Worst Weekend Ever (WARNING: very heavily packed with TONS emotional crap. I'm serious.)

[rexin_v]

Man, I just can't let this blow over without ranting about it here on LJ. It will be good for my health I'm sure, because I'm feeling pretty shitty right now. I've been crying so much and for so long I have one mother of a headache. Took some advil to take care of that, ah yes...some sweet relief after hours of my head throbbing. Of course I have

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[wicked_radiance]

A minute of silence for Genesis =(

Since you already know my feelings about what happened I'll just comment on the deeper stuff and the adorable pictures.

My feelings about those "good memories" is that they'll make you feel better later. Like months from now you'll be able to say "Yeah that was my Genesis" but not right now. I always hate how on a tv show or a movie or just anything where someone dies and then like right after people share the "good memories" and they all stop crying. I'm always like no see that isn't how it works right now is crying sad times D: But one day once the pain isn't so raw (And that is another thing I don't think time "heals all wounds" but instead just kind of lets them scab over a bit (keeping with the wound theme) so it doesn't hurt as much but it is always there D: I could cry right now thinking about my first cat that got run over, Sparkles who just went missing one day D:, mama cat, Spook my mom's cat that lived so long, Ruby who the vets screwed over D:)

Also on the God thing, I don't think anyone's time is ever really done. I think there is always something else they could have done and as long as you remember them they are still having an impact on life. I still blame the asshole in the car >=(

Genesis is seriously one of the prettiest cats I've ever seen and that is just the prettiest little kitty family ever D:

Sorry for the long comment, just want to finish up by saying your entry made me cry D: and that all of us up here (even the cats) are thinking about you guys v.v

[rexin_v]

Ooooh wow. >.> you actually sat down, and read my emotional throw up! You deserve like, the Nobel Prize, or something for being such a good friend. And btw, now that I'm much calmer (lol I was crazy when I wrote this!) I agree with you about the good memories. Right now just thinking about the happy squee times is like rubbing salt in the wound. But when I think about older pets that I've lost, like pup (hee pup) and Duchess II (cuz you had duchess the I =3), I'm like Yeaaaaah they were so cool. And with the scabbing? Yeah the sadness never really left, I could bawl my eyes out for them anytime if I just concentrated, and both of them were run over as well. Duchess II I'm not sure about, but she never came home, like your poor Sparkles, so it was assumed.

You know I don't think I knew about Sparkles...I thought maybe she just died of old age, but that makes me sad =(
And I didn't mean to make anybody but myself cry, I'm sorry. LOL seriously I thought you would have read the title and just go "Oooh okay, I think I'll skip this entry" XD.

I wonder how his bros. and sissys are...you know when Duchess II went missing Casanova got all mopey XD. I wonder if they are, but I doubt it. They are too occupied with each other, and Mischa with her attitude is like "Eeeh darn kids -_-" lolz. But they all act just like brothers and sisters, so it made me wonder for a bit.

But ack, I woke up rejuvenated and now I feel like crying again v_v. Don't wanna start that again, but I guess it’s inevitable. Today it’s been like, yeah I feel good and witty...and then somebody flips a switch and its sadness again. I hope tomorrow I don't start crying randomly at school o_O that would embarrass the hell outta me XD. Classes! Be distracting! But overall I'm less raw, tomorrow should be even better. And tell your kitties I says "HI"! XD, and give Cream some pets for me, she’s still around no?

[wicked_radiance]

Ah sorry D: didn't mean to bring back the pain by responding D:. Yes Cream is still around >.> she disappears for a few days and everybody freaks out but she comes back D: wish she wouldn't do that.

I know the only time I cried over a pet during class was when a friend of mine thought it was lolz funny that my friend ran over her own cat =| we were both crying and I wanted to hit her. And that was like her best friend too O_o. Otherwise the distraction of class seems like it can hold it off. The day Ruby died was the day I had to make my final speech in ..speech (lol that sounds weird) made it through like three hours alright =( just tried not to think about it.