So Much For My Happy Ending...
So Zach's gf came home from Girl's State today. That kinda sux... it was cool hangin out with him at least a lil' bit and not having to worry aboot his gf. But oh well, I guess she is his gf, so it kinda makes sense that he would hang out with her... but it still sux. Did that make any sense? Well it did in my mind, but not so much on the screen. Oh well. Hanging with Zach and just being around him more and more has made me begin to wonder how much I really like him. Earlier this month I though I was totally over him and I was very apathetic regarding the whole sitchy... but then he called and we hung out... and well, suffice to say I'm not so much over him anymore.
I can't even remember why I broke up with the kid. He's 100% the best guy I have ever met in my whole entire life and threw away a relationship with the best person I will probably ever meet for someone I didn't even know that well? WTF was I on? I mean Bryce is a really cool person and also quite nice and loveable, but I wasn't the best first gf he coulda had. And I didn't really know him all that well. I think I was just kinda in a rut and instead of telling Zach aboot it I just ran away. I think maybe I was born with an allergy to commitment. The strange part of the whole ordeal is that right before I broke up with him we went on two of the best dates...so it's not like that area was lacking. The reason all of this is being rehashed is because I broke up with ihim last summer and now the repercussions are coming back to bite me in the ass. And everyone is trying to play that whole 'it's betterbc ure going to college...' bit, but I honestly think I'd be much happier if I was with him. *Le Sigh*
I don't know what to do anymore. I need some help. Give up? Keep on trying? Sheesh boys....
Bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me and you know you love me.
'Our pain becomes their power.'
I can't even remember why I broke up with the kid. He's 100% the best guy I have ever met in my whole entire life and threw away a relationship with the best person I will probably ever meet for someone I didn't even know that well? WTF was I on? I mean Bryce is a really cool person and also quite nice and loveable, but I wasn't the best first gf he coulda had. And I didn't really know him all that well. I think I was just kinda in a rut and instead of telling Zach aboot it I just ran away. I think maybe I was born with an allergy to commitment. The strange part of the whole ordeal is that right before I broke up with him we went on two of the best dates...so it's not like that area was lacking. The reason all of this is being rehashed is because I broke up with ihim last summer and now the repercussions are coming back to bite me in the ass. And everyone is trying to play that whole 'it's betterbc ure going to college...' bit, but I honestly think I'd be much happier if I was with him. *Le Sigh*
I don't know what to do anymore. I need some help. Give up? Keep on trying? Sheesh boys....
Bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me and you know you love me.
'Our pain becomes their power.'