Oh My God...It's Johnny Moxon--THE Mox
So its definately been aboot a month since I updated this bitch, so I decided I should give it a go. School is finally over- well I guess it has been for awhile...but like I said, it's been awhile. I will be gone for Hanover College on Aug. 26, 2004 and cannot wait to leave this shithole some call Crawfordsville. Blech. Part of this may have something to do with the fact that my summer has been total shit and I have no friends... but I s'pose I digress, what else can ya do nehoo?
So I guess I'll explain the whole shit summer thing first. This is how its gone down: My grandma died two days before my 18th birthday, so needless to say my birthday was totally forgotten. Yah that sucked because graduation was also overlooked b/c she was in the hospital. Don't get me wrong, I have a little bit of bitterness most of the time, but I can't help it... as much as I can try to deny I was pissed, and I'm ashamed of that because that's really selfish. THEN I got myself into a car accident which totally depleated any chance of a job b/c my mum won't let me drive like ever again. Plus my mum is in this whole 'Woe is me' mood all of the time, and while that was understandable closere to the funeral, one would think that she would be able to somehow supress those feelings-- or at least not be in a constant state of almost selfishness. She thinks she's the only one who lost someone and that's a load of bullshit, and on top of all of that she's totally forgotten she's got kids that need her. AHHHH!
As for the whole no friend sitchy, that's been goin on for awhile. Molly ditched me for Ashley and then for Sarah W. so that was the end of that friendship b/c I really don't like either of them and she's ALWAYS up their asses. Sure, she drops the occasional 'Oh we should hang out soon.' RITE. She won't even give me my fuckin movie back. I want Peter Pan back...NOW. As for Hayley, she's too busy jet-setting with her fam. but it's mostly my fault that we're not very close anymore. So I've spent my summer with Zach- the guiy who I'm not sure if I like or not because he's just as fickle as I am, plus there's that little girlfriend problem that he keeps claiming is going to be over soon, but I've been hearing that since... April maybe? So Zach this is for you:
"Waiting for you to call
Don't help the situation at all
I know that you got a girl
You say you still want me in your world
You say you're gonna shut her out
I think you're just runnin your mouth
You gotta tell me what you wanna do
Cause I can't be waitin for you
Boy you gotta make up your mind
Cause you're runnin out of time
If you can stop playin games
Then maybe my feelings would change
If thats the way you want it
Then thats how it's gonna be
Cause I gotta keep on movin
You can't keep confusin me
While Im almost ashamed I knew those lyrics because they're from a JoJo song... they seem to convey the mood I'm in with that boy as of late.
In other news, Mary-Kate Olsen has an eating disorder which almost breaks my heart. Yes that is how big of a loser I am. That's all for now, and damn was that a longen.
You know the drill, bye bye and buy bonds. To know me is to love me and you know you love me.
So I guess I'll explain the whole shit summer thing first. This is how its gone down: My grandma died two days before my 18th birthday, so needless to say my birthday was totally forgotten. Yah that sucked because graduation was also overlooked b/c she was in the hospital. Don't get me wrong, I have a little bit of bitterness most of the time, but I can't help it... as much as I can try to deny I was pissed, and I'm ashamed of that because that's really selfish. THEN I got myself into a car accident which totally depleated any chance of a job b/c my mum won't let me drive like ever again. Plus my mum is in this whole 'Woe is me' mood all of the time, and while that was understandable closere to the funeral, one would think that she would be able to somehow supress those feelings-- or at least not be in a constant state of almost selfishness. She thinks she's the only one who lost someone and that's a load of bullshit, and on top of all of that she's totally forgotten she's got kids that need her. AHHHH!
As for the whole no friend sitchy, that's been goin on for awhile. Molly ditched me for Ashley and then for Sarah W. so that was the end of that friendship b/c I really don't like either of them and she's ALWAYS up their asses. Sure, she drops the occasional 'Oh we should hang out soon.' RITE. She won't even give me my fuckin movie back. I want Peter Pan back...NOW. As for Hayley, she's too busy jet-setting with her fam. but it's mostly my fault that we're not very close anymore. So I've spent my summer with Zach- the guiy who I'm not sure if I like or not because he's just as fickle as I am, plus there's that little girlfriend problem that he keeps claiming is going to be over soon, but I've been hearing that since... April maybe? So Zach this is for you:
"Waiting for you to call
Don't help the situation at all
I know that you got a girl
You say you still want me in your world
You say you're gonna shut her out
I think you're just runnin your mouth
You gotta tell me what you wanna do
Cause I can't be waitin for you
Boy you gotta make up your mind
Cause you're runnin out of time
If you can stop playin games
Then maybe my feelings would change
If thats the way you want it
Then thats how it's gonna be
Cause I gotta keep on movin
You can't keep confusin me
While Im almost ashamed I knew those lyrics because they're from a JoJo song... they seem to convey the mood I'm in with that boy as of late.
In other news, Mary-Kate Olsen has an eating disorder which almost breaks my heart. Yes that is how big of a loser I am. That's all for now, and damn was that a longen.
You know the drill, bye bye and buy bonds. To know me is to love me and you know you love me.