get up, stop beating yourself, these are the things that you want to remember...
i love jimmy gnecco. the show was awesome.
doors were at 8, and apparently so was the show. i completely missed the opening girl and was getting in the door as jimmy started. i couldnt believe he actually started before i was in the room! crazy! it took me way too long to get in. the girl was somehow too slow to find my name on her paper, but i did finally get in. it was nice to see so many of the people i introduced to jimmys music there! erin, justin and their friend kaleb, erin and chase of course, our old friend dave aka "ct". chases friend and her sister ( that knew jimmy because of chase) then my fried joe came AND veronica that i used to work with. YAY! everyone was very impressed, because how could they NOT be! jimmy played perfectly. lots of new stuff that i have been all over because it is all posted on their myspace page. *sigh*. pit cut his hair, it looked surprisingly really good. its mowhawk-like, only a couple inches long though. i told him it was cute. :)
they took off quick after the show though. it almost seemed like they had to because of the venue? jimmy said something sweet about how their arent a ton of fans here, but how the ones that are here are really good true fans. then said that the venue had some deadline for them. but in my experience they usually hang out after shows inside. they were packing up their equipment right away. so i only got a couple words in with them. they knew i was there though. i was unsure where they went later so i went outside to see that they were just about to pull out of the parking-lot. pit was the only one not in the van yet and i heard him tell a few people he had to run, i so got over there just quick enough to grab a big hug from him and wish him / them safe travels.
i didnt take these pics, but they are really recent... its what i was seeing....
we stayed a while longer though because it was all over at some ungodly early hour like 11:30. so we stayed and drank. and i drank, and drank, and drank. havent been drunk like that in a loooong time. it was kinda fun though. phoenix hill was the place i used to get the most obliterated so it was kinda like old times. erin and justin and their friend left first, then erin and chase ( who drove my car home) then the other girls and last was me veronica and joe. we were getting annoyingly hit on from time to time but it semi looked like we were with joe so we didnt have to fight anyone... haha... he though he was going to have guys after him when he tried to leave because he was sorta blocking guys from us, but whatever. we were not available and did not want to be hit on, so he saved us and obviously nothing happened to him when he left :)
i feel amazingly great today for having been so drunk. i am super tired, but that is the worst of it. there is nothing on tv and i am super bored. i keep falling back asleep. i cant decide if i want to do anything later. but kate may call me... who knows. i guess i am just going to lay around until then.
this week is going to be nice, i only work mon & tues and i have the rest of the week off. morbid has the whole week off. we were going to go to horrorfest but morbid has changed his mind now because some of the guests he wanted to go for have cancelled. i dont know how i feel about that. i dont really have strong feelings about the festival but it was something really for morbid, because we dont usually do things for him and i wanted to make sure he could enjoy this. now it may be too late to book the dog at the vet so we probably really cant go anymore. it will be nice to have a few days off anyway though. i can work on my stress levels. my buddy scott got fired yesterday because of his attendance. ugh, how irritating. all of my favorite fellow employees are leaving one way or another. its making my job more of a job then it is with them there. it is just good i am going to have some time away. i need to find my heart and put it into the things that are worth it for me again.
who knows what will happen. i just need to unwind. i made an appointment in october with a dermatologist and i attempted to make an appointment with a therapist but got no answer. i probably called too late in the day, so i will keep calling this week and hope for more success.
i am learning how to center again. i need to focus on me and do what i want and let it feel good.
.exhale.
.breathe.
.live again.
.xo.
doors were at 8, and apparently so was the show. i completely missed the opening girl and was getting in the door as jimmy started. i couldnt believe he actually started before i was in the room! crazy! it took me way too long to get in. the girl was somehow too slow to find my name on her paper, but i did finally get in. it was nice to see so many of the people i introduced to jimmys music there! erin, justin and their friend kaleb, erin and chase of course, our old friend dave aka "ct". chases friend and her sister ( that knew jimmy because of chase) then my fried joe came AND veronica that i used to work with. YAY! everyone was very impressed, because how could they NOT be! jimmy played perfectly. lots of new stuff that i have been all over because it is all posted on their myspace page. *sigh*. pit cut his hair, it looked surprisingly really good. its mowhawk-like, only a couple inches long though. i told him it was cute. :)
they took off quick after the show though. it almost seemed like they had to because of the venue? jimmy said something sweet about how their arent a ton of fans here, but how the ones that are here are really good true fans. then said that the venue had some deadline for them. but in my experience they usually hang out after shows inside. they were packing up their equipment right away. so i only got a couple words in with them. they knew i was there though. i was unsure where they went later so i went outside to see that they were just about to pull out of the parking-lot. pit was the only one not in the van yet and i heard him tell a few people he had to run, i so got over there just quick enough to grab a big hug from him and wish him / them safe travels.
i didnt take these pics, but they are really recent... its what i was seeing....
we stayed a while longer though because it was all over at some ungodly early hour like 11:30. so we stayed and drank. and i drank, and drank, and drank. havent been drunk like that in a loooong time. it was kinda fun though. phoenix hill was the place i used to get the most obliterated so it was kinda like old times. erin and justin and their friend left first, then erin and chase ( who drove my car home) then the other girls and last was me veronica and joe. we were getting annoyingly hit on from time to time but it semi looked like we were with joe so we didnt have to fight anyone... haha... he though he was going to have guys after him when he tried to leave because he was sorta blocking guys from us, but whatever. we were not available and did not want to be hit on, so he saved us and obviously nothing happened to him when he left :)
i feel amazingly great today for having been so drunk. i am super tired, but that is the worst of it. there is nothing on tv and i am super bored. i keep falling back asleep. i cant decide if i want to do anything later. but kate may call me... who knows. i guess i am just going to lay around until then.
this week is going to be nice, i only work mon & tues and i have the rest of the week off. morbid has the whole week off. we were going to go to horrorfest but morbid has changed his mind now because some of the guests he wanted to go for have cancelled. i dont know how i feel about that. i dont really have strong feelings about the festival but it was something really for morbid, because we dont usually do things for him and i wanted to make sure he could enjoy this. now it may be too late to book the dog at the vet so we probably really cant go anymore. it will be nice to have a few days off anyway though. i can work on my stress levels. my buddy scott got fired yesterday because of his attendance. ugh, how irritating. all of my favorite fellow employees are leaving one way or another. its making my job more of a job then it is with them there. it is just good i am going to have some time away. i need to find my heart and put it into the things that are worth it for me again.
who knows what will happen. i just need to unwind. i made an appointment in october with a dermatologist and i attempted to make an appointment with a therapist but got no answer. i probably called too late in the day, so i will keep calling this week and hope for more success.
i am learning how to center again. i need to focus on me and do what i want and let it feel good.
.exhale.
.breathe.
.live again.
.xo.