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he's dying...they sent him home from the hospital with a "there's nothing more we can do". why is this sooo not fair and why does it have to happen to my family? why do those doctors have to be such a pain in my ass? how could they say in front of him that his best bet is to go home and spend the time he has left with his family in his house. he holds his own future in his hands. if he eats he could prolong it but if not then it'll happen soon....so i quit drama. mrs berger understood....she cried for me but i told her to stop. i think i'm all cried out....can a person go dry? who know's maybe i'll have a little more left in me. i love my chamber choir...you guys rock-i love you so much thanks for the card.
i dont even know what to say. i dont feel like explaining the whole situation. if you really want to know then u can call me. otherwise i dont have the strength to even write it anymore. my life sucks. i think the only thing thats keeping me sane is school. monday was brutal but i would not be making it in school if it wasnt for kolev and kupka. they are amazing and i <3 them. i love my friends who have been there for me but really there's nothing more that u guys can do. i have to deal with it as a family. so he's laying there in the family room right now on a hospital bed, not talking, not opening his eyes.....really i'll switch places with anyone right about now. i dont wanna be the angsty teenager but maybe then more will know what my life is really like. i have to put up with more shit than anyone and over these past weeks i have aged 20 years. i am more mature and less naive of the situation. i just have to find a way to stay sane in school. thanx for reading. it would be nice to talk to a certain neighbor though...we've sort of had this falling out over the past months and maybe we could talk....i could use as much support as possible right now.
i dont even know what to say. i dont feel like explaining the whole situation. if you really want to know then u can call me. otherwise i dont have the strength to even write it anymore. my life sucks. i think the only thing thats keeping me sane is school. monday was brutal but i would not be making it in school if it wasnt for kolev and kupka. they are amazing and i <3 them. i love my friends who have been there for me but really there's nothing more that u guys can do. i have to deal with it as a family. so he's laying there in the family room right now on a hospital bed, not talking, not opening his eyes.....really i'll switch places with anyone right about now. i dont wanna be the angsty teenager but maybe then more will know what my life is really like. i have to put up with more shit than anyone and over these past weeks i have aged 20 years. i am more mature and less naive of the situation. i just have to find a way to stay sane in school. thanx for reading. it would be nice to talk to a certain neighbor though...we've sort of had this falling out over the past months and maybe we could talk....i could use as much support as possible right now.