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[rideforvengance]

i'm tired of it.
that's what it boils down to.
i wish to christ i could change my feelings.
i wish i could get a decent night's sleep without drinking.
the things i wish for.
i wonder in times like this if it would be easier to believe in god, a god, any god. i had faith at one point not to long ago, faith in life, faith in love. goddamnit lynn.
she made it all go away.
i know that introversion is not the way to deal with this. but i am an introverted person. there are ways to deal. what happens when they stop working? it's stopped working for me.
oh god i miss her. why do i still love her? i can't deny it, i do. i wish i could care about something else, someone else, anything.

in this place it seems like such a shame
though it all looks (is) different now
i know some things are all the same
everywhere i look she's all i see
just a fading fucking reminder of who (what) i used to be
COME ON AND TELL ME
you made this all go away
you made this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
and i'm scaring myself
you made this all go away
you made this all go away
i just want something i can never have