Its November 20
Dear God, I love it when Scrubs does "Carry On My WayWard Son" with Ted's a Capella group and the Gooch and her tiny ukulele. I love the Gooch and her tiny ukulele.
Lily is with Paw today. For the second Saturday in a row. I miss her terribly when she's gone, but I find myself very happy that so many people love having Lily right now. I am just exhausted. Dad invited us down on Sunday for brunch... and I just can't stand spending any time with Five (latest fiance). I hope she can make it through like two hours without being a snide bitch.
Baby news is strange, everything got really bad, then everything got seemingly better. I was a swollen fat cow, and then, I lost 17 pounds. I spent a few days in the hospital, they gave me some blood pressure meds, and then I came home. At age 26, I can tell you the symptoms of high blood pressure. So sad. I also have nausea like nothing I've ever ever felt. I'm not the vom type. Just... never did. Never got sick, never threw up.... Now, throwing up a lot. This pregnancy is everything opposite from Lily. I am praying with every prayer I have that this means BOY BOY BOY. I want a little boy so bad, and I know Rajesh does, too.
Finally having my 5th ultrasound. Last time, the baby was 2 weeks smaller than it should have been, so Tuesday we are checking the baby growth again. And maybe this time we will find out the gender. I'm so scared I am going to cry if they tell me it's a girl. I can't stop crying at anything these days, so I won't be shocked.
I have started making Christmas cards, and I bought a new Christmas tree. Yes, it's not Thanksgiving yet. Rajesh is helping me cook his first Thanksgiving dinner. Then, he will be decorating his first Christmas tree. I also got to pop his pumpkin carving cherry... He was annoyingly good at carving pumpkins. Far better than myself.
Lastly, I have begun my latest adventure, starting my own business. I have this great concept for a food truck. Also, I've figured if all these other people can start their own business, then so can I. That's my new motto... "Well, if THEY can do it... So can I!" It's not easy. Just writing a business plan alone is the most overwhelming thing I've ever done. I can do this. Icandothisicandothisicandothis.
Also, when my birthday rolls thru two weeks, my lovely fiance WILL BE GETTING ME A KINDLE. No, I keep saying this as though it will be true. Sadly, the Kindle is not readable in the dark. LAME. Amazon has the best ebook prices and the best library... but the Kindle isn't color (and Nook is coming out with a color...) and it doesn't light up in the dark. I wanna be able to read a book while Rajesh watches TV in the dark. Dammit. Maybe the later generation ones do have that capability.
Yesterday, I found out you can do tarot readings online for free. Why am I a freak? Isn't it funny how eerily right those things are? I think it's because people look for and make answers wherever they can.
Lily is with Paw today. For the second Saturday in a row. I miss her terribly when she's gone, but I find myself very happy that so many people love having Lily right now. I am just exhausted. Dad invited us down on Sunday for brunch... and I just can't stand spending any time with Five (latest fiance). I hope she can make it through like two hours without being a snide bitch.
Baby news is strange, everything got really bad, then everything got seemingly better. I was a swollen fat cow, and then, I lost 17 pounds. I spent a few days in the hospital, they gave me some blood pressure meds, and then I came home. At age 26, I can tell you the symptoms of high blood pressure. So sad. I also have nausea like nothing I've ever ever felt. I'm not the vom type. Just... never did. Never got sick, never threw up.... Now, throwing up a lot. This pregnancy is everything opposite from Lily. I am praying with every prayer I have that this means BOY BOY BOY. I want a little boy so bad, and I know Rajesh does, too.
Finally having my 5th ultrasound. Last time, the baby was 2 weeks smaller than it should have been, so Tuesday we are checking the baby growth again. And maybe this time we will find out the gender. I'm so scared I am going to cry if they tell me it's a girl. I can't stop crying at anything these days, so I won't be shocked.
I have started making Christmas cards, and I bought a new Christmas tree. Yes, it's not Thanksgiving yet. Rajesh is helping me cook his first Thanksgiving dinner. Then, he will be decorating his first Christmas tree. I also got to pop his pumpkin carving cherry... He was annoyingly good at carving pumpkins. Far better than myself.
Lastly, I have begun my latest adventure, starting my own business. I have this great concept for a food truck. Also, I've figured if all these other people can start their own business, then so can I. That's my new motto... "Well, if THEY can do it... So can I!" It's not easy. Just writing a business plan alone is the most overwhelming thing I've ever done. I can do this. Icandothisicandothisicandothis.
Also, when my birthday rolls thru two weeks, my lovely fiance WILL BE GETTING ME A KINDLE. No, I keep saying this as though it will be true. Sadly, the Kindle is not readable in the dark. LAME. Amazon has the best ebook prices and the best library... but the Kindle isn't color (and Nook is coming out with a color...) and it doesn't light up in the dark. I wanna be able to read a book while Rajesh watches TV in the dark. Dammit. Maybe the later generation ones do have that capability.
Yesterday, I found out you can do tarot readings online for free. Why am I a freak? Isn't it funny how eerily right those things are? I think it's because people look for and make answers wherever they can.