another summer almost gone
so here i sit in mah cherrrrr ("my chair" phonetically gangsta-rized), just got home from Schlitterbahn with mel, todd, and adam. it really is the hottest coolest time in texas, especially on disocunt days. all in all i've had a pretty good summer. a little funky, sorta wild, mostly full of work and thought provoking situations and people. so here i sit, 2 days shy of 18, 2 weeks left with mommy and daddy, and a little less than a month till classes start kicking my ass. moving is a wonderful thought. i just slide out of whatever's going on and daydream, alot more than i'd like but it's soooo nice.
i'm a little worried that i've lost parts of myself along the way this summer. by no means has my innerchild vanished or been tainted, but my sense of leisure is near gone. my morality is constantly shaken and i think i've lost faith in all means of faith. i believe in people and science. the spirit and soul are a part of us all and the earth, can't that be enough to ground a person? i've really gained a dislike for church and it's because i dont understand half of the stuff they're basing these whacked out theories on. i really need to work on that.
i just finished the 6th harry potter book and i don't think i've ever cried so much from a book ever ever ever in my life. i actually prayed for harry's next year and that the author doesnt kill him. she can't kill harry because he needs to become real and marry me, much like jeff buckley, hans solo, and the younger form of robert plant.
this summer i decided that i'm going to do my best to quit bad talking the people close to me. it's reaaaaaally hard because they can be so frustrating, but i think i'll be happier if i just let somethings go or let other win an argument occationally. i went on a date recently and all of the jokes that this guy made were at the expense of others. i tuned out and counted down the minutes. there's nothing uglier than spreading negativity, there's just no need for it. i prefer letting people define themselves, they don't need my pysco-annalysis to reassure them of their existance or serve as a false sense of acceptance. do what you want and be who you need to be. and let me do the same without questions.
pshaw like any of this will ever happen. it's a nice thought, but not very pracital i guess. i'm full of shit.
who came up with pole vaulting? who looked at a really long stick and thought "by golly i bet it would be super fun to use some leverage and fling myself around with this stick!" that notion is weird to me.
and also, how is possible that as a human society we've been eating peanut butter for hundreds of years now and we have not evolved to be able to lick it off of the roof of our mouths.
sorry that most of this incoherant and silly. i don't have it in me to analyze myself or my life, or post anything witty or smart.
i'm all at sea.
peace
i'm a little worried that i've lost parts of myself along the way this summer. by no means has my innerchild vanished or been tainted, but my sense of leisure is near gone. my morality is constantly shaken and i think i've lost faith in all means of faith. i believe in people and science. the spirit and soul are a part of us all and the earth, can't that be enough to ground a person? i've really gained a dislike for church and it's because i dont understand half of the stuff they're basing these whacked out theories on. i really need to work on that.
i just finished the 6th harry potter book and i don't think i've ever cried so much from a book ever ever ever in my life. i actually prayed for harry's next year and that the author doesnt kill him. she can't kill harry because he needs to become real and marry me, much like jeff buckley, hans solo, and the younger form of robert plant.
this summer i decided that i'm going to do my best to quit bad talking the people close to me. it's reaaaaaally hard because they can be so frustrating, but i think i'll be happier if i just let somethings go or let other win an argument occationally. i went on a date recently and all of the jokes that this guy made were at the expense of others. i tuned out and counted down the minutes. there's nothing uglier than spreading negativity, there's just no need for it. i prefer letting people define themselves, they don't need my pysco-annalysis to reassure them of their existance or serve as a false sense of acceptance. do what you want and be who you need to be. and let me do the same without questions.
pshaw like any of this will ever happen. it's a nice thought, but not very pracital i guess. i'm full of shit.
who came up with pole vaulting? who looked at a really long stick and thought "by golly i bet it would be super fun to use some leverage and fling myself around with this stick!" that notion is weird to me.
and also, how is possible that as a human society we've been eating peanut butter for hundreds of years now and we have not evolved to be able to lick it off of the roof of our mouths.
sorry that most of this incoherant and silly. i don't have it in me to analyze myself or my life, or post anything witty or smart.
i'm all at sea.
peace