I'm back...in a way.

[reveille_d]

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[footpad]

There is probably something I should learn from this, and it is probably very, very obvious. In fact it's so obvious that I am averse to learning it.

Hmmm.

[araquan]

*hugs* Believe me, I did notice. You do have to do things for you though... it's good to share good times with others, and that has value, but in the end it still has to mean something for you. I hope you find satisfaction in what you do, and I hope to see you here and there as you do it. }:D

[stalbon]

I think it's all the better that you've finally got it in mind to do these things for yourself. I always enjoy seeing you online, but if you're hanging out to hang out, it's probably better to shut those down and find something you can better immerse yourself in. I am aware of my own problems with selfishness/selflessness, both online and in other activities, so I can sympathize with your fight in trying to reaffirm what you can have fun with, and what means the most to you. As always, just keep yourself well, my friend.

Cracked

[excelsiorlion]

I have GOT to go to Chicken one of these days to see what so many have been saying about them!

I've been suffering from addictive behavior to FA & FB myself and have been trying to wean myself off of them. Not much luck at that.

What you've said your doing now sounds extremely healthy and I'm envious. I have learned some of that mindset stuff so as to take things in a different perspective. It's been difficult in some cases. Never thought of seeing being online as to be for ME as I tend to be mainly for THEM. I love to help but it's been draining for me. So my depression remains pretty bad despite medications.

*sigh*, enough about me, I really should not put it that way but the point is your doing well and are on the right track and I envy that. My therapist thinks I am too but I'm always in a 'grim' mood all the time. I've lost the 'having fun' part of being a furry hence the 'grim' label for my current attitude.

I am glad to hear your doing better now! :-)

[jjwolverine]

As an introvert I also find those repeated, casual interactions with large numbers of people on Twitter, chat, and at parties / Chicken to be sort of ... repeated failures to really connect. They have a place in my life, but overall they can become draining. So I wholeheartedly sympathize with your urge to unplug

[reveille_d]

I didn't mention it no. That's because I'm not sure. :P There are times when I actually desperately crave the company of others, and can go and enjoy being around a large crowd. There are other times when I desperately crave being completely alone. It comes and goes, though the latter is more prevalent than the former, and there are triggers that can make one or the other instantly true. For instance, going to a gathering and having no one to talk to or nothing to talk about. Sometimes the currents of conversation aren't cooperative for sailing on them. In cases like that, I might go immediately introvert. The problem is that I don't leave when I should. I stick around until I feel like crap, THEN I leave. I need to realize when the switch flips and remove myself, not sit around beating myself up about. That just leaves me feeling horrible in the end. :P

But yeah, I get what you're saying. It's definitely something I'll be keeping in mind, and trying to reconcile. Thanks! :) *hug*