crystalised
It had occurred to me while standing around in a group of 4 at a certain bookstore reading our various horoscopes (indian astrology much?) that it is already a new year and the academic year albeit staggered by a week is about to begin. The year flooded by a million things to accomplish and countless sheets and papers might not look as good as I desire it to be. The dread of opening up your smb and realizing that the new time table has been posted up serves as a timely signal that the 'new year' is certainly imminent and any attempt at self-denial will roll over and die. It certainly has crystalised matters of the mind.
I have two major problems with the school reopening, I cannot sleep at 3am any longer and watch seasons after seasons of comedies and dramas anymore. I cannot wake up at 12pm and read by the pool until the sun comes down anymore. I cannot do whatever I feel like doing at the moment given the nature of a structured time table. See, not adapting to the point-elab-eg paragraph structure already.
With the school reopening, I'd have to think of ideas for project work, brainstorm of hrp topics and actually getting down to writing a research paper in 3 days. I guess the pressure of writing a brilliant paper (contrary to last year's results) is increasing as it is my final year and one last shot at good scores is all I can hope for. I seriously need to allocate 5 hours a week to the pursuit of mathematics and the study of physics in order to ensure that I don't fuck up my academics again. Though history does repeat itself and my favourite history teacher continues to teach us.
I guess the point is to start the new year without expectations and without fear because I'm supposed to be fearless at the sight/experience of anything and you don't feel as disappointed when you do not have any expectations to begin with.
I used to type new year's resolutions at the start of every year or at least within the first few days. It has been 7 days and I vow to start my new year without resolution for the only resolution would be the one in my heart. Resolved to start the new year without expectation and without fear, for only then can I react to all and any circumstances.
I have two major problems with the school reopening, I cannot sleep at 3am any longer and watch seasons after seasons of comedies and dramas anymore. I cannot wake up at 12pm and read by the pool until the sun comes down anymore. I cannot do whatever I feel like doing at the moment given the nature of a structured time table. See, not adapting to the point-elab-eg paragraph structure already.
With the school reopening, I'd have to think of ideas for project work, brainstorm of hrp topics and actually getting down to writing a research paper in 3 days. I guess the pressure of writing a brilliant paper (contrary to last year's results) is increasing as it is my final year and one last shot at good scores is all I can hope for. I seriously need to allocate 5 hours a week to the pursuit of mathematics and the study of physics in order to ensure that I don't fuck up my academics again. Though history does repeat itself and my favourite history teacher continues to teach us.
I guess the point is to start the new year without expectations and without fear because I'm supposed to be fearless at the sight/experience of anything and you don't feel as disappointed when you do not have any expectations to begin with.
I used to type new year's resolutions at the start of every year or at least within the first few days. It has been 7 days and I vow to start my new year without resolution for the only resolution would be the one in my heart. Resolved to start the new year without expectation and without fear, for only then can I react to all and any circumstances.