be my dream journal for a moment
last night, weirdness ensued in my brain
i remember
being in a restaurant, with a long bar along the back wall
tables filled a decent space of the restaurant
it was dimly lit
kitchen was behind the bar, with an open window cut for viewing and serving
i was talking to someone, quite important
she was a server
trying to get an answer from her, but she was being wofty
appeared busy although no one was in the restaurant
saw tim through the window working in the kitchen
my eyes froze, slight panic in my gut
tried one last time to get the girl to answer me
tim came around the corner and walked directly towards me
made eye contact, i casually say 'how are things'
he answers 'working in a kitchen, so how do ya think'
he kept walking
i gazed as he walked away and then promptly left without a reply from the server
next i remember pulling my car into a parking lot
boxed in as if it was an extra wide alley
high buildings on both sides
convenience store in the back wall
car i was driving was an older model buick
i parked in front of the convenience store
there was a larger black girl with me
she appeared to be close with me
when we got out of the car i smiled at her
we were going into the store to pick up some things
unsure what exactly
as she came around the car to walk towards the store that's when i smiled
she must have said something as she was walking around the car
i feel i said something along the lines of 'i'll be right in'
i started to reach into the car to grab something before heading in
then i heard the high rev of an engine
while i'm facing the car i turned to my right look towards the road
a suburban was heading into the wide alley at a high speed towards the store
i was still smiling unaware
as i see the truck speeding in, still smiling, i turn to my left
i see the girl i'm with crossing through the empty parking spaces walking towards the store
i once again turn back to my right, smile starting to fade
my eyes lock onto the suburban as my brain starts to scream warnings
before any words can escape my lips the truck hits her at full speed
i gasp and start to shake
the thud and popping sound was so loud
i can still hear it now
the girl exploded into so many pieces
i got sprayed with pieces of her
i saw a limb fly overhead
i caught a glimpse of it soaring by the square of blue sky above my head
it was a very clear day, such a beautiful day
the truck did not hit her and stop
it drove through her at high speed and then stopped in the parking spot
engine idling as it was parked where she once stood
blood all over the ground
the walls
the truck
it just sat there, idling
i was shaking, contemplating my next move
no one knew i would have been with her
i couldn't let this jeopardize what i was doing that day
another vehicle pulled in
a hatchback of sorts
company vehicle with logos
it pulled in directly beside the suburban
essentially driving and parking over the remaining bits of who i assume was a friend
a confidant at the very least
or maybe i was hers
there was trust and mutual respect between her and i
i could just feel it
i don't know who or what i was chasing
but she was helping me
i was distraught, but had to go
no one could know i was there
so i got back in the car and screamed like no one could hear me
i woke up.
nothing like a dream about trying to investigate something that i cannot remember, only to witness vehicular manslaughter of a person trying to help me and be powerless to do anything about it. the haunting of a cold case i know nothing about. i wish i knew who or what i was chasing after. that was utter chaos. and that sound.. oh that sound... that is going to haunt me for awhile..
i remember
being in a restaurant, with a long bar along the back wall
tables filled a decent space of the restaurant
it was dimly lit
kitchen was behind the bar, with an open window cut for viewing and serving
i was talking to someone, quite important
she was a server
trying to get an answer from her, but she was being wofty
appeared busy although no one was in the restaurant
saw tim through the window working in the kitchen
my eyes froze, slight panic in my gut
tried one last time to get the girl to answer me
tim came around the corner and walked directly towards me
made eye contact, i casually say 'how are things'
he answers 'working in a kitchen, so how do ya think'
he kept walking
i gazed as he walked away and then promptly left without a reply from the server
next i remember pulling my car into a parking lot
boxed in as if it was an extra wide alley
high buildings on both sides
convenience store in the back wall
car i was driving was an older model buick
i parked in front of the convenience store
there was a larger black girl with me
she appeared to be close with me
when we got out of the car i smiled at her
we were going into the store to pick up some things
unsure what exactly
as she came around the car to walk towards the store that's when i smiled
she must have said something as she was walking around the car
i feel i said something along the lines of 'i'll be right in'
i started to reach into the car to grab something before heading in
then i heard the high rev of an engine
while i'm facing the car i turned to my right look towards the road
a suburban was heading into the wide alley at a high speed towards the store
i was still smiling unaware
as i see the truck speeding in, still smiling, i turn to my left
i see the girl i'm with crossing through the empty parking spaces walking towards the store
i once again turn back to my right, smile starting to fade
my eyes lock onto the suburban as my brain starts to scream warnings
before any words can escape my lips the truck hits her at full speed
i gasp and start to shake
the thud and popping sound was so loud
i can still hear it now
the girl exploded into so many pieces
i got sprayed with pieces of her
i saw a limb fly overhead
i caught a glimpse of it soaring by the square of blue sky above my head
it was a very clear day, such a beautiful day
the truck did not hit her and stop
it drove through her at high speed and then stopped in the parking spot
engine idling as it was parked where she once stood
blood all over the ground
the walls
the truck
it just sat there, idling
i was shaking, contemplating my next move
no one knew i would have been with her
i couldn't let this jeopardize what i was doing that day
another vehicle pulled in
a hatchback of sorts
company vehicle with logos
it pulled in directly beside the suburban
essentially driving and parking over the remaining bits of who i assume was a friend
a confidant at the very least
or maybe i was hers
there was trust and mutual respect between her and i
i could just feel it
i don't know who or what i was chasing
but she was helping me
i was distraught, but had to go
no one could know i was there
so i got back in the car and screamed like no one could hear me
i woke up.
nothing like a dream about trying to investigate something that i cannot remember, only to witness vehicular manslaughter of a person trying to help me and be powerless to do anything about it. the haunting of a cold case i know nothing about. i wish i knew who or what i was chasing after. that was utter chaos. and that sound.. oh that sound... that is going to haunt me for awhile..