more to come...

[rgirl]

there will be more said. there's even an entry pre-written on my laptop i haven't uploaded here yet.
i am at work, so i shouldn't even be on here.
but i need to talk.. so bad.
ida passed away feb 1st.
2 days before frank's bday.
3 days before her own.
now it's nan.
she went to sleep yesterday and still hasn't opened her eyes back up.
she's still breathing, just not waking up.
dad told her it's time to go be with grampie.
i think she's going to listen.

this is the year for the suffering to end.. apparently.
i wasn't consulted about any of this..
we never get the choice, because the answer would always be the same..
"i'm not ready", we'd say. and we aren't.
no matter how long we know this day is coming, we're never ready for it.