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Yet again too much time as passed by since my last entry. I've been keeping myself busy I suppose. Let's see where I last left off...Oh yes, I stayed working in the restaurant for about 4 months. It was ok. It had it's ups and downs like anything else. It didn't really matter cause like I had mentioned earlier it was only temporary so I just stuck it out. Out of all the jobs I've had, it was pretty easy. But not really for me. Anyways, I did get something out of it. Two weeks before quiting, a new employee started..Who by the way is now my boyfriend. Crazy how life goes. When one door closes, another opens. It was really unexpected but I think those are the type of things that last. At least, it seems to be that way now. I am happy. Like I can honestly say that I smile alot more than I have in a long time. And why shouldn't I you know? Shit, I deserve it. And I'm leaving to bootcamp in 2 months! It's crazy how fast time as gone by. And I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared. Scared of the unknown. Most importantly, scared of making a mistake. Sometimes I feel like I had no other choice. Like I was backed in a corner and I just went for any outlet. I have a friend of mine who is joining the Air Force and the difference between us that he has the PASSION for it you know? He's doing it cause he loves it and always wanted too. I honestly can't say that I share that connection. I mean, I'm not alittle kid. After I finish my active duty I will be in my late 20's. And I'm scared that after all that and almost 30 I STILL haven't done anything with my life. I have my reasons of going though and I still stand by them. I can't let fear decide my life. I can't just give up cause giving up is too easy. Like I always said, the hardest decisions in life are usually the right choices. If everything had an easy answer, then nothing would ever be worth it. It's what I make of it I guess. Even if I don't want to make a career out of the military, I'll at least I'll get something good out of it. That's what I'm hoping. Hey, it just could be the best thing to happen to me, you never know. And I'll definitely never know if I don't try. I'm just glad I have people in my life that have my back and are supportive. Cause I am human. I do get weak but they help me get back on my feet.