelon he had peeling and put it on the table.
"I can’t .. if he hates me, I can’t.. But I also couldn’t tell him to not falling in love with me .. "
Takaki’s hand suddenly stop moving.
"Is Mister Yamada love you master?"
"...." Chinen did not answer. "You already know, right Takaki? If Rei is Yamada's girlfriend?"
Takaki be quiet, he bowed his head.
"I didn’t know if he will fallen in love with you, master .." Takaki answered that question with this instead.
"I'm not.. Is not like I don’t want to be happy ! I want to be happy! But I can’t accept Yamada make me happy when I know Rei can’t be happy with Yamada because of me! I .. I can’t do that for the sake of my own happiness, I forget if Rei can’t be happy !! Why Takaki ?! Why you didn’t tell me if Yamada is Rei’s lover, someone who I look for through this years!! Why did not you do that!!" Chinen lost it, he cried uncontrollably even crying was not enough he explode. He throws the plate of fruit which Takaki had been placed earlier to the floor.
Why I always in pain?
It feels more hurt than when I was having a heart attack ..
So hurt when I knew that I can’t be happy with him..
****
"CUT !! Thank you !! Today, we finished!! "
All the crew jumping around happily, they opened sampaghne and screaming for everyone to come partying. Quietly, Yamada ran away from them to Chinen’s car which he rented as long as their visit in Paris. They are no longer renting the hotel room and agreed to go to the airport from the hospital then return to Japan. So he went straight to the hospital, now.
... ..
"Young Master .." Takaki slowly wiped Chinen’s face with a wet towel. He wiped his tears from his face and sweat from his forehead.
"Yamada willn’t going to hate you. We can deal with him, together .. " Takaki hold Chinen’s hand tightly. His voice cracked and he seemed in the edge to cry in any minute,
"I will not leave you, I will always help you.. please don’t give up if you also love him.."
".... I could not do that Takaki .. "
"Miss Rei, would agree if you are falling in love with Mister Yamada. Her heart is already in your body now, she is partially alive and pulsating with you .. "
Takaki’s words seems to make Chinen become more life, his soul come back into his body and he seemed to regain his spirit.
"Ahh, Takaki.."
Takaki smiled a little, he wiped back the tears which flowing from Chinen’s eyes.
"You have to be sure with it .."
Suddenly the bedroom door slammed open.
"HOW IS HE?!!"
Takaki smiled for the last time to Chinen and he nodded.
So when Yamada walked into the room when he see Chinen's face, he smiled at Yamada.
"I'm sorry to always make you worry.."
****
After they come back to Japan, Chinen suddenly like to kissing him randomly, but Yamada never complain about that because he like it taste.
Even when Chinen just pressed his lips against Yamada gently, it always taste sweet for Yamada.
Because maybe in fact Chinen is really sweet.
This just two week after the incident in Paris including Yamada's confession, but they already like a newlyweds.
"I love you .."
This too, Chinen always say it everyday, he explained when he said it his heart get more better.
"Maybe my heart have an ear, so when my heart hear me say ‘I love you’ that will make my heart happy too .." he say while grinning widely. That was enough for Yamada with all his pleasure replied with
"I love you too .."
And kissing Chinen more deeply.
Initially Chinen switch of attitude would make Yamada become confused. Is not like Yamada didn’t want to believe that Chinen really love him? But why did he change?
Actually he had been explained to Yamada that he wants to try to be happy. So his change maybe due to Yamada's words about ‘if someone sick, they don’t want to accept happiness’.
Although Yamada can’t fully believes with just that assumption would drive Chinen to falling in love with him. Or maybe he just wants to take advantage of Yamada to get his own happiness? But for now the answer not really necessary for Yamada because Chinen’s kiss was very sweet and his voice when he says he loves Yamada, was also very sweet ...
Sweet like a strawberry ..
"Ryosuke, yesterday I met with Keito .."
Ah, Keito is Umika soon-to-be husband, now he is Chinen’s personal doctor since Umika’s father became the head of the hospital and being very busy. But every three months Chinen will have a check up schedule with Umika’s father.
"I've got a backup for my medicine and I asked about having sex .."
-Brrrruhh !! -
The orange juice which was Yamada drank, he throw it out again because of Chinen surprise him.
"What is this, Ryosuke?" Chinen just giggle to him, make him pout his mouth. He wiped the juices in Yamada's chin with his handkerchief and kissed Yamada’s nose.
"I know what happened to your body parts below your stomach when we finished kissing each other, its become hard .." Yamada saw Chinen’s face flushed immediately when he say that, Yamada was sure he was blushed too so this is ridiculous, they like a teenager even they already old enough to not blushed when talked about sex.
"And?"
"I want you .. want .. you .." Yamada tried to hold back his laughter. Chinen’s face become more red, he even couldn’t finished his words. Now he apparently a teenager who was worried about to lost his virginity.
"So, what was Keito said?"
"Oh .. he said he had to do a thorough examination to my body and to be more certain I'd better wait until my check up schedule with Umika’s father which is three month again .." this time Yamada and Chinen make poutely face together.
"Yuri .." Yamada blushed again before he tell what he would say this time.
"It's also the first time for me .."
"Ah .. you must be lying! You have been rumored with many women .."
"Yes, I kissed them !!" Yamada closed his lips with his palm then looked out the window right next to their table.
"Even with my first girlfriend. Okay .. that time I was too young to think such a thing like sex just by kissing her. But even though I've kissed a few women before I met you. I was never like this .. "
Chinen looked at Yamada with that eyes.. his eyes when he feels as if Yamada is the only one who could make him happy. So
Yamada throw his look out the window again ..
"When I kiss you, I want all of you .. just with the kiss, you make me so horny to want all your body .."
"Ahhh .."
This time Yamada could hear his sobs.
"Thank you .." he whispered.
"Ryosuke, I love you .." he adding it too.
But Yamada refused to look at him, because he felt his eyes began to be filled with tears too..
****
For them waiting until three months will be quite painful. If the time like this going to happen. This night they watch the movie in the same couch and ten minute later they already making out as if they never get enough with their desserts and kiss each other will make them not hungry anymore.
"Ah .. don’t touch it!!" Yamada slapped Chinen’s hand that was stroking Yamada’s thigh but his hand move more high by the time. He opened his eyes looked directly at Chinen's face, he know that ‘part’ of him will become more hard when he saw Chinen’s face in front of him right now..
His cheeks were as red as strawberry, his lips is so red too make Yamada wants to bite onto it, and what make more sexy is his saliva dripping down his opened lips ..
"Mmm .. Ryosuke .."
Yamada will attacked him again if he so sexy like this ..
Yamada hugged Chinen's waist and kiss him hard, it's wet and messy. Yamada want to grind on Chinen so bad, maybe if they just grind onto each other it will not make Chinen's healt in danger ...
-BRAK !!! -
"YURI !!! KEITO TELL ME YOU WANT HAVING SEX !! "
-Brugh ..-
"Eh?" Umika who broke in to their apartment, see someone fall to the floor and he ran into Chinen’s room.
"Who is that? Is that, Yamada? Yuri? " And Chinen was lie down in the chouch, his face dropped flat in the one of the cushion.
"Umiiiiiikaaaa .. why are you here?"
"I just want to know? Who is that person you want having sex with? " Umika whining, she sat beside Chinen after he was sit up on the couch.
"Hhhh .. Is not your problem Umika !! You can live happily without knowing it! "Chinen angrily walk off from the couch, Umika ruined anything !! That was become so good with Yamada, and she ruined it !!
"But..I will not be able to get married in peace if I do not know who is it!" Umika following Chinen walked into the kitchen.
"You should not be married to Keito if he turns out like gossiping .."
"Noooo .. he said it for the sake of our friendship .."
"Friendship like hell .."
"Mouuu, Yuri .." Umika sitting at the chair on Chinen’s dining table and he handed her a cup of coffee and a cup of tea for himself.
"Yamada .."
"What ?!"
"The man who I want having sex with .. Is. Yamada. " said Chinen cautiously.
"Wooww !! So .. so .. you guys earlier in the chouch .. kissing .. ?? "
"Well yeah .." this time Chinen couldn’t hide his smile from Umika.
"Oooh, Yuri .. you look very happy .."
"Just .. just .. shut up .."
"Ah .. what if we get married together?"
"You're crazy! It was impossible, Umika! There is still some problem I have to cleared out with him.. "
"What problem?"
"Rei is Yamada’s girlfriend in the past.."
"REI!!" shouted Umika shocked, her voice high enough to be heard throughout the room. But Chinen could hear the loud music from his room, so it looks like Yamada is also busy in the bathroom. He will not hear them.
"Sshh .. I haven’t said it to Yamada. If I receive Rei’s heart .. "
"Ouh .. Yuri .. so what would you do?"
"Takaki said Umika would be very happy if Yamada love me. You know, this heart is apart of Rei.. so maybe she's still alive in my body. Yamada’s love apparently make my condition getting better so maybe it's true, Rei also feel happy for both of us. I will invite Yamada to visit Rei’s grave after your wedding and I will tell the truth at that time .. " Chinen smiled, he took his cup and smiled more wider when he knew his choice for their new tea tasted as sweet as strawberry.
"But Rei did not want to give her heart, right? Your father forced her and gave a lot of money to her parents. "
-Thud ..-
His teacup fall from his grip to the table .. he stared in disbelief at Umika.
"What did you say?"
Umika’s face turned pale ..
"Uhh .. ahh .. that .."
"Hey !! Umika your arrival was surprising.. very surprising .. " Yamada suddenly come into the kitchen he mockingly say that to Umika. Umika immadiately save herself from Chinen.
"YAMADA !!" Umika stood up from the table and hugged Yamada.
"I have to go home !! DON’T FORGET YOU HAVE TO COME TO MY WEDDING ON SATURDAY !!! " after that she ran out of the apartment.
"What's with her? Suddenly came and suddenly go?" Yamada looked at Chinen who was clearing the teacup from the table. Without answering his question Chinen goes to wash his cup of tea.
"Ung?" Yamada feeling a bit dumb with Chinen strange behavior. But he just smiled and followed Chinen, he stood behind Chinen and hug him ..
"Babe, you don’t need to be angry at Umika .." Yamada murmured in Chinen’s ear, Chinen almost brust into tears right there but he hold his tears.
"Hey, I need a cigarette .. I'm going out for a while, alright?" Chinen smiled and nodded stiffly.
"I'll be back on time to take your medicine.. and I love you .." he pecked Chinen’s lips and snatched one of strawberry from the bowl in their kitchen island.
When Chinen can hear the door had snick closed, Chinen left the unfinished washed cups. His tears had flowed on his cheeks, he
cried for a while in the kitchen. But then he ran into his room and took his mobile phone.
"Who .. Who should I called .."
Actually he does not know who should he called, but then he decided to call his father ..
****
"YURI !! SHIT !! OPEN THE DOOR !! "
Yamada slammed his body against the door repeatedly, but it didn’t move at all ..
"YURI !! WHAT HAPPENED !! PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR, BABE !! "
****
It is impossible ..
He could still hear her voice, in his head ..
“ I'll give him, my heart !! Now, I'll give my heart to Chinen, NOW !! "
Rei's cries for him, ah ..
He was so stupid, he can’t hear anything because his heart stopped at that time? How could he hear her voice?
Someone must have made some story about it, so he's become delusional like that ..
That might be Takaki, he must have lied to Chinen. So he has that beautiful dream. Why? Why does Takaki always lie to him..
"Hello, Dad?" Chinen tried to regulate his breathing and made his voice back to normal.
"Someone called me and said she was Rei's mother .." Chinen lied.
"What?" His father's voice came across the phone seemed worried.
"Yes, they asked for money again .."
"WHAT?!! Were they tell you something, Chinen?!! "
"Umm, yeah. They tell me the truth. Why .. why you must hide it from me, dad? " he can’t hold his tears again.
"I'll take care of it!"
"NO! I'LL TAKE CARE OF IT !!" he yelled that make his father be silence. He try to adjust his emotions.
"Dad, I already know everything. But Rei's mother just yelled angrily at me. I need to know what is the reason Rei did not want to give her heart to me? Tell me, dad? So I can talk properly to them? "
"Are you sure, you can do it?"
"I have to do it, dad.. Ryosuke will help me .." he lied again.
"Oh, yeah, now you have that guy. I actually don’t really remember, but she begged to met with her boyfriend before she gave her heart for you. But you know, at that time your heart can’t wait even for one minute..
If in one hour your transplant isn’t ready.. you will die.. " he was cut his father's words, with trembling hands he disconnects the phone call.
"AAAARRRRGGHHH !!!"
He was holding his head, cried in despair ..
This is disgusting ..
His life was so disgusting ..
Why to stay alive he must robbed someone happiness and the others live?
It's very disgusting ..
****
-Yamada's POV-
I'm so stupid why I don’t bring my duplicate key with me, earlier. Something must be happened to Chinen. It was already an hour I couldn’t get into the apartment and I couldn’t called Chinen because it seemed like he trun off his phone.
One and a half hours later, I borrowed an ax from the neighbors downstairs and teared down the side of this door with all my strength until I finally broke down the door and managed to ran inside.
"YURI !!"
I ran into our room and sure enough Chinen was there. He was lay down on the bed with a blanket wrapped tight around his body. I almost breathed a sigh of relief when I think Chinen just fall asleep and probably did not hear my voice from outside. But I tense again when my barefoot stepped on something, I don’t remember when I was removed my shoes. I lowered my head to see the things I was stepped on..
It was something wet ..
And red ..
"Oh, god .."
I felt all my energy vanished at that moment, when I knew there was blood pooled on the floor. I almost fainted ..
But I can hear my heart was still pounding so with my heartbeat ringing on my ears, I ran to the bed.
There was blood on his pillow.
But it seems he has been vomited all the blood on the floor before climbing into bed and bundle up his body with a blanket.
"Yuri .." my trembling hand touch bellow Chinen’s nose to felt his breath and it still there!! He is still alive ..
Without thinking I ran to the kitchen and opened the cabinet where we put Yuri’s medicine. But when I arrive there, the closet door was already opened and it was empty. All the bottles containing his medicine that should be there, it was gone.
As if I get a hint I look in to the thrash can and sure enough all the medicine bottles was there. I throwed out the trash on the floor ..
"Ouch .." my feet bleeding when one of the contents in the bins which a shard of teacup pierced my barefoot.
I grabbed one of the bottles were rolling on the floor, the bottle was empty. No pill left in there..
"Oh .." after I realized something, Chinen was washed his teacup before I‘m leaving. I ran to the kitchen sink..
Water filter that is usually there, had been forced open so that there is a hole there. And Yamada take one pill left in the rim of that hole, but the pill was already dirty and wet.
"Shit !! What is this?!! Why did he throw away all his medicine .. " I still feel my hands tremble so hard. I almost in despair ..
I’m become tired, the intention to give up suddenly attacked me. I started to be able feel the pain in my bloody foot from the teacup shard earlier.
But a bowl of strawberries caught my eye.
I was reminded of his smile, his cheeks when it was red like strawberries and his kisses ..
"NO !! I WILL NOT LOST HIM !! "
I ran back to the room and carrying his weak body bridalstyle.
"We're going to the hospital. Do not you dare to die before we arrive there, yuri .. "I muttered, I tried to ignored the pain in my feet and ran to the elevator holding him tight in my arms.
I don’t care if I forget to wear my sandals, I don’t care if my feet was hurt again because I step on something sharp in the way to the car.
When I managed to laid Chinen’s body in the car and turned on the car’s machine. Chinen’s weak and cold hand grab my hand.
"Yamada .." he said in a trembling voice ..
"Shh .. baby, we should go to the hospital.. did you thrown away all your medicine?"
"Yeah .."
"Why?" But I quickly shook my head.
"You aren’t need answered that right now. We're going to the hospital .."
"No .. please just let me die, let me die .."
"Why you always say it, when you are in pain!"
"I killed her!!"
I turned my attention from the road to his crying face. The car doesn’t move yet..
"I killed Rei Aiyami, your first love .."
"What do you mean .."
"Yamada my heart is her.. She give me her heart. It was still here, beat for me.. " I looked at his hands in his chest ..
"Because of my heart suddenly stopped, this heart has been taken by force from her to keep me alive .."
My world seemed to stop spinning when he said that..
I remembered again..
Rei story about his friend who always wears expensive clothes and has a heart disease, the gossips when Rei’s funerals about her was died with incomplete organs gathered on my head.
All the puzzle that had been separate become together.
My hands automatically pulling out the car keys and make the engine die.
Everything went dark, when all the car lights die ..
As my world suddenly darkened.
"What are you doing to her? Threaten her family? " I asked him with my cold voice.
"Yes .. maybe my dad did that.. Uhhuk .." I heard he coughing and it looks like he spit blood again. But I refuse to look at him..
It was dark here anyway.. my world gone all dark..
"Kill me? Please kill me for Rei’s sake?"
"I will not kill you .. but I swear to god, I'm not going to turn on this car .." my hand trembling, my tears flowed as the tightness on my chest tugged on me so hard..
He coughed again ..
"Alright .." he said ..
We aren’t talking after that, just keep quiet in the darkness for about half an hour.
I cried during that time.
Until I didn’t hear Chinen’s cough again, suddenly the basement become so quiet ..
All quiet so that I should be able to hear his breathing, but I’m not hearing anything..
'Ryosuke, I love you ..'
"SHIT!" I put the keys back to switch on the car and with my bare feet I stepped on the gas pedal so hard.
Chinen head fell to my shoulder when the car is moving at maximum speed, his blood dripping from his lips to my arms. And I can’t feel his breath on my neck ….
****
To be Continue
Noooooo ..
Calm down, I will not make Chinen dead ..